Until Death My Love (R18+)

CHAPTER 10 HEAVEN WHITE

 I saw Sky is waiting outside our house. I was amazed at him because of all he could forget he did not forget to go to church and pray. Sometimes I also wonder what the content of his prayer is. It doesn't matter, the important thing is that he is safe and he is okay.

 We did not go to school today because I was awake last night and very tired. Sky, on the other hand, needs to rest. The two of us walked down the road, I held his arm to help him walk. I'm glad I saw him again and I hope he recovers and hope he remembers. 

 I arrived at the church and the two of us entered, still, I walked away from him so that I would not disturb him in his prayers. I saw him kneel and bow and start praying. I, too, closed my eyes and started talking to God.

 “I know you are listening to me, I know you know how I feel at these times, first of all Father, I am thankful because nothing bad happened to Sky, thank you so much for saving him, and I apologize because I was not safe with the woman who needed my help, Father, I was scared, I was overcome with fear, please forgive me.”

 I also prayed that Sky would remember so that he would not be confused in his life. After I prayed I got up and saw Sky still praying, I went out of the church and waited for him. I had a few coins in my pocket so I bought some bread to eat.

 I saw Sky come out of the church and smile at me. “You like?” I asked him once I handed him the piece of bread, I would have handed him suddenly a beggar in front of us, a child begging and asking for food, Sky said just give him the bread.    

 I also asked the child if he was with anyone or if he was alone, I also asked where his parents were. He told me, he has parents, but sick, so he begs so that he can eat more every day, in the tenderness of my heart, I stopped crying because the child might hurt more because of the emotion I showed.

 Sky took out his wallet and gave the boy money to buy food and buy medicine. My heart was touched by what he did, Sky was really kind, compassionate, generous, he would have been all his. The child cried at what he did. “Lord, may you bless me, thank you very much for your help.” The boy said to Sky.

 The boy ran away from us and said he was going home to buy food and medicine. I saw Sky burst into tears. “You know, children who still have parents are very lucky, the type who gives everything a child needs, education, luxury, or whatever. I just can't quite figure out why some children disobey their parents, are stubborn and do not listen to advice. ” He told me.

 I do not know what to answer because first of all, I have no parents; they have been dead for a long time. I grabbed Sky by the arm and he went home to rest. Sky looked at me and smiled. "All right, see you at school tomorrow." He said to me. We were walking down the street, and when we got to my house, I told Sky not to cross, I could do it myself.

 I crossed the road and Sky went home. I saw my mother standing at the door and smiling at me. “Who are you with? She asked me. “Sky, he's the one I told you I went to the hospital with.” I answered her. “He looks kind and handsome.” My mother joked to me. “He went with me to church, and he walked me home.”

 Mom was surprised by what I said. “Smells like love.” Mom joked again. I crush Sky, yes, I admit it, but I never thought he would be my boyfriend, because I know I can't love someone like him. So I stopped imagining we would be. My life is not a fairy tale with a prince coming and a happy ending.

 It is real life and no one is handsome, kind, rich to fall in love with someone like me who is quite beautiful, poor, and simple. I know he only thinks of me as a friend. I entered the house to eat our dinner. Mom told me to throw trash outside. It was not far so even at night I went out.

 I put on a jacket and grabbed the trash bag; I walked over and threw it away. As I walked I heard a sound from the camera, I stopped and looked back. Someone is still following me to this day. I thought he was gone. I accelerated my way home and entered immediately.

 I was out of breath; I drank some water and went to my room to read. While in the middle of reading my cell phone rang, someone called me with an unregistered number. I answered it, but no one answered on the other line. My whole body went cold when I suddenly heard a voice on the other line. It was like a growl moaning of a woman and a man having s*x.

 “Stop! Don't follow me! ” I shouted at the cell phone, then I dropped the call, I could not believe this is what I heard. Why are they bothering me? What did I do wrong at school, around or even with someone? I lost my appetite to read. I went to bed and covered myself.

 I don't want to think anymore, I don't want to remember what happened to me. Until now I still do not lose everything in my mind.

 From Liza, who slapped me, in the locker room full of blades and thumbtacks in my rubber shoes, the photo I just wore bra, the hickey on my neck, the one following me that I did not know, the one I was raped me, Sky hospitalized, when I did not help the woman asking for help, and I did not know who was calling me. I no longer knew what to do.

 I removed from my mind the things that were bothering me because it did nothing good but depression. I might think of committing suicide again. I lay down on the bed and listened to music on my cell phone. I know there is a reason why this is happening, there are things I can't explain, but I know they are the answers in the end. Maybe these tests are one of the reasons I get stronger when the day comes.

 Lunch time, I was in the school cafeteria, Sky did not pick me up, because he said he would come back to the hospital for the following check up, it was okay, I was alone at the table eating, and at least not in the bathroom. Somehow I just don't pay attention to those who bully me. I will not be blessed if I fight with them too.

 After dinner, I walked to the library to find the book I would need, while looking at the bookshelf I saw Liza following me with a look, I just ignored it, because it was not new to me. I also saw John enter the library and I know he saw me too.

 He sat down next to Liza and talked, the two were still whispering and laughing, John touched Liza's legs and she wanted it. I also saw them staring at me and John looked at me from head to toe. I can't find the book, I also don't want to stay inside the library.

 I went out of the library and they both followed me, I saw Liza pull the camera out of her bag. Is Liza follows me the whole time. I looked back, I also saw that Liza was with her friends, and John was looking at my ass.

 I accelerated my pace even more, when I collided with a friend of John I saw in the field. He smiled at me like a demon as if he had something to do. “Are you lost?” He asked me. I took a deep breath because I had nothing to do. When John approached me he grabbed my two arms. “At the back of the building.” He whispered to me and he was still holding a knife, I could not scream, is this another nightmare that will happen in my life.

 We reached the back of the building; he made me stand on the edge near the trash can. “What do you need from me?” I asked them all. “Nothing, I just want to admit to yourself that you really pushed Sky to hit him with a car, and we will record it. Will you do it or not?” Liza answered me.

 I thought, what would I admit if I didn't really do that, I would not put Sky’s life in danger because he is my friend and I love him. He is important to me because he is the only one who accepts my whole being.