THE WILL OF THE WINDS (MONTENEGRO SERIES 1)

I've spent half my life Looking for the reasons things must change And half my life trying to make them stay the same But love would fade like summer into fall All that I could see was a mystery It made no sense at all " Zaedyn Adler Montenegro! Gusto kita! Hindi mali pala, Mahal na mahal kita! " sigaw ko sa kanya habang nandito ako sa basketball court ng university confessing my love to him big-time. Eto na yon. It's now or never. Rejection or not. This is it. " I don't like you. And I will never like you. I don't like someone like you stalking me all the time" Ouch. Tangina saket non. Pero siyempre hindi ka pwedeng umalis ng hindi naririnig ang proposition ko. "Four months, date me in four months, and if you didn't fall for me, hinding hindi mo na ako makikita pang muli. I promise zae" he looked at me as if I'm the craziest girl that he knew well ako na yata ang pinakagagang babaeng gagawin to para sa pagibig . "Fine! Your my girlfriend now then" The will of the wind, you feel it and then It will pass you blowing steady It comes and it goes and God only knows You must keep your sails on ready So when it begins, get all that you can You must be friend, the will of the wind "Love, sino siya?" "A nobody. Let's go now malalate na tayo sa school mo." And it's not just the first time na nakita ko syang may kasamang babae everytime na bago niya ako susunduin. Pero pinagsawalang bahala ko nalang mahal ko eh mafafall din sya sakin. Someday. "I love you zae, I love you so much" "Astrea" he said while kissing me in the ear. "You don't have to say it back, maririnig ko din yan someday" "Thank-you" and he smiled at me afther that. "Happy birthday zae, make love to me. It's my birthday gift to you." I've spent so many hours Thinking 'bout the way things might have been. And so many hours trying to bring the good times back again And so it goes for lonely hearted fools They let their days slip away Until they give into "Zae, totoo ba? Hindi mo naman magagawa saken yon diba? " I said to him while crying. Kinakabahan nako dahil ngayong araw na to mismo ang katapusan ng two months. I'm nervous dahil alam ko at naramdaman ko na sa loob ng dalawang buwan he really cared to me. "What if it's true? Na pinagpustahan ka Lang namin kaya ako pumayag na maging boyfriend mo ng four months. " "N-no, zae mahal moko diba? Mahal moko, hindi mo naman ako gagalawin kung hindi diba? You loved me and I feel that. " "Tanga kaba o nagtatanga tangahan kalang? You was virgin right? That's why I f****d you. " And all I hear was the laughing of all the person in this f*****g university. While me? Crying and crying was all I want to do. I feel nothing but hurt. The will of the wind, you feel it and then It will pass you blowing steady It comes and it goes and God only knows You must keep your sails on ready So when it begins, get all that you can You must be friend, the will of the wind "Ma, I'm pregnant I'm sorry" "Umuwi kana dito sa cebu anak, magagalit ang tatay mo panigurado" I'm scared I don't know how to be a good mom. Being pregnant at the age of 19 is all I know. So when it begins, get all that you can You must be friend, the will of the wind SONG: THE WILL OF THE WIND