Ineffable Love

"I don't want to hear any explanation! You lied to me! You liar! Once a liar will always be a liar!" He said with full of anger. I'm just crying here in corner. "No! Hear my explanation first! I've been keeping this for so long!" I said in between my sobs. "What do you want me to hear from you? Another lie huh?! I have enough to your lies! " "No! Maybe i did lied but my love to you is f*****g real! Mahal kita! Ginawa ko yun kase mahal kita! Tangina mahal kita eh!" I just heard him laugh. "You love me?! Liar! You didn't love me! You were just desperate!" That hit me so hard 'desperate' . "Maybe i am but please hear my side first. Maawa ka naman sa akin, Pakinggan mo naman ako." I said as i bend my knees in front of him and trying to hold his hand but his flinching. "No! Ikaw ba noong nagsinungaling ka sa akin naawa ka? Hindi diba?!" He shouted at me and walk away. Sinundan ko siya and i found him in our bedroom, packing his things. "Ash, paano si shi-" he cut me off. "Shut the fu*k up! I don't have any fu*king responsibility here!" He said and still packing his things. This is really the end. I can't do anything about it. He's so very mad at me. I can't let him go but i have to. I go to the storage room to get something and after that i walk staright outside our house, i mean my house. Inabangan ko siyang lumabas. Maya maya lang ay lumabas na siya at di man lang ako tinapunan ng tingin. 'What do you expect? You lied to him.' my mind whispered at me. I walk towards him. Hingit ko ang braso niya. "Wait!" "What the f**k still do you want!" He hissed at me. I smiled fainlty at him. I gave him the bag pack that I'm holding. "Ahm. This is your other bag before you got to an accident. " My hands were shaking. He got the bag and continue walking towards the gate. "Ash, wait lang." "What!?" "Garden." I simply said. Pumunta ako ng garden. I don't think he'll follow me but I'm hoping . I sat on the bench and look at the sky. There's no stars, just the moon and the dark sky. May naramdaman akong umupo sa tabi ko. At pagtingin ko si Ash yun. "What?" "Tutal ayaw mo naman pakinggan yung side ko. Pakinggan mo nalang yung maikli kong kwento para sayo." "If you're saying that to change my mind then no!" He firmly said. I shook my head and look at him. "I just want to tell you this story. Pwede ba ? Ito naman na yung huli nating pagkikita, sana man lang kahit ito nalng pakinggan mo." I look at him when he stay silent for minutes but i just found him looking at me with no emtion in his eyes. "Fine, just make it quick." "Let me tell you a story about this couple. They've been together for so long. But one day, the girl became a PBB housemate and she left him to pursue her dream but they don't totally broke up. They patiently wait to be with each others arm again. Pinoy Big Brother house is always on live and on television meaning to say the people who watching pbb knows whats happening inside the house. And the boy always watched her and he's happy for her because she slowly reaching her dream. He waited. He stayed faithful and loyal to her even though they don't have communication. Things were going well not until the girl is slipping away. That is so painful to him. Watching her slowly slipping away to him. Watching her with other man while there he is hopelessly inlove wih her. You know what's funny? Her reason is so lame. She said that's why she slipped away beacuse she's longing for her boyfriend's presence and she found it on the other men which is the other pbb housemates. But you know what he said to her? He said, ' no matter how long are your distance, no matter how you're longing for your loves presence, no matter how you miss your lover, if you really love the person, you'll not be swayed by others, you'll stay faithful and loyal to that person because you love that person' And they broke up for good. He's right you know? The end. Thats it." I stared to him as i finish telling a story but he stayed silent. Nagulat ako ng bigla nalang siyang tumayo at umalis. "Goodbye,Have a safe trip love! I love you!" I shouted at him as tears started streaming down to my face. I noticed him stop for a sec and continue walking away from me. 'akalain mo yun, yung kwento ko pinakinggan niya pero yung paliwanag ko, hindi' mahinang bulong ko. Napaupo nalang ako sa damuhan sa sobrang sakit na naraamdaman ko. 'it's your fault, you shouldn't be hurt. you already know the consequences before you jump to this situation' my mind whispered at me again. I'm clenching my chest where my heart located. I can't take the pain. It slowly killing me. My head is spinning. I can't take it. The dark sky and the crescent moon is the only things i saw before i lost my consciousness in the grass.