My Personal Beast

Chapter 8

Sophie Donovan was a werewolf. The werewolf. The first of her kind. I didn’t know her story completely, but I knew enough to figure she wasn’t someone to mess with. Her long, blonde, almost golden, hair fell around her face like a halo. Her golden eyes seemed alluring in the weirdest way possible. All in all, the perfect hunter. Alluring her prey in with her looks, and tearing out their throats with her strength. The perfect match for Klaus. I heard a sigh next to me and looked up to find Elijah staring at the ground. The reason he looked so depressed and in despair was…because he was depressed and in despair. Elijah loved Sophie with all he had. From as long as I’ve known the both of them, I knew Elijah’s feelings for her. Everyone knew Elijah’s feelings towards her. But Sophie was a wolf. An Alpha. And Alpha’s only seek other Alpha’s. Like Klaus. In a way, he was a vampire Alpha. Which would explain Sophie’s obsession with him. He was powerful, she was powerful…what more could they have possibly wanted?

“Aria! It’s so good to see you!” Sophie said delicately throwing her arms around me.

“Nice to see you too,” I mustered all the fake sweetness I had in me. So Sophie wasn’t a conniving, lunatic b***h. She was actually really nice. But the fact that she and Klaus belonged together gave me a good enough excuse to hate her. And I shouldn’t be hating her. I didn’t love Klaus anymore. Well, that’s what I had him think. I shouldn’t care that Sophie had a little crush on the man I would have married a thousand years ago.

“Elijah, I’ve missed you.” Sophie said in her bell-like voice. And that’s when my insides started to boil. She knew his love for her, she knew his yearning, yet she continued to torture him. Playing with his emotions. As she wrapped her arms around Elijah, I could have sworn I heard him whimper just a little bit. Elijah was hopelessly in love with her, but Sophie was hopelessly in love with Klaus. A very tragic love triangle. Kind of like Stefan, Damon and Elena. Only Elena didn’t have immeasurable power.

“Who’s this?” Sophie asked, smiling at Caroline.

“Caroline Forbes.” Caroline introduced herself. At first I thought she liked Sophie, what with the huge smile plastered onto her face and all. Then when Sophie directed all her attention back to Klaus, Caroline shot me a knowing look. I smiled weakly back. After glancing at Klaus and Sophie one last time, I silently backed into the shadows, into the forest. As I walked, I heard footsteps behind me.

“Stop following me.” I snapped, not caring who it was, but knowing none the less.

“Where are you going?” Caroline asked in a concerned tone.

“Down to the lake.” I muttered.

“So who was that?” She asked me.

“Sophie Donovan. The Original werewolf.” I muttered bitterly.

“Great. First Original vampires, now werewolves. Urgh! Why can’t life be simple?” She asked in frustration.

“Over time you learn that life is never simple.” I mumbled.

“So what’s the deal with her and Klaus? It’s obvious they have a connection.” Caroline said.

“She’s his…closest friend.” I sighed. All of this really shouldn’t be getting to me.

“And you’re not bothered by that?” She asked.

“Why would I be?” I asked, trying to avoid this conversation.

“Stop lying.” She snapped.

“Excuse me?” I asked, a little surprised at her tone.

“You love him. It’s plain for everyone to see. Only, you’re fighting with yourself for some unknown reason. Once you get over your state of denial, you’ll realize that I’m right.” She said.

“You want to know why I’m avoiding my feelings?” I asked bitterly. “He’s a monster. He’s always been a heartless monster. I was too blind to see that when I was human. He was a monster hell bent on achieving ultimate power. He killed my family. The only people that were ever there for me, and her killed them. So pardon me if I want to hide away those feelings.” I growled. Something had opened up inside me. Something I didn’t want to open up.

“I-I’m sorry. I didn’t know…” Caroline trailed off.

“I can’t let myself be fooled by his act again. The last time I did it almost got me killed. And I will not put myself through that hurt again.” I hissed. Tears formed in my eyes and I wiped them away aggressively.

“Hey, it’s okay. Don’t worry. I won’t let him get to you.” Caroline muttered softly. She hugged me, and I missed having a girl to talk to. In more ways than one, Caroline reminded me of Malika. My closest sister.

“Why are you here?” I asked, pulling away from her.

“What do you mean?”

“Why did you come here with me? Why do you trust me so much?” I asked, confused.

“Well, I don’t really know. You just give off a calm and trust worthy aura. Even humans can sense it. It’s just…”

“The way she is.” Klaus muttered, finishing her sentence. I sighed inwardly, wishing he would just disappear. Or drop dead.

“What are you doing all the way out here?” Klaus asked, striding over to us.

“I wanted to see the lake.” I said simply.

“Our lake,” Klaus muttered, staring at the peaceful sight. The sun was setting now, giving us the most beautiful view.

“Caroline can you give us a moment?” Klaus asked kindly.

“Um, yeah. Sure.” Caroline said unsurely. She shot me a glance and I nodded encouragingly. As she walked away I sighed, knowing Klaus was going to give me one of his speeches.

“So, do you like it here?” He asked.

“It’s home.” I sighed.

“But you don’t like it here.” He said, guessing that from my tone of voice.

“It’s not that I don’t like it here, I just... I have memories that I would like to keep at bay. This place just brings them towards the surface.” I muttered.

“Remember sitting on the edge of the lake?” Klaus asked, changing the subject. He walked over to me, turning so that we were facing the side he was referring to.

“That night was the night I told you I loved you. We sat there watching the water, and I whispered it in your ear. Do you remember?” He asked. His arms were wrapped around my waist, and when I looked at his expression he looked nothing but happy. As if reliving those memories brought nothing but happiness to him. I wish I could have done the same. I wish I could have felt happiness when I remembered his smile, when I remembered the way he would look at me. Now I felt nothing but emptiness.

“What’s wrong?” Klaus asked. He cupped my face in his hands and made me look at him.

“It’s nothing.” I said closing my eyes.

“You still think of me as a monster?” He guessed.

“You overheard my conversation with Caroline.” I guessed.

“Yeah.” He said. I opened my eyes and he smiled sheepishly at me.

“I thought we were passed all of this. I thought we were really getting along.” Klaus said, and then he looked utterly sad.

“We were. Then Sophie came along and I realized all this…was an act.” I said bitterly.

“You think this is all an act?” Klaus asked, and I could tell I hit the mark. “So all of this has been an act. Exactly what would I have to gain by doing all of this?” He asked.

“I don’t know, but you’ll have something planned. You’ll find some way to use this.” I sighed.

“God, you’re so stubborn! Why can’t you just accept the fact that I love you?” He yelled at me. Klaus was gripping my arms firmly, causing them to go numb.

“Because this has all been a game to you! Ever since we met, this has all been one big, evil game of yours! You’ve been using me!” I yelled.

“How exactly did you come to that conclusion? Did your deranged mother plant that idea into your head?” He shouted.

“No! My deranged mother saw through your pretenses. She tried to warn me! But being the naïve girl I was, I didn’t listen to her! I loved you and now I’m paying the price by living for eternity hating the decision I made.” When I got towards the end of my rant my voice started getting softer. I whispered the last part.

“What decision was that?” Klaus asked, staring at me with blank eyes.

“The decision of ever trying to get involved with you.” I muttered. He blinked, seeming to not stare at anything in particular.

“We’re hosting a ball tonight. You and Caroline go out shopping.” Klaus said walking away. I stood there watching him leave. I probably shouldn’t have said those words. I know I shouldn’t have because they were all a lie. Being with Klaus for one day, only one day, managed to reawaken those feelings I had for him. Truth be told, when I was with Klaus back in my human days, those were the best days of my life. The most liveliest and emotional days.