All is known, until it isn't

"Why act so coy when you've just come from stripping for nearly a hundred men?" Many people before him had said many things far more hurtful than that. But maybe it was because he, the man I'd loved with all my heart for so long said it, and God it hurt worse than any other revolting remark or insult I've ever received."Because, I don't strip for pleasure or enjoyment. I strip because it's the only way I can pay bills. Excuse me if I live the part of my life unconnected to this the way I'd like to."

Guilt and remorse flashed in his eyes but it quickly vanished almost making me believe if imagine it there. "I spent five years worrying about you. Whether or not you survived the shooting. Whether you survived losing your parents and unborn sister. Maybe I was wrong to care because clearly you've got it together if you can mock possibly the only person who doesn't hate you. "