My everything

Chapter four - She is mine

Luke's POV:

Three weeks have passed since I started dating Abby. I don't know if it was the right decision, but it feels good. Both of us got addicted to the idea of it. Mostly it is for the benefits. We'll probably calm down soon. For now, I like it, and I don't want it to end. I'm not sure we'll last long, but I will try my best. Also, I want to see if I can keep a girl. That is not a goal or anything like that. Let's call it an experiment. Honestly, I would love to have a girlfriend for a longer time. Maybe thanks to her, I will change my attitude. It's not like I don't pull it out, only in front of my parents. That's why I have talked back to teachers, but that is nothing. I mean, I'm not the only one who has done it. Abby is a good girl, and I hope things stay that way. My brother called three days ago. Of course, my mom and dad were all over him and his baby. He wanted to talk with me, but I told him to do it later. I don't want us to speak in front of my parents. There are things that I don't want them to hear. Someone might think I am mad at him, but no. He has nothing to do with the issues I have at home with my parents. After all, they are the ones who always compare us. Sam didn't do anything. I would love to talk to him because he doesn't have much time. I know he is busy at work. Also, he has to take care of a baby. That's why we don't talk often. It will be good if he can come here, but both with his girlfriend prefer not to travel. The baby is only three months old. We can visit Sam, but I don't want to be on the same plane as my parents. I don't think I'll survive. Also, I don't want to be away from Abby. Maybe she can come with me. That won't happen until we don't call it publicly official. I hope that her parents will like me.

Currently, I am in math class. I wanted to text Abby, but she was paying attention. I can do the same as her, but no. I pulled a piece of paper and started writing random words. I have no idea what I'm doing, but I don't want my phone to be taken away. That is the only thing I have. I can pull out a second one, but it's too much effort. At the end of the class, the whole page was filled with words. I tried to make a growing out of it, but it was a mess. I took the paper and threw it in the bin.

On the lunch break, I went to the field. I was sure Abby would come. That became like a habit. It's not like we do many things. I think I have already calmed down a bit. I mean, I still want her, but not with that obsession. After all, there are some things only she can do. Soon, she came and sat down next to me. I pulled her close for a kiss. The feeling is unbelievable. I can do that all day. Well, only if she lets me, of course.

- Hello. How are you today?

- I'm fine. Math class was boring.

- Every class for you is boring.

- True. Do you have plans for today?

- No, why?

- I want us to go out somewhere.

- Can it be during the day?

- Yes, sure. I know you are scared of the dark. - I said, chuckling

- No, I am scared of the creeps out there.

- Where is the difference?

- There is a big difference.

- For how long do you plan us to hide? I like the mystery, but we can't do it forever.

- I don't know. I feel like people will always talk.

- What about your parents?

- That is the scariest part. I like you, but I don't know if my dad will feel the same.

- Well, the final decision is yours.

- I know, but I don't want to argue with him.

- One day, we have to do it. Otherwise, he might find out from someone else.

- That is something I don't want to happen.

- I know what you want to happen.

- What? - Abby asked, and I kissed her

It's obvious what happened next. We shouldn't be doing only this. Well, I like it a lot. As I see it, Abby doesn't have any complaints. I mean, that is not something illegal. The other thing is that I love kissing her. I have kissed other girls, but not in the same way as her. Well, I never dated any of them.

After school, I walked home. I don't study or anything like that, so I will rest until Abby finishes her work. Later, we can go out. I decided to call Sam. I don't know if he is working, but I will try. Soon, he picked up. I wanted to use FaceTime.

- Hey.

- Oh, hello. Look who decided to call me.

- I'm sorry.

- It's ok. I know you don't like talking in front of mom and dad.

- Are you at work?

- No, I'm at home. Sarah is taking care of the baby.

- Eating?

- No, sleeping. How are you? Anything new?

- Not really.

- Aren't you supposed to study now? - Sam asked, and I laughed

- Do you even know me?

- I am on your side, but mom and dad will get mad at you again.

- Because I am not like you.

- What? No. What do you mean?

- Don't you know?

- Know what?

- They keep comparing me with you.

- What? I thought they stopped doing this after I graduated.

- No, they will never do it. I do things my way, but it's not as good as yours.

- I can't understand them. You don't study, but it doesn't mean you are that bad.

- Thanks. No offense, but I don't want to be like you.

- Please, don't do it. I like my job. The thing is that I barely have time for Sarah and the baby. She is doing everything alone. My salary is good, but it costs me a lot. I had to give up on many things.

- Don't you have breaks or something?

- I do, but I use them to sleep. I mean, when I am in the hospital during the night.

- I'm sorry. It's not easy for you.

- That's why I am telling you this. Don't be like me. I know you won't like it.

- Hey, guys.

- Hi, Sarah. How are the baby and you?

- We are good, thanks, Luke.

- If you have work, I will leave you.

- No, it's ok. We don't talk with you much. - Sam said

- Is there anything new? - Sarah asked

- Not really.

- But there is something. I believe it's a beautiful girl. Am I right?

- Maybe.

- What? Are you dating someone? - Sam asked

- I do.

- Then why didn't you say anything?

- Because we are secretly official.

- You what?

- We didn't make it public. Many people will talk about it.

- Do mom and dad know?

- No, and I don't plan to tell them. They don't care about what I do. That's why I'll keep this to myself.

- Ok, but what about the girl's parents?

- That will be a challenge. I'm not sure if they will like me and my attitude. After all, I'm not a good boy.

- Yes, you are.

- No, I'm not. That is another reason I argue so much with mom and dad.

- Now I know why they didn't tell us anything about you. The whole conversation was about us.

- I'm not surprised.

- Won't you tell her name? A picture will be better. - Sarah said, chuckling

- Her name is Abby. I'll send you a picture in the chat. - I said and did it

- She is pretty.

- It's not like I wasn't playing with her for a year.

- You what?

- I wanted to play a game with a girl, but no feelings. Abby was the only one good at this. The others were falling.

- Now you ended up falling. - Sam said, chuckling

- It turned out she did it before me. Also, we stopped the game. She didn't want it anymore.

- I hope you will keep her.

- Me too. She is a good girl.

- Exactly what you need.

- We'll see. I don't want to make conclusions. Also, I don't know how long we can last.

- I'm sure you will. I believe in you.

- Thanks. Look, I have to go now. Abby is done with her lessons.

- I wonder when you will do it.

- In another universe. - I said, laughing

- I am jealous of your courage to do whatever you want. I was never brave enough.

- Why? I don't do much.

- Yes, but you can go against mom and dad.

- Well, I'm not their pet like you. No offense.

- It's ok. I wanted to satisfy them.

- And you did. Now they like you more than me.

- Don't worry. I will fix this.

- Thanks, but no need to do it. I'm fine.

- Ok, go now. Don't make the girl wait for you.

- She will get used to this.

- No, she won't. Go.

- Ok, ok. Bye, Sam. Bye, Sarah.

- Bye, Luke. - Sam said, and I ended the call

I took my things and walked outside. Abby was waiting for me at the lake. Hopefully, I'm not that late. I haven't talked with Sam for so long in a while. It's good that he has my back. Probably that's why we understand each other so well. I mean, I'm not mad at him for anything. Mom and dad are the ones to blame. Soon, I arrived and saw Abby looking at the water.

- Hey. - I said and kissed her cheek

- Oh, hi.

- I'm sorry if I'm late. I talked with Sam.

- It's ok. I don't mind waiting.

- Is there a problem? You don't look much in the mood.

- No. I'm sleepy, but it's too early. That's why I wanted us to go out. If I sleep now, I won't sleep tonight.

- We can go for coffee or something else.

- Thanks, but I'll be fine. - Abby said, yawning

- If I kiss you, will this make you feel better?

- Well, you can try.

- I will do it, for sure.

We made out for some time. Luckily, no one comes here. I don't want people to watch me. After that, we went to a small diner for drinks. Both of us ordered milkshakes. Mine was vanilla with mint and chocolate. Abby went for strawberries. I don't like them. They don't taste that bad. Well, it's not my favorite drink on the planet.

- How is your brother?

- He is good. Sarah was putting the baby to sleep when I called.

- She was three months, wasn't she?

- Yes. He called my parents a couple of days ago, but I didn't want to talk with him in front of them.

- Probably, it's uncomfortable.

- No, but we talk about things that should be better if my mom and dad don't know about them. The whole conversation with them was about him and his family. I wasn't mentioned.

- It's good that you have someone you can talk to.

- I hope you don't mind, but I told him about us.

- No, I don't. He won't tell anyone. Right?

- I told him we were secretly official.

- Do you plan to tell your parents?

- No. They don't care about me. Why do I have to do it?

- Because they are your parents.

- So? I don't want to have anything in common with them.

- If you say so.

- Did you finish your homework?

- Yes. I am done with everything.

- Lucky you. I won't waste time with this.

- It's not that bad. Studying doesn't hurt. - Abby said, chuckling

- I know, but I don't want to do it. Sam is my brother, but I don't want to be like him.

- No one said you have to do it.

- If I have good grades, I will be like him.

- That's not true. You can be whoever you want.

- Not if you ask my parents.

- Why do they have to tell you what to do? That is your life, not theirs.

- Because they like what my brother does and want me to achieve the same.

- I will never be able to understand them.

- No one said that you have to.

Abby and I stayed in the diner for a while. Later, we went for a walk. She wanted to be at home for dinner. I will gladly join her, but it's better if I don't do it now. I will present myself officially, but not soon. I have to make myself look good, which won't be easy. Well, I'm not a criminal, but it doesn't matter. Her dad might not like me. I haven't met him, but I don't know if I can satisfy him. After all, I don't know what he imagines his daughter's boyfriend will be. Probably not someone like me. What matters is that Abby likes me. I am dating her, not her dad. That doesn't make me feel better.

At 6 pm, I left her a street from her house. We saw her dad entering the house. If I could, I would hide forever. The thing is that I can't. Maybe my meeting with him won't be that bad. I don't plan to hide. I'll be honest with him.

- That's it for today. I don't want to let you go.

- I will call you later.

- And? You still will be far away.

- I'm sorry. I know you want to spend time with me, but I can't be all the time outside. If you agree, I will talk with my parents today, and you can come for dinner tomorrow.

- Yeah, um, no. I'm not ready for this.

- I don't want to hide forever.

- I will come for dinner when we stop doing it in school.

- Ok, then. Starting tomorrow, I won't hide anymore.

- What?

- Look, I like you the way you are. There is nothing wrong with you. I don't care if my parents will like you or not. I am dating you.

- That doesn't help, but ok.

- Thank you. I will go now. Bye, and I will call you later.

- Wait! You can't go like that.

- Like what? - Abby asked, and I kissed her

- Like that.

- Can I go now?

- Yes, sure. Bye, Abby.

- Bye. - she said and left

I walked around the town for a while. I didn't want to have dinner with my parents, so I went to a fast-food restaurant. I like their food. I came home around 10 pm. My parents asked where I was, but I walked by them without an answer. They don't need to know everything I do. After all, I don't ask them what they do every day. I mean, besides working. That's why I like talking with Sam. He understands me well and is on my side. It's not like I have something to hide. Not telling and hiding are different things. I hope that my parents will understand one day. I got tired of being compared with my brother.