LIKE I NEVER MATTERED
SHANIEL'S POV
“I only stayed because it was convenient,” Jared said, his voice as flat as a dial tone.
The words didn't land as truth; they felt like a sudden drop in pressure that made my ears ring.
I reached for the edge of the kitchen counter, my fingers fumbling against the cold granite, needing something solid as the floor seemed to tilt.
“…What are you talking about?” I whispered, the question catching in a throat that had suddenly gone dry.
He gave a short, dismissive laugh—the kind he usually reserved for people he thought were beneath him—and shook his head.
“Look at you,” he said, his gaze raking over me with a clinical coldness I’d never seen before. “Always too desperate. Always believing too much.”
The air in the room didn't just change; it seemed to vanish.My chest tightened, a sharp, physical ache blooming behind my ribs as I watched him step back, his movements easy and unburdened, as if he were simply putting away a tool he no longer needed.
“Jared… stop,” I breathed, but he had already turned his back.
He walked out with a terrifying lack of hesitation, his rhythmic footsteps retreating down the hallway without a single pause for a backward glance. It was a finality that felt like a physical blow. My legs gave out, and I hit the floor, the impact jarring through my bones as the one year and four months I’d spent building a life around him shattered into jagged pieces.
I stared at the empty doorway. Jared was the guy everyone at Riverton High noticed—tall, with a meticulously groomed look and eyelashes that seemed too long for a boy. I used to think those lashes hid a kindness meant only for me, but now I realized they were just a polished mask for someone who had never really been there at all.
I was Shaniel Tyson, an only child who had always prided herself on being self-sufficient, but sitting on that floor, the house felt swallowing and hollow.
I dragged myself upstairs, my movements heavy and robotic. I turned on my speaker, cranked to a volume that vibrated the floorboards, letting a breakup song scream the words I couldn't find myself. I laughed—a jagged, ugly sound—before the first real sob broke through.
Then, the piercing chime of my phone cut through the music.
“Shaniel, I’m on my way home,” my mother’s voice was crisp, cutting through my devastation like a blade. “We’re having visitors. I hope you’re home—I left my house keys.”
“Yes—yes, I’m here,” I said, scrambling to wipe my face, my voice sounding thin and unfamiliar even to my own ears.
“Good. See you soon.”
Panic, sharp and cold, instantly replaced the heartbreak. My mother was not someone who accepted disappointment; her life was a series of perfectly aligned frames and dustless surfaces. I rushed downstairs, my breath coming in ragged hitches as I threw stray magazines into drawers and fumbled with the dishes, the clatter of porcelain sounding like a countdown.
The sharp blast of a car horn signaled her arrival.
I wiped my damp hands on my jeans and stepped outside into the 2:17 PM heat.My mother stepped out first, her posture as rigid as the iron gate behind her car.
“Good evening,” I greeted automatically, my gaze dropping to her polished shoes.
“Evening?” she repeated, a single brow arching with practiced disappointment. “At this time?”
“Sorry—good afternoon,” I corrected quickly, the familiar submission settling over me like a heavy coat.
Behind her, a woman I didn't recognize stepped out—tall, moving with an effortless style that made the humid afternoon feel cooler. She pulled me into a hug that smelled of expensive perfume and sun-warmed silk.“Shaniel!”
“My friend from childhood, Laila,” my mother said, her tone indicating the introductions were a mere formality.
Then, a third person emerged from the car. She looked about my age, but she carried a weighted stillness that I lacked. Her eyes were dark and observant, and as she stepped toward me, she didn't just look at me—she seemed to be reading the lines of my face, searching for the grief I’d tried so hard to wash away.
“Cecelia.” She stretched out a hand, her grip firm and lingering a second too long.
“Shaniel,” I replied, my skin prickling under her gaze.
Inside, the house was suddenly loud with a forced cheerfulness I couldn't match.I retreated to the edges of the room, an observer in my own home, until my mother’s voice snapped my attention back.
“Shaniel, Cecelia will be staying with us for a while. She’ll also be transferring to your school.”
My head snapped up, the word “What?” escaping before I could catch it.The room went silent. My mother’s eyes narrowed, a silent warning to rein in my emotions, and I immediately lowered my gaze. “I mean… okay.”
“I’ll be away for work,” Aunt Laila added with a thin smile. “She’ll stay here with you and your mother.”
Later, standing alone in my room, the weight of Jared’s betrayal still sat heavy in my chest, but it was now tangled with a new, unsettling disruption.
I could still feel the phantom pressure of Cecelia’s gaze—not warm, not cold, but knowing, as if she had already seen the cracks in my foundation. My life was shifting in a direction I didn't understand, and for the first time, the quiet of the house felt less like a vacuum and more like a held breath.