Wondering Minds

Chapter 3

"Are you kidding me, Luna?!" My Mom says while walking into the house. I threw my backpack on the couch when I walked in. "Are you doing drugs?!"

"Maybe..."

"What do you mean? It's either yes or no. Are you doing drugs?" I sat down on the couch, "I only did a little."

My Mom stood in front of me with her hands on her hips, "A little of what?"

"Marijuana..."

"m*******a?! Oh my gosh." She says almost about to cry.

"Mom, the only reason I tried it was to soothe my anxiety, I'm not this scared teenager when I'm high." My Mom tried to hold back tears as she stood up, "That's why we made an appointment to get you some help. I'm going to call your doctor right now to see if we can change your appointment to tomorrow. Just go to your room, I don't want to see you right now."

I slowly walked into my room, closed the door behind me, and then jumped into bed. I pulled out my phone to call Emma.

"Oh my gosh... What happened Luna?" Emma says concerned.

"Just come over and I'll explain what happened."

"Okay, I'm on my way." Emma hangs up the phone. I rolled over to my side as tears flowed down my face. My phone loudly rings in my ear causing me to jump. I picked up my phone to see "Dad" across my screen.

"Oh, fuck." I whispered to myself. I took several deep breaths and then I answered.

"Hello, Dad."

"You're Mom just called me saying you got suspended for doing m*******a. Is that true?" I can hear him loudly breathing like he's trying to hold in his anger.

"Yes sir, it's true..."

"I know it hurts you to see me and your Mother divorce but that does not mean you can act like that. I'll be over tomorrow to talk to you." He then hangs up the phone without saying anything else.

My body fills with panic as my heart starts racing. "Don't panic... Don't panic." I whispered to myself. I hear a knock at the door and then my Mom opening the door. "Hey! She's in her room." I heard my Mom say.

My door creaks open to see Emma's face smiling, she then closes the door behind her when she walks in. She climbs into bed next to me, "So... Tell me what happened."

Tears flow down my face, "Um... The principal pulled me aside after we had that discussion and he asked me why I refused the drug test..."

"Oh my gosh! Luna! Don't tell me you've been smoking weed with that Braden guy."

"Shhh! Yes I have, I just wanted to try a little. He said that it'll help with my anxiety." Her face drops with sadness.

"You know you don't need weed to help with anxiety. You're perfect just the way you are."

I start to shake my head, "You don't understand how helpless I feel when I can't speak up for myself. I want to speak up for myself but then something holds me back. When I started smoking... all of that fear went away."

Emma scoots closer to me and then wraps her arms around me. "It's okay, I understand."

We sat in silence for a little while.

"Do you want to go with me to confront Ryan?" Emma says.

"You still haven't told him yet."

"No, I had to rush over here." Emma climbed out of bed and then stood in front of my mirror. "Am I showing?"

I get out of bed to get a closer look, "Nope not yet." I start to put on my shoes.

"Would your Mom let you go out today?" Emma says.

"Probably not, but she's usually asleep by this time. I just need to be back before she wakes up. She nodded as we headed out of the room and out the front door. We walked down two blocks to Ryan's house which sat on the corner side.

"I'm getting nervous," Emma says as we walk up to his door.

"You can do this." I patted her on the back. She turned to face his door and then knocked three times. We heard footsteps walk towards the door and then the sound of locks unlocking. The door opens as Ryan appears through the doorway. I looked into his pretty blue eyes and his dark brown hair with loose curls.

Emma puts on a fake smile, "Hi... Can we come inside?"

Ryan looks at both of us, "Uh... sure." We walked inside and the sweet smell of something baking hit my nose. I could sense that none of his parents or siblings were home.

We walked into his living room and then sat down on the couch. "I have something very important to tell you," Emma says.

Ryan sits next to Emma on the couch, "Sure."

"So, do you remember the time that we hung out at my house, and then something happened between us?" Ryan starts to shake his right leg, "Yes..."

"Well... I'm... Pregnant..."

Ryan immediately stood up and started pacing. "Fuck...Fuck... Have you told anybody yet?"

"The only person told was Luna. I didn't know how to tell you." Ryan sits back on the couch in a panic, "Emma... How did this happen? My Mom is going to kill me."

"Well... We didn't use a condom." Emma says embarrassed. Ryan sits there in deep thought without saying a word to anybody.

"Can you at least tell me what you're feeling?" Emma says.

"I don't know what I'm feeling..." Ryan slowly stands up, "Just let me think about this."

"Okay." Me and Emma stood up as Ryan showed us out the door. Before walking off the porch, Emma turns around, "Can we just talk about this?" Ryan sighs then shuts the door in her face. Emma stomps away and down the street with tears in her eyes.

I closely follow Emma, "Emma... Just give him time to process this, he'll come around."

Emma sniffles, "I was so happy to start a family... I might get an abortion."

"You don't need an abortion, we can figure it out. If he doesn't want to be the father then I'll step up and help."

"Luna, go home I'll deal with it myself."

I watched as Emma stormed off into the distance.