Silence..
1055 Words
Sarah was busy preparing dinner when she heard Anthony's car drive in their garage pathway. She quickly ran to open the main door unlike the previous day and soon rushed back to the kitchen. She wanted to avoid coming face to face with Anthony. She didn't have the courage to look at him, not because he showed insensitivity, but because she felt guilty thinking that she had emotionally blackmailed him for this marriage.
Anthony entered the living room. Sarah was not there to greet him, which was very unusual. He walked up to the dining room and saw Sarah busy in the kitchen. Her back was towards him so he could not see her sadness. He too was relieved for not having to face Sarah , not because he disliked her. But because even though he tried hard to accept this relationship , he was not able to give himself fully into it. Neither he was happy with himself, nor he was keeping Sarah happy.
Frustrated at himself and their situation, Anthony loosened his tie and climbed the stairs dragging himself to his room. When he came down for dinner, he found Sarah standing near the table giving a light smile to him.
His heart felt heavy looking at the sadness in her eyes which she tried to hide it with her smile. Though he got irritated and angry with her at times, yet he never wanted to see her sad. He felt guilty as he realized that Sarah's infectious smile was missing from the past few days. That smile which had compelled a hard hearten person like him to smile as well. Apart from Max , Sarah was the only friend he had managed to make in this lifetime.
"Come, sit" Sarah said in a soft voice. Obeying her he sat avoiding her gaze. She filled his plate with grilled chicken, brown rice and boiled vegetables and filled his glass with red wine.
She sat down quietly beside him and filled her plate . They both ate in silence. Though they were silent, but their minds were filled with various thoughts. Though they were sitting just 3 feet apart , the distance between their hearts was so much that they were not able to reach each other.
The silence was too much to bear, so Anthony broke it by asking Sarah "So at what time is Bianca arriving tomorrow? Should I go to pick her up from the airport?"
Without looking at him she said "She will be landing at 4 p.m. Don't worry, I will pick her up, anyways I have to buy some household items so after shopping I will directly go to the airport, it wont be a problem." She looked up and smiled at him.
Sarah thought to herself "I can't trouble you more. I can feel your disappointment in me and our marriage."
"OK" Anthony replied. And the silence returned.
After cleaning the dining table and kitchen, Sarah retired to their bedroom and saw Anthony already laying on the bed busy with his mobile. She took a quick shower and came out wearing a white night dress. She sat in front of her dressing and applied a vanilla fragrance lotion on her body and braided her hair loosely.
Anthony was still busy with his phone. Sighing Sarah laid down on the other side of the bed facing Anthony.
The sweet smell of vanilla silently distracted Anthony from what he was doing. He kept his phone aside and turned to face her.
Both laid facing each other, looking into each other's eyes trying to read them. Unable to look more Anthony broke the eye contact and wished her good night and turned the other side facing his back to Sarah.
Streams of hot tears flowed down from Sarah's eyes . She cried silently covering her mouth so that her cries doesn't grab Anthony's attention. When she let out a deep sigh, Anthony turned suddenly to look at her.
He found Sarah silently wiping her tears. Not able to bear anymore he took her in his arms. Not knowing how to console her with words he just caressed her back.
Sarah hid her face in his chest and cried more. After some time when she felt better she looked up at him and smiled when she saw him sleeping. His arms were still wrapped around her. Sarah realized that if she sleeps resting her head on his arms , he might feel pain in the morning. She tried to move out of his arms without waking him up.
But his arms were too strong. At last she gave up and relaxed in his arms. It had been some days since they had last made love to each other. Looking at his tired face a wave of pity engulfed Sarah's heart "He must be so tired of working so hard. First it was his parents who had given him emotional turmoil and now its me,not able to give him any peace and happiness. I trapped him into this marriage by emotionally blackmailing him. God, how do I make his life less miserable?"
She gave him a light peck on his lips. He stirred a little only to hold Sarah a little more tight. She smiled and snarled on his firm chest. She inhaled his masculine fragrance and planted soft kisses on his chest.
Suddenly at the middle of his sleep, Anthony felt a sharp pain on his arms. "Ah" he let out a soft gasp. He struggled to open his eyes and found Sarah sleeping in his arms, her face hidden in his chest.
He felt pity thinking about her lost smile. "God , help me to be happy. Help me to make Sarah happy." he prayed .
"Why am I not able to give myself into this relationship? Why do I get frustrated so easily?" I don't want to hurt you Sarah but I cant help it" he thought caressing her back lightly without waking her. She pressed herself more into his chest.
Though he was in pain, he was no way going to jerk away his wife. Fortunately he again fell asleep soon with Sarah in his arms.
There is no cure for love but to love more. The heart wants what it wants even if it tears it apart.
- Writer
