One Shots (MxM)

Frankie’s First Time Pt.2

TW: Mentions s****l assault and self harm

Frankie's First Time Part Two-

Frankie

I can't believe this is happening. How could I be so stupid? I really thought that someone could like me that way. I thought I was special. I thought he loved me.

Frankie: I don't understand.

Mason: It's just not working out

Frankie: You just said you loved me yesterday.

Mason: I guess I lied

He won't respond after that. I've texted him a dozen times and called a ton too but he won't even acknowledge me. I don't know what I did to make him stop liking me.

I gave him everything he wanted. I stopped avoiding him at school. I stopped telling people when he hurt me. I even stopped hanging out with Will during lunch and after school because Mason thought he was trying to turn me against him.

I had s*x with him despite the gross feeling in my gut telling me it was a mistake. I did it even though Sawyer told me I should wait. I don't want to tell anyone because I'm scared they'll judge me.

Will would just say 'I told you so', Sawyer would be disappointed and go on about how he's not mad but he told me not to have s*x because he was trying to do what's best for me. Candace would be too motherly and probably cry about how I'm growing up too fast.

This is my only real option. Noel understands. He lost his virginity when he was even younger than me. He's the one who warned me how to do it as safely as I can which is the only reason I'm not freaking out about possible STD's.

"Noel? Can we talk?" I ask, knocking on his door a few times.

When he opens the door, the concern on his face nearly makes me break down on the spot, but I hold it together.

"What's wrong?"

I try to keep it in, but it's hard to hide the way my eyes are tearing up and my lip is quivering. I sniffle and reach up to wipe my tears before sobbing, "I made a really big mistake."

Noel wraps an arm around me to pull me out of the hallway and into his room before hugging me tightly. "You had s*x with that boy."

I cry harder and hug him back, putting my face in his chest so that he can't see how pathetic I look. "W-We did it because he said he loved me, and I loved him too, but he broke up with me and now I just..."

"He doesn't matter, Frankie. Look he may have been your first, but I promise that he won't be the last. In the grand scheme of my life, the person I lost my virginity to is the least important person in my life. Either you'll forget about him or he'll become some distant memory of a person you thought you loved. I know it feels like a lot but this is just one moment. One heartbreak. You still have a lifetime left." Noel tells me.

People tease him a lot because he always gets in trouble and he drinks and smokes and has s*x as much as we wants. He's smart though. I'd almost say wise.

My breathing slows and my tears stop running. I wipe my face and step back to look at him. "Mason and I had s*x, and I don't know what to do. He broke up with me and he won't answer my texts."

"Block him. Ignore him. Don't talk to him at school or on social media. Unfollow him on everything. He doesn't get the satisfaction of thinking that you're still pining over him." Noel advises.

I pull my phone out to do as he said while he continues. "Did you use a condom?"

"He didn't want to, but I convinced him."

"Gay boy fact one, if a guy ever argues about using a condom, he shouldn't be f*****g you." Noel says while taking me to his bed to sit me down before sitting next to me. "Did you use lube?"

I blush, thinking back to it. It's weird talking about this with him. It wasn't really good. I don't know why Noel likes it so much.

"We did, but it still hurt, and I started bleeding too, but he said it wasn't that bad and it's fine because that's supposed to happen when you lose your virginity."

Noel's eyes snap up with a worried look. "You bled? You're not supposed to bleed. Boys don't have a hymen that breaks. If you were bleeding then it's because he wasn't careful enough."

"I-I just didn't want him to be mad-"

"You thought he'd be mad if you asked him to stop?"

I look down at my lap and shrug. I already took a lot of time helping Julian, and he seemed like he really wanted to have s*x. Of course he'd be mad if I made him stop.

"Frankie... would he have stopped if you asked him to?" Noel asks, making my eyes start to water again.

Maybe that's why I was so okay with not saying anything. I kept my mouth shut because I knew it wouldn't matter. He almost didn't stop when Julian was at the door. I had to tell him three times before he even noticed I wasn't speaking.

I slowly shake my head, making Noel sigh. "No more guys like that. Hell, I'd rather you date one of those wrist cutting emo kids than another homophobic jock."

"Okay." I mumble, holding back any response I have about his comment.

He said that like he's never been friends with someone who has depression. He is helping me out though. I don't wanna push it.

"We have to take you to the doctor, you know? Tears can be really serious, and we might as well get you tested while you're there too." Noel gets up to look at himself in the mirror. He fixes his hair and smirks at himself. "God, I am so sexy. I'd f**k myself if I could."

"Are we leaving?"

"Yeah. Come on." I follow Noel outside and climb in the car with him.

He keeps driving for a few minutes and eventually we fly right past the hospital, making me confused.

He said I had to see a doctor, right? It only takes a bit longer for him to turn into the parking lot of a much smaller building. It's less intimidating than a hospital.

"Uh, Noel?" I mumble when he undoes his seatbelt and moves to open the door. He stops, turning to look at me. "Thank you for this. I didn't want to tell anyone, but you're so easy to talk to about these things. I'm glad I've got you."

"Of course. We're family, Frankie. That's just what family does." He answers, climbing out to lead me inside.

I follow him through the doors, looking around at a few couples that are older or younger. A few girls look like their already carrying babies. There's a few random teenagers here and there too, but for the most part, everyone is scattered enough for it to feel less crowded than hospitals normally are.

"Find a seat and I'll talk to the lady for you. She knows me." Noel says before walking off.

I glance around for a moment before walking over to sit down in a chair that's tucked away in a corner.

So this is planned parenthood? I didn't know that people could just walk in. I thought it cost a ton of money also. I'm glad Noel is still a legal guardian. That means I don't always need Sawyer's permission to do anything.

"What are you here for, Barbie?" Someone asks, sitting right next to me despite there being a dozen empty chairs that aren't this close.

"What?"

"You came for a reason. Either you got someone pregnant, you're trying to get someone pregnant, you're getting tested for STD's, or you have to talk to your doctor about something."

His hair is black though the roots are brown so I think it's dyed. His clothes are black. His makeup is black too. His eyes are green, but he doesn't look very intimidating to me.

He's probably only a little bit smaller than Will. The last thing that I want right now is to be bothered by another guy... he is cute though.

He has a little button nose and a piercing in the center of his upper lip right below his nose. He has one in his eyebrow that looks oddly sexy as well. Even his ear piercings are nice.

"To talk to the doctor I guess. I'm not sure." I admit, shifting awkwardly. I don't like talking to strangers. "I'm Frankie. Don't call me Barbie."

"Is Frankie short for Franklin?"

"Yes but I like Frankie."

"My turtle's name is Franklin." He mentions, leaning closer while crossing one of his legs over the other.

"You have a pet turtle?"

"No he's a stuffed animal. The real one died when I was 7."

"That's sad."

"Yeah. I was just trying to take him on a walk but then a car started coming and I jumped out of the way but poor Franklin was just too slow."

I laugh softly and he grins at me triumphantly. "There we go. You have a lovely smile, Frankie."

My cheeks heat up as I look back down at my lap. "Thanks. You do too. I like your piercings."

"Frankie? C'mon she's ready for you." Noel calls out from the door.

"Coming." I answer before turning back to the strange guy.

"It was nice to meet you, Frankie."

"You too, uh..."

"Moth."

"Moth?"

"Technically it's Timothy, but I don't like Tim or Timmy, so I'm Moth."

"It suits you. I'll see you around then?" I hum, standing up.

He stands too and points at my book club Tee shirt. "At school probably."

"Okay. Bye."

I turn to walk towards Noel, but Moth grabs my hand and leans down to kiss my cheek before pulling back. "Bye sweetheart."

My eyes get wide and my mouth hangs open slightly as he walks past me to sit in an empty seat far away from everyone else.

I snap out of it and quickly rush to the back area with Noel. He leads me into a room with a very warm and kind looking woman.

"Hello, Frankie. I'm Angela. I'm your brother's urologist, and he wanted me to talk to you about a few things too. It's that alright?"

"Yeah. What's a urologist?"

"Urologists are physicians that specialize in male s****l and reproductive healthcare." She explains, gesturing for me to take a seat. I do, and Noel sits next to me. "He alright filled out your medical forms, so I just have a few questions before we start. What's your sexuality?"

"I'm gay, Ma'am."

"Are you sexually active?"

"Uh... yeah, I guess." She tilts he head slightly. "It was my first time."

"Did it feel good?"

I blush and glance at Noel as if to ask if it's normal for the doctor to be this nosy. Is it important for her to know what it felt like?

"Go ahead." He tells me, so I admit it.

"No. Not really. It was nice that I made him feel good, but it really hurt."

She just nods along like she's heard this a million times which actually makes me relax. I'm just a normal kid and she's seen this all before.

"Do you know if you were bleeding?" When I nod, she hums and writes something down in a notepad.

"When men bleed during a******x it's usually one of two things. It's either a tear on the outside or a tear on the inside where the canal is. If it's inside, it's called a fissure and is harder to treat and typically hurts a lot worse. Sometimes it never goes away either, which is why it's so important to make sure that you're preparing yourself properly before engaging in s****l activities."

"We used lube and he uh... he fingered me before we did it." I explain. Maybe that was still wrong.

"Are you still bleeding?"

"No."

"Does it still hurt?"

"Not much."

"When it does, is it a sting or a throb."

"Throb definitely."

She Hume and goes digging through a drawer before pulling out a little box with a tube of ointment in it, She grabs a pamphlet and hands both to me, letting me open the pamphlet to see a few tips and suggest for gay s*x.

We never learn this stuff in s*x ed. It left me going in kinda blind and confused but this stuff is actually helpful.

"If you feel like it's hard to do much with your fingers, there's anal dialators and plugs that can be used to help get your body prepared for s****l activities with your partner, and if you plan to remain sexually active, I'll recommend conditioning your body that way at least once a day." She suggests.

I blush brighter, trying to ignore that she basically told me to masturbate once a day. "And if I do that then it won't hurt?"

"If you do that then it shouldn't. After doing it every day, it will probably start to feel like a chore, but it's important to make sure that you don't get hurt. On the third page there's some tips on positions you could do that will be the least likely to hurt as well."

"Okay. Thanks." I tell her while closing the pamphlet.

"Just one more thing before the urine test." She starts, looking seriously at me. "Since you're a fairly petite boy, sometimes no amount of preparation, tips, or lube can make it to where you can safely take your partner. If that's the case, don't push yourself. I understand the need to please your significant other, but it can't be at your own expense. Okay?"

"Okay. Thank you."

"If you ever need me for anything, just call me so you don't have to pay the dumb fee to come all the way here." She tells me, handing me her business card and a cup with a lid on it.

"The bathroom is tight down the hall. Just fill that up for me and we'll get back to you with the results in just a few days."

I nod and smile, taking a deep breath while handing Noel all of my stuff so I can head to the bathroom.

I don't plan on hopping into bed with someone else too quickly, but at least I know a lot about how to take care of myself whenever I do get a boyfriend. Hopefully I won't make another dumb mistake like actually trusting Mason.