hope they know about us

All I ever needed was time to just ask if he is happy,time to just tell him I love him,I need him and I can't leave without him...many times I asked if really loving someone means you need to let them go!I couldn't get the answer,we tried everything from just losing ourself,to needing space and distance,I lost him,I lost myself,we lost us I kept telling myself...my heart always asked of it should stop because now his gone,I cried myself to sleep,sang our songs,ended up building our world so I can be closer to you,to feel you,touch you,to love you even more..when we stopped talking I asked if this was really it and a part of me said yes but I knew it wasn't,we tried again but only to hate each other more,when I gave birth to our love,our child,I woke up from that dream to see that I had everything but not you,slowly we drifted apart,I still love you,I'm still inlove with you I even asked myself if it was an obsession or unconditional love...I never want to be with you after all these years just to tell you that I am getting married and that I wanted to say goodbye,I wanna get married to you,would it be crazy if I asked you to be my husband? Would you say yes or just turn the table and say you are the married one and that I shouldn't have called you?years passed and I found happiness if a place I never thought I could,in the arms of a loving man who always wants to see me cry because of tummy ache from all the chocolates and sweets that he spoils me with and not tears from me walking in the room and finding him with another woman