Can I love him

A new job

“The walk of shame.” Jenny says as she sees me walk into the living room. “Says the girl in the same dress as yesterday.” I say smirking at my friend who looks like she just got home herself. “True that and so worth it.” She smiles. “I take it you had a good time by that smile you are so proudly wearing.” I say smiling back at her. “Oh definitely. Sam was a real gentleman and real good in bed I might add.” She states as a matter of fact. “Looks like I’m not the only one that is satisfied by the look of glowing coming of of you.” She grins. “You have no idea.” I grin back at my friend. We end up talking for hours on end about our encounter and events of the evening before.

“So when are you seeing handsome Jack again?” Jenny questions once I get settled down in the couch. “I am not. It was a onetime thing nothing more.” I say looking at the menu for takeout. “What! Why?” Jenny says with frustration that I won’t just get out there. “You know why.” I say. “With what happened in my last relationship with him it should be obvious that I don’t want a new relationship.” I say with conviction. “I know it was hell, but you can’t just not get out there again.” She says while looking at me. I give her a side look saying it’s not happening at least not yet. “Fine I won’t pester you about this. Just promise me you will consider getting back to it sooner rather than later. It’s not good being alone for too long. You need to have some connection to someone who can be there for you.” She says giving me peace about the questions. “I promise. It will not happen overnight, but I will try to get there.” I say with a sad smile. “Good. Now let’s order food and watch a movie. You have an interview tomorrow and I have a model gig so let’s enjoy some quiet before we have no more time to chill.” Jenny takes the menu and smiles a big smile picking burgers and drinks for us.

•••next day•••

I am currently standing in the middle of my closet staring at my attire in the mirror. I have to look good for this interview. I am a publishing professional and I have good knowledge about publishing and marketing. I don’t really need a job, but if I don’t have something to do I will just wither away at home. I scan my outfit again. High heels, black jeans and a blue dress shirt. I look professional, but I feel somewhat insecure about it. How can I look more professional when I just don’t know how to hide my boobs and curves. I just end up looking slutty. Curse these curves and that man. He is still dictating how I see myself and how I feel. I need to stop, he can’t dictate what I do or how I dress anymore. This is why I am here, to get away from all that. I sigh as I decide that I look good enough like this.

“Will you look at that. The professional publisher is here.” Jenny says as I enter the kitchen. “You ready for your interview?” She asks. “As ready as I can be.” I say. “You ready for your foto shoot?” I ask while taking a yogurt from the fridge with some fruit. “Always.” She says handing me a cup of tea. “Let us both rock today.” She says while doing a short prayer move. I smile at her and sit down with her to eat. We sit in silence until we both have to leave. We hug and wish each other luck again before going into our separate cabs.

•••interview•••

I look around the lobby as I am waiting for my interview. There are other candidates around the room and they all look nervous for some reason. I wonder if the interviewer is a hard ass or something. The last girl that came out from an interview was half crying while running out of here. Maybe I should have prepared more. The company is huge and prestigious with high clientele so I am sure they have a hard time finding people to work here. Sion publishing is known for having many celebrities and rich clients who they publish for. It would be interesting to work here and also provide me with something to do. “Kate Winster.” I am pulled out of my thoughts when the front lady speaks my name. “Yes.” I say as I stand to walk into the interview room. I gather my nerves and my portfolio and enter the room.

I walk in and see two people along with the lady that called my name. She follow me to the table and sits down next to the other two people. “Hello Kate. I am Zack. I am in charge of the department you are applying for. This man next to me is Mark he is my second and will be in charge when I am not here. Lastly this is Sarah, she is in charge of our departments schedule and phone calls.” Zack introduces himself and his colleagues. “It is nice to meet you. I am Kate.” I say with a smile. I can tell Mark is checking me out while Sarah is giving me the stink eye. Zack is not paying attention to that and is looking over what I believe is my resume and application letter. “Well Kate, I have read your letter and resume and believe you would be a good fit for the position.” He starts giving me some hope of being hired. “However at this company we are extremely strict about contracts and confidentiality rules. So what makes you think you can uphold these?” He questions me looking at me from behind the papers in his hand. “I believe that should not be a problem for me. I have had clients with high stakes before after all.” I say confidently to him. “I see. Can you tell me about one of these situations that you have had before.” He says. I look to him with a puzzled look before I realize what he is doing. “You know I can’t do that. That would break the trust those clients have put in me.” I say as I see Mark give away that this was the point to begin with. They are testing my skills in confidentiality. “However I can tell you that when or if I get a call regarding a client that I always ask for permission from the client it is in regards too for permission. So if you would like a more detailed response to that I am happy to ask one of my previous clients to give you one.” I say with a smile. Zack looks up without giving me any indication of what he thinks. “I see. Can you tell me why you have applied for this position?” He continues. “I love publishing and this company is one of the best. In other words I would get paid to do what I like while working in a company that has the best customer base.” I answer honestly. “Thank you Kate. That would be all. You can go for now. We will contact you after noon today regarding the answer to your application.” He says as Sarah stands to escort me out. “Thank you.” I say as I leave the interview room. I walk out of the building and head for the shopping area to get my mind of the interview and maybe get some lunch as it is only ten now. I won’t get any answers regarding the job until after twelve o’clock so I might as well shop a little and get lunch in the meantime.

The walk was short from the building to the shopping area so I’m in range if I get the job. The area also has my favorite fashion stores. I walk into one to find some new outfits for my new start in this city. By the time I was done it was already eleven and I was feeling pretty hungry so I decided to go to a nearby restaurant. I ordered the chicken salad with a side of bread with some jam. While I was eating I called Jenny to tell her about my interview and how I felt it went. By the time I was done eating and drinking some tea it was already twelve thirty. I looked out the window to the people walking around and shopping when finally my phone rang. “Hello, is this Kate.” The woman Sarah from the interview asks. “Yes hello this is Kate.” I answer feeling my nerves coming back at me. “This is Sarah from this morning. I would like to congratulate you for the job. We would like you to come back in today to sign the contract and some paperwork to get you situated for the job. Would that be possible?” She asks while I can hear her condescending tone. “That would be fine. I can be there by one o’clock.” I say back in a chipper voice. “Great I will let Zack and the front desk know. Just drop your name when you arrive.” She says with little to no respect for me. Before I can even say thank you or respond she hangs up the phone. I scoff half laughing knowing the she and I will never get along. I wonder if she has a crush on Mark or something or maybe just jealous of my curves because the way she looks and treats me is just rude. Oh well what is life without a little drama. I think to myself as I pay for my meal ready to go back to the company building.

I walk back into the building and go straight to the front desk where I give my name. A lady shows me to the meeting room where I walk in to see Zack waiting for me with a stack of papers. “Welcome back Kate.” He says standing up smiling and reaching out his hand to shake mine. “Thank you Zack. I am glad for the opportunity.” I say with a smile to match his while I shake his hand. We both sit down and Zack explains the papers and contract for me to sign. “Well that should be it.” Zack says when we are finally done going through all the paperwork and contract documents. “Now that you have signed all the paperwork and the confidentiality agreement you are officially one of us. Congratulations.” He says with a smile and a chipper tone. “I have your office ready and here is your office badge for the building.” He says while handing me my badge for the office and the building. As this place is highly regarded and respected only those with a badge have access to the office areas. “Thank you.” I say taking the badge and fixing it to my pants belt holder. “Let me show you your office and some of the other areas of the building so you can get situated and ready to work.” Zack says as we leave the meeting room to head to my new office. The office isn’t too big but it has a desk and a sofa with a nice table for when clients come to visit. Zack showed me the areas where I can get my lunch and where any office supplies are. “That should be it. We can talk more tomorrow about the clients you will have and what you will be in charge of. For today you can go home and get some rest.” Zack says as we reach the lobby. “Thank you Zack. I look forward to working with you.” I say as we shake hands one more time before I leave.

•••back home•••

Jenny and I have been talking about the job and how her day was. Of course I told her all about Sarah and her kind welcome and how drama is already on the way. She is already happy to gossip about it, however I am not much for it. I am sure that we can find a way to get along, but having someone to talk about it with in the meantime would help me not think to much about it in the long run. Thanks to my shopping earlier today I at least had a new outfit for my first day tomorrow. A nice long sleeve dress that goes to my knees in a beautiful dark purple color. And with the black strapped high heels it will make me look very professional yet stylish at the same time.

I head in to the shower to wash the day away when I notice some small bruises on my hips and inner thighs. I can’t help but remember how Jack had made me feel and how his hands had been all over me the whole time. His voice in my ear and the way he looked at my body with so much desire and want. It makes me feel so good thinking that someone could be so attracted to me and want to own what only I can give. Before I know it I am pleasuring myself and moaning in the shower to my thoughts of that night. How he brought out my submissive tendencies and made me loose control only to be kept safe in his arms as he embraced me. How he moved inside me while pushing all my buttons to make me feel good. His breathing on my neck and how the small painful sensation of his teeth on my sensitive areas made me feel like I was floating in the sea. I come as I think back to all he gave me in one night. I sigh as I get of my high and climb out of the shower to do my night routine to get ready for bed. I should stop thinking about that night, I will never see him again anyway. I need to focus on work that is what I should do. I didn’t come here for a man and even if we see each other again it’s not like we’re going to be together. Even if I go back to that club, even if I see him on the street I can just ignore him. It’s not like we are in the same circle the probability that we meet again is little to nothing I think before I jump into bed.

•••the next day•••

I have had an exiting first day. Zack helped me get into all the work quickly and I have basically been working alone for half the day. It is already late in the afternoon and I have been able to get all my work done for the day. I look at my phone and see a text from Jenny. ‘Hey. Let’s go to the new restaurant to celebrate your first day at work. I’ll be there at around five.’ I look at the clock to see it is already four fifteen. ‘I’ll be there.’ I text her back gathering my things to leave. As I am leaving Zack comes up to me. “Good work today. Hope you are settling in nicely.” He says with a smile. “Thank you I am doing good.” I say as I walk towards the elevator door. “That is good. I’ll see you tomorrow. Have a good evening.” He says as he walks away. “Thank you. And you two.” I say as I enter the elevator while not looking who is standing in it. As I turn to press the button for the lobby I see the one man I thought I’d not see again. “Jack!” I say looking into a pair of ocean blue eyes. “Kate” he says as surprised as I was. “Well this is a surprise, and here I thought you ran away from me. Yet here you are in my company.” He says with a hard look on his face. The ding of the elevator sounds and I bolt out of the elevator and out of the building before he could say anything else.