Goddess Bound

Connections all around

Thrust into nothing but darkness, I lay on my side motionless roots growing from my body as the roots fall to what was supposed to be the ground was black like space. My hair is covered in yellow 4 petaled flowers with brown centers. They spread variously throughout my hair. I struggle to open my eyes to look around. i can feel my slow shallow breaths. It feels warm in this unknown place. I managed to peek my eyes open a bit I see a warm glow in the distance and a silhouette of a woman walking toward me she almost seems to glide toward me her hair is silver and looks soft to the touch a black triple Goddess symbol is weaved in metal forming into a crown on her head. Her lips are a lush, beautiful purple color. Her eyes are piercing light blue cresent moon earrings she is wearing can be seen shining through her hair. Her fair skin is a soft white color. She wears a beautiful blue and purple space dress filled with stars and galaxies and planets and various colors of space fill the fabric of the dress she has no shoes on. She glides up to me, crouching down to my level she smiles at me and sweetly but softly speaks to me.

" I know you have heard the stories that have come to pass told by the old wolves and creatures of the night. All of what you have heard is true, my child. Ask your questions while you still have time to do so you can not stay here long you have much work to do.

The moon goddess stands up facing me. Suddenly, I feel the weight of my body get lighter as I am able to get up into a sitting position. i couldn't stand up because the roots held me in place.

" Will you ever care for us like you do the wolves and vampires? Will humanity ever be able to save itself ? " I ask her my voice, wavering slightly with sorrow and uncertainty.

" I have always adored all of my children, and that includes humans as well. I love you all dearly.

She pauses gently, walking behind me, placing her hand on the middle of my back.

" I have said no to many humans that have come before me to ask for that which they do not deserve. to regain a connection to me. But you, you are different you didn't come to me to ask to regain your connection for any selfish reasons it is because you didn't ask me at all actually that i will grant these gifts.

" She pauses again, tracing something on my back with her pointer finger. I am warning you that if you reject your soulmate and / or betray me in some way, you will have failed the human race to be doomed to extinction. However, I know you will do well. Save as many humans along the way as you can. You dont have to save them all just enough people to last generations." She speaks in a powerful voice to me

" So may this be set in stone, my child. " After she said the phrase, my body felt like it was on fire. I remember screaming as she pushed on the center part of my back it sent me into agonizing pain.

Suddenly, my eyes flew open as I realized I was back home on earth. My body must have still been here meanwhile, my spiritual self was not. I slowly push myself up with my arms until I am getting into a comfortable sitting position. My body feels stiff and achey. I look down at my hands and notice my skin is a bit lighter than before and much softer looking. My skin has a weird light blue hue too it it's barely noticeable. I feel a slight ache in my back as I stand up and look at the ground. There is a burnt large pentagram in the grass, and i just realized I was laying in the center of the star.

Fear tears at my mind as I grab my bag and turn away from the strange scene running as fast as I can away from it. I think to myself " i'm running a lot faster than normal..." but I dismissed the thought as quickly as it came. Before I knew it i found my feet at my apartment door.

I enter my apartment walking through my living room into the kitchen and into my bathroom inside my bedroom. I enter the bathroom closing the door turning around to the mirror on my bathroom door I notice my complextion looked rather pale i didn't look unhealthy but my skin had a soft whiteand blue tinted shine to it like I almost became an albino but witch a mix of light blue skin. I notice my hair looks rather dead, my black hair looks rather ragidy now I then decide to cut the dead ends off my hair. I grab my scissors. I run the comb through the side of my hair closest to my face and snip the dead ends off a soon as I had done so the part of my hair I cut turned completely white leaving the rest of my hair black. I gasp in surprise and immediately put the scissors down. I mumble under my breath about how my black still hurts, so I investigate being rather anxious about my skin tone and hair. I turn around lifting my shirt up to look at my back. I turn my head and awkward angle to look at the mirror. A large dark blue triple goddess symbol almost like a tattoo, rests on my skin. It seems to have a slight glow to it as well. I shriek in fear and anxiety, dropping on my knees away from the mirror on the door. I start crying in confusion, all my emotions swirling in my head like their on overdrive.

" What the f**k is this? Did the moon goddess do this to me, but I thought she wasnt real! I thought maybe all of it was a dream like some how I could pinch myself and wake up. I dig my nails into my arms hissing at the pain.

Nope not a dream, not even close.

No not me, she must have made a mistake." I think to myself my thoughts at war with each other clashing as though it were life and death. My heart races in my chest and I can barely breath choking on my sobs I bring my knees to my chest still facing away from the mirror on the door. " Am I even still a human?" As im thinking an intrusive thought enters my mind

" just f*****g die" this thought terrified me because I wasn't sure if I ment the Goddess or me i hope I ment it about me and not her.

" you'll suffer because of what she did to you." Another intrusive thought shiws itself making my anxeity so much worse. As I sit there on the bathroom floorncrying my eyes out I can hear the wind as it makes the apartment complex creak from the sheer force of how fast the wind is going. I can hear thunder as the sound cracks across the sky I'm sure there is lightning but I havent looked out the window to see it. As my emotions got worse so did the weather but I had hardley noticed this fact. After an hour or so my anxiety attack subsided. I slowly whipe my eyes streching my legs out I grab my bag taking out my vape. I take a few drags of it the poisen filling my lungs I watched the smoke as I exhale it.

One thought comes to mind.

" I am so fucked...."

Feeling emotionally numb I walk out of the bathroom into my living room sitting on my rocking chair by the window next to the pile of wood by the window. I open the curtains looking out at the sky is see the lightning flicker a few time and the sound of thunder fill my ears. After few minutes of watching the storm gets lighter it is still raining but theres not as much lightning.