Life of a trader

After the death of my father in february 2019 and after the covid pandemic,i came to realise that one should not independently rely on a job alone,i later on made a claim to myself that i would venture into forex trading but little did i know how that was going to change my life....my beliefs,my character and personality as it is im sharing with a friend,i cannot afford a place of my own😔😔 how terrible and miserable with thoughts of suicide dominating my mind,theyre times i wish i could jus die n rest in peace because the world has become unbearable ....this is real and would like this book to serve as a journal n mouthpiece when im no longer around ,i dont talk that much so little is known about me by everyone I kindly advise n recommend that people should draw lessons from my mistakes and errors so im a single father currently residing in a foreign land with no relatives or family i have no social affiliations with anyone and jus recently ive lost my job,well i quit coz the money kept getting less and less i had hoped to start a career as a fulltime trader hope all work out