Can I love him

His company

s**t s**t s**t. This can’t be happening. He said his company. That can’t be true right. I mean how can I work in the company he owns. No no there has to be a different explanation to this. He might have meant that I was in his company right there not his business company right. I am just imagining this. Maybe it’s a dream of some sort, or maybe I’m hallucinating and I’ve gone mad. I pinch my arm as I walk down the street to the restaurant to meet Jenny. I am fully awake and completely in the right mind for me. How could this happen. The one man I decided to have a fun night with is my boss. Not only my boss but my bosses bosses boss. The owner of my workplace and the ruler of the building I am to spend all my weekdays in for the foreseeable future. How could this have happened, what did I do to deserve this kind of complication so soon. This was supposed to be a fresh start not a new drama, but a new beginning to my life seems to not be what I get.

Jenny is standing in front of the new restaurant as I walk up to her. “I am so dead.” I say before she can even get a word out or say hi. “What happened, you seemed happy yesterday. Was it that girl you told me about?” She asks shocked at my outburst. “Jack owns it.” Is all I say and realization crosses her face. “Oh my god. He owns the company!?” “Yes. And now I don’t know I can I won’t I don’t..” I start rambling. “What do I do?” I question her like she has all the answers. “We get some food and discuss it I guess.” She says pointing to the restaurant. “I guess.” I say as we enter the restaurant. Maybe some food can help me come up with something. I can’t just ignore him now that he is my boss, but that doesn’t mean I can just be normal around him either.

•••later that evening•••

Even after a long discussion about my predicament I still have no solution. I can’t avoid him like I normally would a one night stand. Because I ran from him today he will have more questions and how do I tell him that I thought we wouldn’t ever meet again or be in the same circle. What if he asks me to be his submissive partner or something like that. I don’t want that after him. Then he might ask why and I am not telling Jack about him. What a predicament I am in how do I get out of this. I won’t be able to sleep tonight because of this.

•••Jack pow•••

This is quite the development. The first woman I have looked at in years and she decided to sleep with me only to run away only to show up working in my company. “Zack get me her details and send them to my phone.” I tell Zack as he is about to leave. Why did she run away from me though I need to find out. I can still remember her lips her perfect breasts fitting in my palm. Her beauty compares to no one I have ever met. The way she talks openly and freely how she was moaning beneath me letting me have all her pleasure. I decide to text Sam to see if he new more of her, but no such luck. Seems the girl he was with that night was not speaking to him either. Maybe they were just out for some fun, but I am not about to let the first woman I take a liking too to get away just like that. I will have her be mine.

•••back to Kate’s pow•••

No sleep and bags under my eyes and it is only my second day of work. He knows I work there now, what if he just shows up in my office to talk. What do I say. No sleep and I still don’t have the answer even the shower I had and the beautiful dress I am wearing isn’t helping. I am standing outside the office building and not walking in and why did I dress sexy today. Am I hoping for something to happen. No I need to get him out of my mind. I came here for a fresh start. I came to work with what I love and be with people I love like Jenny. Even though she was no help yesterday she and this new start is why I came here in the first place. Not to get a man. I might as well brace myself and just do what I came to do. I say to myself as I enter the building to go to my office. I can do this.

The day went on with meetings and talks with Zack regarding publishings for a new campaign for an elite group in the richest parts of the city. Before I knew it it was already lunchtime. I decided to eat in my office by mistake because not only ten minutes into my break Sarah shows up. At least it wasn’t Jack is what I thought at first, but oh how wrong I was. “You disgusting little whore.” Sarah half screams after closing the door to my office were I am enjoying my lunch. “Excuse me. What makes you think you can come into my office and call me names when I have done nothing but be nice to you.” I retort back at her a little offended by her sudden remark about me. “You know what you did. I had to here from Zack how you have tried to get close to mr Jack. How dare you come to this company and try to get with my man.” She yells in while stomping into the room. “I have done no such thing and I am currently trying to enjoy my lunch. So how about you get out of my office before I report you to HR for slander and harassment in the workplace.” I say standing from my seat staring her down. Before she can say anything else there is a knock on my door. “Come in.” I say and the door opens to reveal non other than the man in question. “Jack. What are you doing here?” Sarah says in a sweet voice trying to seem innocent and pure while adjusting her attire to push her boobs outward. “I came to see the new addition to my company and welcome her to the team.” He says with a stern voice not even looking at her. “That is kind of you.” I say with a smile and before he can say anything else I continue. “I was just having a conversation with your girlfriend here regarding my behavior as I am apparently being to forthcoming with her boyfriend.” I say knowing that Sarah was lying and being mean because of something she had overheard from others. “Miss Sarah. I do believe I have told you before that we are never going to date ever.” He says to her with an angry expression that could terrify even the strongest of people. “I am sorry miss Kate, it seems miss Sarah has given you the wrong impression regarding our relationship. Because there is non other than employee and employer.” He says directed towards me. Sarah bows her head low as she sneaks her way out of my office closing the door behind her to get away from the beast of a man standing here. “Well that was interesting to see.” I say with a quirked brow. I look from the door and back to Jack who is staring at me intently. “You have no shame in calling someone out yet you run from me the minute you see me.” He states with a little anger in his voice while still staring at me. “I-I didn’t…” is all I start to say before I choke not knowing what or how to answer. “Where did your confidence go. Am I really that much of a mistake to you that not only sneaking out, but speaking with me is difficult?” He questions while staring at me with a terrifying look that could kill. He moves forward and I can’t help but move back as he comes behind my desk close enough that I can feel the warmth radiating from him. “T-Thats not it, I didn’t think..I mean it wasn’t..” without any coherent words forming and with the close proximity to this man my world has gone blank. I can’t think of what to say let alone do under this man’s powerful stare. “Well” he says while walking even closer until I can’t back away anymore and end up against the wall with him towering over me. “I didn’t mean to. I was trying not to get into trouble and didn’t think I’d see you again. Let alone be working in your company.” I say knowing I have no choice now that he has me cornered. His eyes bore into me for what feels like an eternity before he speaks. “And leaving before I wake up? Running from me in the elevator!” He says. I just stare at him not knowing what to say. While staring into his eyes I get lost thinking of what to say when thoughts of that night enters my head leaving me to forget what is happening. “Answer me little one.” He says intimidatingly causing me to return to the present. “I didn’t want to stay. So I went home.” I say my voice trembling as I speak. He looks at me intently pushing me to answer the second question of why I ran. “I was in shock.” Is all I can muster. “You didn’t think you would meet me again then.” He says answering more fully to the question like as if he knew my thoughts and just needed confirmation from me. I nod slightly but enough for him to understand that it was as he thought. “And now.” He says moving closer towards me so that there is almost no space between us. “I-I don’t know..” I say honestly not knowing what to say. I look down feeling the urge to run or disappear from the world, but he grabs my chin making me look him straight in the eyes. “What to do.” He says with a whisper leaning closer to my face so I can feel his breath on me. I don’t move, to absorbed in his eyes to think of anything but his mouth all over me. Without thinking I look to his lips and back to his eyes. His eyes turn dark as if he knows what I’m thinking. His hand moves from my chin to my neck and squeezes slightly causing my blood to rush to my head. I feel my knees getting weaker as he moves in close to my ear as he whispers with a raspy voice. “I can tell what you want little one. I am inclined to give it to you.” He says making my knees almost buckle under me. “So how about you stop running and just give into your desires.” He continues with his lips barley touching my ear causing a small moan to leave my lips. As if that was all that was needed to push him over the edge he grabs my hip and pushes himself against me staring straight into my eyes. Before anything else happens there is a knock on my door. Jack moves away from me and walks towards the door and leaves as Zack enters.

“I’m sorry was I interrupting a meeting.” Zack says confused looking towards Jack while I manage to compose myself. “Not at all. A simple welcome to the company conversation that just finished.” I manage to say as calmly as possible. “Well that was kind of him. He usually doesn’t like doing things like that.” Zack says with a confused expression as he walks in and sits down. I situate myself back in my chair with a neutral smile. “So what can I do for you Zack. Is something wrong?” I ask knowing that we didn’t have a meeting today. “Oh, no nothing is wrong. I just came to see how you were doing today. I didn’t see you in the cafeteria and got a little worried I might have given you more work than you can handle.” He says with a concerned smile. “Not at all, I just brought my own lunch today as I wanted to get used to the new environment and work I am doing.” I say smiling a genuine smile knowing he cares for my wellbeing as one of his employees. “Well that is good to know. Please let me know if anything is to much or you need help settling in. You have only been here for two days after all.” He smiles as he stands to leave. “Thank you. I’ll let you know.” I say as I follow him to the door. As soon as the door is closed I collapse against it and slide down. That was intense.

•••later that evening•••

After talking with Jenny about what happened with Sarah and here rude comments leaving out the part with Jack knowing that she would only encourage it when I don’t even know what it means. I finally situated myself in a much needed bubble bath. There is a ding on my phone as I am just about to close my eyes. ‘Hey, I am sorry about today. I got carried away.’ I read it again and again wondering and speculating on who it might be and coming to the conclusion that it could only be one person. Jack. Before I can text back there is another ping. ‘Please don’t think ill of me. I would like to get to know you better.’ I read the text and all I can think is why. Why does this man want to know me. I know we had a night together and that we have similar lifestyles, but why is he so persistent about getting to know me. ‘Who is this?’ I text back determined to keep him at a distance. ‘It’s Jack your boss.’ He replies almost instantly. Knowing I have put him in a position where there might be others texting me to apologize. His answer was so simple and so clear yet it makes me feel bad somehow. ‘Ok, I accept your apology.’ I answer back in the same manner simple and clear. I put my phone down even though there is another ding, and decide to go back to my bath. By the time I was finished with my bath and dressed for bed my phone had pinged two more times with some space in between. I grab my phone and jump into bed ready to sleep. I didn’t want to, but against my better judgement I decide to check the messages. ‘Thank you. Let us get to know each other then.’ ‘Why don’t we go out to dinner tomorrow evening before the weekend.’ ‘It can be as friends nothing more.’ I read the messages over and over not knowing how to respond. I think for a minute before finally replying. ‘I don’t believe that is a good idea.’ I look at the message for a while before hitting send. This is for the best, let him down now and it will be easier later. I stare at my phone ass I see the dots appear meaning he is typing. ‘Why not? We are colleagues now and it will just be as friends. What is the harm in that.’ He is really putting me in a position where if I say no again I am not only a bad person, but I am denying a colleague the opportunity to get to know me. Reluctantly I answer ‘fine, but just as friends nothing more.’ I send. ‘Great I’ll pick you up outside your office at four tomorrow. Have a good evening.’ He replies almost immediately. I look at the message for a long time before I decide to put down my phone to go to sleep. Another restless night it is I think before turning of the lights.

•••the next morning•••

All this stress and nerves are getting to me as I stand in front of my mirror looking at my outfit for the day. A tight maroon blue dress going down to right above my knees with half long arms that go to my elbow. Beautiful silver strapped high heels with a gray jacket to match. Why am I going all out for this man that I am just going to be friends with. Sometimes I wonder if I am too relaxed with the people around me and end up being a pushover. The dress might be tight but at least the oval neckline covers any cleavage that might have been. It is also appropriate for work clothes and with the accessories like my watch necklace and earrings it looks both professional and personal at the same time. I guess I have no choice now, today sure will be interesting.