Jay's Love...

Episode 19 : Are you jealous?

"What happened to you? Why are you so angry? I didn't want Rose to die but it happened, I know it is not my fault but at the same time, I am happy at least that I had fulfilled her wishes even not all."

"If you know that it is not your fault then why you have slept around with so many ladies?" Pap! Feel like slapping him on his stupid face. His facial reaction shows that he didn't expect this from me. Then expecting me to sing a lullaby, is it? I hate these types of guys, looking for reasons to have free s*x. "No wonder, so easily you asked me to have s*x with you too!" There you go, it came out from my laser mouth. No censoring, from brain straight to mouth. He has triggered the pain which that I had kept at the deepest of my heart long ago. He didn't say anything for a while, he took my hand and put the coffee in my hand "Drink it!".

I took to my lips "Be careful it's hot". I stared at him, his eyes were full of affections. I just nodded, blew the coffee, and sipped it slowly. Once I finished, he took my hand walked to his car. He opened the door for me, let me sit in, fasten my safety belt, closed my door, and walked faster to the driver's seat. He started the engine and headed up to the highway again. He didn't ask or say anything. He fully focused on the driving and within 2 hours we have reached X city, as usual, he took me to the shop where we always have dinner. I was not in the mood to eat so just ordered watermelon juice and he had garlic nan. While he had it he fed me few mouths as well even I refused strongly. I am feeling drained out of the incident which happened on the highway just now. It was only 8 o'clock so he asked me to accompany him while he smoke's vape. He smokes vanilla flavor which smells nice too not like cigarettes. Around 9 pm we walked back to the car. He adjusted the air conditioner slightly to be cool. I was staring straight at whatever was in front of the car.

Suddenly he pulled me by pulling my right hand, hold my chin higher so that my eye was forced to see him automatically. I was looking at him, his face becoming bigger and bigger. He was coming nearer to me, I can feel his hot breath on my nose, he slightly tilted my chin, and his head, he didn't kiss me but was licking or drawing on my both lips with his tip of the tongue. My body trembled without control the moment he realized it he hugged me to transfer his body heat to make me comfortable. I closed my eyes, I can't control myself anymore. Slowly the tip of his tongue moved to my chin, to my neck, he bit my earlobe, his other hand was still hugging me tightly, and lastly, he asked like whispering in my ear "You want more?"

That moment I woke up from the dreamy world, I pushed him away immediately. He pulled me back and kissed me passionately signaling to be quiet. He was taking control of me with his kiss. I refused to open my mouth and he bit my lip with a small amount of pain so that I will open my mouth spontaneously. As he expected I did, he attacked my tongue by sucking it for some time until I was out of breath, only he let go when he saw me struggling for air. He let go out of a sudden, I was shocked and surprised too at how my body is responding to him even after I know he is a casanova. I just kept quiet I didn't say anything as though nothing has happened. I was like a stone just to show him his kiss doesn't affect me a little bit also which was a big lie.

He drove the car with a full of smiles on his face. After he dropped me at the lobby, I pulled my luggage straight into the lift without turning back to look at him. Once I was out of the lift I received the text message asking inside the house. I ignored it, I am not going to reply to him anything after this. I took bath for about half an hour, I stand very long under the shower while crying to myself. What Jay told me today really makes me hate him. This man is very dangerous and I cannot play with fire. I don't want to get hurt again. I can feel the pain that I went through 20 years ago, my heart starts to bleed again. After crying so long I felt more relaxed I came out of the bathroom, the house is very peaceful due to no one at home. I had some cold milk from the fridge straight to bed. Set alarm for tomorrow morning and simply closed my eyes. 

The image of "him" and Jay flashed one after one was torturing me, at the same time my phone was receiving few WA messages. I checked it, from Kira asking have we reached safely? Replied with a yes, came in another message which I really don't want to open. I can see on the screen that Jay was asking me "Are you jealous?" Jealous my foot you assxxx. Was I really angry or was I angry because he was sleeping around with other women and not me? Or was I jealous actually? Seriously Krish!! That's all you have?? You don't feel shame? You are not scared you will be hurt again? I was firing myself like nobody's business. I didn't reply anything but I read all his texts. I am tired!! Really tired of my life and everything! All this while I taught I have recovered and moved on but actually I was running away from all these feelings by not involving with any guys, I was playing safe. The moment Jay entered my life everything go upside down. On top of this, I allowed him to follow me to my hometown. I have no idea where this is going to end.