TW: mentions self harm
Wenn and Mateo vs. Dax-
Wenn
"You can stay for the interview if you'd like, but no talking." Dax tells me. I nod and move to sit on the couch while Mateo takes a seat across from Dax's desk.
Dax grabs a form from his desk and glances at Mateo before asking the questions. "Full name?"
"Mateo Rojas."
"Age?"
"21."
"Height?"
"6'3."
"Monthly income?"
"$1,800-$2,200. It depends on if I pick up extra shifts." Mateo answers.
Dax didn't ask me this stuff when I joined. I don't think he asked any of the submissives this stuff. I hope he's not going to be picky just because the other doms make more money than him.
Dax's eyes widen as he looks up. "What do you do for a job?"
"I'm a mechanic. Sometimes I pick up construction work too."
"Did you go to college?"
"No." I can tell Mateo is getting uncomfortable, and it takes a lot to keep myself quiet.
"Did you finish high school?"
"Kinda."
"It's a yes or no question."
Mateo glares at him. I'll admit I have a habit of talking down to him sometimes and he absolutely hates it. He looks like he wants to punch Dax in the face.
"I got my GED, but no I never really finished high school."
"Why not?"
"Personal issues."
"Like?"
"Like a stuck up, rich, white guy can't mind his own business." Mateo snaps at him.
"You should talk to Hayes about your anger issues. Aggression isn't a good trait in a dom."
"I'm not aggressive."
"Sure." Dax answers dismissively. "If you're trying to win me over, you might want to start by understanding that since I own the club, I'm the top dog here. I don't really care what you think of me because when it comes down to it, I'm making the final decision on if you'll stay or not."
Mateo glances at me, and I smile at him, trying to encourage him. Dax can be hard to deal with sometimes, but he does own the club.
He turns back to Dax. "I had a drinking problem."
"You're sober now?"
"Yes."
"How long?"
"A year and a half."
"Keep it up. If you start drinking again, you leave him out of it. Got it?" Dax says and gestures to me.
"Of course."
"Have you ever been arrested?"
"Yes. Underage drinking, but it was just for a few days."
"I'm pretty sure I've already made my decision, but the last few questions are pretty simple." Dax says. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. "How many people have you had s*x with?"
"15."
"Have you ever had unprotected s*x?"
"Yes."
"Do you have any STD's?"
"No."
"When were you last tested?"
"A week or so ago." He replies.
Mateo and I both got tested just to be sure before we stopped using condoms. I prefer feeling him inside of me. I like having his c*m in me and I like how it leaks out when we finish.
"Lastly, what made you want to do b**m?"
"I want to find the guy for me. Someone who could be my partner while keeping me interested. The kinky s*x is a bonus, but the real prize is a sexy submissive who respects you enough to allow you to care for him. I want that."
"I like your answer..." Dax trails off. "But I still have to decline your application."
I'm completely shocked by it. I mean sure Mateo had a rough past, but so have a lot of people here. It's not fair.
Mateo stays calm as if he was expecting this. "Why?"
"I don't mean to sound rude or insensitive, but I believe that dominants should be able to provide for their subs. Physically, emotionally, and financially."
"That's such bullshit! I don't need providing for. Elliot doesn't even have a job and he still gets to join. If the problem was with him being arrested before, the same thing happened to Noel, and it was for the same reason too. This is ridiculous."
"Watch your f*****g tone with me, Wendell. I hold doms to a different standard than subs."
I hate when people use my full name. My birth parents always used my full name. It was only when I was adopted that people started calling me Wenn instead of Wendell.
"Don't call me that. This isn't fair, Dax. Just because he doesn't make much money doesn't mean he can't be a dom."
"It does to me." Dax answers dismissively. I hate when he acts like this. He's so damn stubborn and refuses to listen to reason.
"Then it's a good thing that you won't be his sub."
"You don't like exhibition, Wenn. Who's going to pay for a private playroom?"
"Me."
"It's not your responsibility."
"Well I'm making it my responsibility." I snap at him. "I could spend 3,000 a week for the rest of my life and never run out of money. I don't need his money. I need him to be my dom."
"Fine. I'll put his name on the list but I'm not helping in his training. Since you want to meddle so much, I'm sure you can figure it out on your own. Now, go."
I glare and storm out of his office with Mateo following close behind. "He seemed like a great guy."
I laugh at the amount of sarcasm in his voice before shrugging. "He's really sweet, caring, and smart sometimes but other times he's stubborn, annoying, and ignorant."
"As much as I want to be your dom, I know it can be dangerous. I don't want to hurt you Wenn. Do you think other doms will be able to help?"
"Of course. We'll start with a contract. We can print a basic one so we can discuss kinks and what things we have in common as far as s****l preference goes. I can teach you how to do things safely when it comes to things like choking or smacking or anything like that. Then we can ask Claude. He's the best at giving aftercare. Andrew is the best at punishments. The Duo, Jasper and August, are really good in bed."
"Better than me?"
"Not individually." I mumble before continuing. "You don't need Dax to train you, the only reason that most doms want him to train them is because he's a Jack of all trades. There's hardly any kinks he doesn't have and he's been a sub before so he knows how we feel during a scene."
We get out into the main area and I stop to turn and look at him. "Let's get you acquainted with some people and then your first lesson from me can be tonight."
***
"So I just read this and cross off anything I'm not willing to do?"
"Exactly." I answer. I printed out a pretty basic Dom/sub contract just so he could get an idea of what kind of things it could entail. Andrew offered for him to read the one he has with Fizzle so he could get an idea of what a Master/slave contract is like.
I know I'm training him to be a dom so I need to keep myself from putting my personal preferences on him. Just because I'm not into a Master/slave dynamic, doesn't mean he isn't. That's why I let him read it. He didn't seem all that interested, which is good for me.
I'm supposed to train him to be a dom, but I keep finding myself training him to be my dom.
I watch him fill out the checklist of kinks, tilting my head slightly.
Bondage, yes. Immobilization, No. Cuffs, yes. Shibari, no. Gags, yes. Hoods, no.
He's definitely not an experimentalist. Every answer is either an absolute yes or an absolute no. Though, as I watch him fill out the rest, he seems to have a lot of yes's.
I look down at my sheet and fill it out in just a minute or two. I've been a sub for 8 years. I've tried just about everything and I know what I like.
"What's CNC?"
"It means consensual non-consent. It's also known as r**e play. It's a type of role play where the submissive acts like they aren't consenting. Safewords still apply though so it's completely safe so long as the dom listens."
Mateo tilts his head and goes to mark it off, but I stop him. "Have you ever tried it?"
"No."
"It's not as bad as it sounds." I assure him.
"I don't want people to think I'm a bad person. Surely they'd think I'm sick in the head if I get off on forcing someone-"
"But you wouldn't be. It's all consensual. It's just an act. Just like degradation. If you call me a slut or a w***e while we're having s*x, obviously it's not because you mean it. The same goes for CNC."
Mateo pauses and looks up at me, leaning over the table to peck my lips. "It's something you like?"
I blush and nod. "Yeah. It's one of my favorites actually."
He leans back and marks it as a maybe. "I can try it then."
I like this. b**m contracts are meant to be a negotiation. A lot of new subs like Beau don't bother to question their doms whereas subs like Fizzle and Elliot are very firm with what they want and don't need to negotiate. This is nice though.
"I know that as a dom, I'll have certain authority over you, but what if I want more than that but not quite as much as a Master?"
"We could discuss it. What kind of things were you thinking?"
"Hypothetically, let's say I call you in the middle of the day and I feel like making you talk dirty to me. You'd do it?"
I blush and smile slightly. "Yes. The main difference between a Master and a Dom is just how much power the sub is willing to give up. You read Andrew's contract. Fizzle can't even eat a meal without asking Andrew first. I'd never give away that much power."
"So you're saying you'll do anything I tell you to as long as it's within reason?" He asks, reaching out to grab my chin.
He pulls me closer and kisses me deeply, pushing his tongue in my mouth. I moan softly and stand up so it's easier to reach him, but after a moment I pull away. "Let's finish this first and then we can have sex."
"Maybe we could try some of the stuff on the list. What's your safeword?" Mateo asks.
Nobody else understood it, but after telling him about my past, he may put it together. "Snow."
"Like the weather snow or like the drug snow?"
"Take a guess."
Mateo looks at me for a moment before nodding. "Creative. Why did you pick that?"
"A reminder. Snow means stop, so every time I think about it, I'm reminded that it's bad for me." I confess.
I haven't done any drugs since I got out of rehab the last time. It's been around 9 years, but I developed a way of coping with it that's not very healthy. If I can't do that anymore I don't know if I can stay in the wagon.
Hayes always tells me that I should try activity based therapy like music or art. He suggested going on nature hikes to take my mind off of cutting or burning myself. Going to watch movies or plays can help too. He told me me to focus on the beauty I can find in the world instead of trapping myself in a place where I can only see the darkness.
Mateo helps me see that. He shows me the beauty.
When we finish with the contract, we put it aside so we can make a final draft tomorrow, and as soon as I stand up, he wastes no time picking me up to toss me over his shoulder.
I gasp softly and whine when he starts walking. "Mateo! You can't just pick me up-"
"Shut up." He tells me, reaching his hand over to smack my ass.
I blush and keep my mouth shut, feeling myself already getting hard. Even when we had s*x before he was very dominant. I can imagine when he gets proper training and some experience under his belt, even the other doms would submit to him.
It's even better because he's going to be mine.