Can I love him

Jack

I am currently in a sticky situation and I have no idea how to handle it. Here I am next to the most perfect man I have ever seen and I have no idea how to talk to him. I haven’t talked or had a relationship with anyone but one man for over a year and now I am here in a situation where I have no choice. My nerves are starting to get to me. How could I think coming here was a good idea. What do I do now. “No need to be so nervous little one. I don’t bite, not unless I have consent of course” Jack says with a hint of a smile on his face. This is crazy, just that sentence has me feeling things. “I’m sorry. I have been away from the scene for a long time. To say I’m a little nervous would be an understatement.” I say confidently trying to regain my composure. Come on I got this. It has been a while since I’ve done this, but I know what to do. “No need to apologize little one, I understand.” He says with a smile that could drop any girl’s panties to the floor. “May I ask why you have been away for a long time?” He asks cautiously. I look at him and see he has a puzzled look on his face. I am about to answer when he says. “You don’t have to say if you don’t want to little one. It was insensitive of me to ask.” He looks at me assuringly. I am contemplating what to say or how to respond when I realize I should just tell the short truth. I am already not much of a liar and being honest would be best. I am trying to create a new life for myself here after all. “I was in a relationship for a year that broke three months ago and didn’t go out much. So I guess I’m just out of practice you could say.” I say with a small smile. I am sure he could tell there was more to it, but he said no more about it.

“I’m back” Jenny calls as she returns to the table. “What are you two talking about” she asks with a wide grin. “Nothing” I say back a little to quickly, but luckily no one says anything. Instead Jenny decided to be bold. “So Jack, do you have any friends. Who are you here with and do you have a sub?” She half runs through the questions. Jack looks at here with a hard expression before his face softens. “I am here with my best friend. So yes and no, I don’t have a sub.” He says to her politely. “Is your friend free and single too?” Jenny continues her questioning. I nudge her foot under the table, but she just looks at me like as if I am the one who is acting rude. “I am single” a voice sounds behind us. We both turn to see a man with ash blond hair and strong jawline. He has a blue suit on with a vest to match. He looks to Jack with a puzzled face and says. “And what are you up to.” He raises an eyebrow as he looks down on his friend. “I found these sitting here all alone. So I figured that needed to be rectified.” He answers as a matter of fact. “I see. I guess we should be joining them for the night then.” The man says with a grin as he looks to me then to Jenny. “Yes you definitely should.” Jenny says while staring straight into the man’s eyes. The man chuckles as he walks around to sit next to Jenny. “Aren’t you a brave one.” He says. “Or should I say confident.” He looks at Jenny with a challenge me I dare you look. “Sam.” Is all he says. Jenny with no hesitation takes the challenge head on. “Jenny.” She says confidently and strongly. “This is Kate.” Pointing at me. “Hi” I say in a small voice. “Hmm. So why are the two of you here all alone?” He asks us. “We are celebrating me moving here. She has a mouth on here so try not to get angry. Though I’m sure that will be a challenge.” I say before Jenny can say anything. I give her a look before I look back at Sam with a smile. “I see.” Sam says as he chuckles at my comment about Jenny. “Well then, we must make this day a night to remember.” He finishes with a glint in his eye as he raises his hand to get the bartenders attention.

•••several drinks and small talk later•••

“Hey Sam come dance with me” a very drunk Jenny half screams to Sam. “Sure darling, let’s dance.” He says with a smirk on his face. Probably knowing he would get lucky tonight. “Not dancing?” Jack questions me. “No more dancing for me tonight. I think I’ve done enough dancing.” I say with a little laugh. “How so?” He continues. “We danced earlier and it ended with an awkward conversation in the elevator with a certain scene performer.” I say feeling flustered just thinking of the scene from earlier. “Well then how about we talk some more about your preference within the lifestyle and get to know each other better.” He says with a hint of mischief. “What would you like to know.” I say with a hint of humor. Now that the alcohol is hitting me I am feeling more confident. “What are your safe words?” He asks going right for the jugular of questions. Knowing people in the community is not shy of asking questions about these things and going straight for the truth. “I have my own, but that you would have to earn. For now let’s go old school with red, yellow and green.” I say not wanting to give him to much information to soon. “Fair point. Then how about limits?” He says knowing that some things need to be earned. “Permanent markings are not ok. I hate tape and I have no interest in hanging from the ceiling. Also I don’t just jump into a scene without knowing a person as that could be dangerous, so if you want to play you will have to tell me of yourself and your preferences.” I retort the questions back at him loving the attention and respect I am currently receiving from this man. “Well well. You seem to already be playing with me though.” He says with a smirk. “I guess I’ll have to give you some of myself before we get to that then.” He smiles. What a gorgeous smile. If he keeps doing that then Sam wont be the only one getting lucky. Who am I kidding he is an ideal man for a one night kind of play fun that I need so badly right now. “So your safe words and limits.” I say as confidently as I can muster while taking a sip of my drink. “Same safe words as you that helps us be more sure and open about the other. For now I have no intentions of going beyond any of your limits and I have only one limit and that is my hair. No touching my hair and we are good.” He says taking a sip of his hard liquor. I guess we match pretty well for now then. “And what would you like then Jack” I say with a little more confidence and sexy voice. “How about a small play at my place with some vanilla sex.” He says looking deep into my eyes. “And that would be sir to you little one.” He finishes while grabbing my chin while lifting his and staring down at me. I can feel goosebumps forming on my back as this man’s dominance is making me feel like I am inferior. “Very well sir…” I start almost choking on my own words. “Lest go then.” I say trying to compose myself. “You going to leave your friend here then?” He questions as we get up. I had forgotten Jenny for a second there and this man reminded me. I guess he is a gentleman as well. “Jenny can take care of herself, but I guess I should let her know I am leaving.” I say looking towards the dance floor to see if I can’t spot her. “I will text Sam. He can let her know. Let’s go.” He says taking my hand and leading us to the elevator to leave. As soon as we enter the elevator he takes out his phone and texts Sam I guess. “There. Now she has been informed.” He says as we enter the lobby on our way outside the club. “Thank you.” I say as we wait for the valley to get his car. “Anytime little one.” He smiles back. Holy hell his face looks good in the moonlight as he smiles. I can’t believe I am going with him. The valley comes up front with his car and holy hell it’s a dark red Ferrari. He even opens the car door for me as he climbs over to the drivers seat. “Nice car.” I say as he takes off.

•••At Jack’s apartment•••

I am currently sitting in an open view living room with a huge tv and floor to ceiling windows to look over the city. I have money and the apartment Jenny and I rent is big and beautiful, but it is nothing compared to this. He must be loaded. And the entrance to this place is just to die for with all the colors high ceiling and beautiful artwork all over. Jack comes over with a glass of red wine as he sits opposite me in an intimidating way. “I guess you like the apartment.” He states looking at me. I guess my eyes must have wandered around the room more than I thought. “Yes, it is quite beautiful.” I say knowing I can’t say or think otherwise. He smirks looking me up and down. “Well then. Let’s get to business.” He says with a strong tone. “We won’t do a scene. Only a little rougher than what is normal. I don’t like doing to much with someone I don’t know. Besides you look like you might run if I’m too rough.” He says not breaking eye contact with me. He seems to have picked up my feelings of not being ready to jump into a scene any time soon. “That I would appreciate. I am not ready for too much yet.” I say with a dry mouth. The way he is looking at me makes me clench my thighs. He seems to notice and I can see a hint of a smirk on his face. “Let’s take this to the bedroom shall we.” He says standing up and taking our glasses to put down on the table leading me to the bedroom.

•••sexual content ahead•••

(Not needed for the storyline, continue at the next divider)

Not even a foot in the door and I feel myself being pushed up against the wall and his hands on me. Our lips meet and his hand wanders to my breast as the other lingers in my hair as he pushes my face closer to his. I can feel his tongue on my lips as he squeezes my breast leaving me to open my mouth in a moan giving him what he wants as his tongue enters my mouth. He fights for dominance in the kiss and win’s quite easily. He pulls on my hair to lift my chin to give him more access to my mouth as he demands my submission. I grab his arm as he squeezes my breast and pulls on my n****e through the fabric of my dress. He moves his hand from my hair and onto my back as he pulls me close to his chest. That’s when I feel what is in his pants. Just the feel through our clothes has my heart beating a mile a minute. I can tell he is huge and I have no idea how that will fit. He doesn’t stop, but I am sure he can tell my nerves going haywire. He instead lifts me up onto his hips and carries me to the bed where he puts me down. “Don’t worry little one. I will prepare you thoroughly.” He says looking down at me with heated eyes as he opens his shirt to take it of giving me a great view of his abs and muscles. “Take off that dress.” He demands. Not wanting to piss of the dom in front of so soon I do as I am told. Very happy that Jenny forced me to wear the sexy underwear that I had just gotten. The red and black lace underwear compliments my fair skin perfectly. “What a gorgeous body.” He says staring at me. Looking at my breasts and looking down towards my p***y. I squirm a little under his gaze. It has been a long time since I have been with a man, let alone someone who wasn’t him. I shake the thought out of my head and focus back on the man in front of me. He was still just standing there looking at me and not doing anything. I could see the bulge in his pants his muscles and tattoos. I didn’t realize I what I was doing until I heard a light chuckle. “Like what you see.” He says and my eyes dart to his. “Answer me.” He says sternly. “Y-yes sir.” I say half stuttering. “Lay down on the bed and spread your legs.” He say and I do as I’m told. I feel exposed as he walks up between my legs. I can feel his breath on my thighs as he moves closer to my p***y. The anticipation is making my heart rate go up and my breathing to fasten. I’m sure he can tell that I want this so badly by now. I feel his hands going up my thighs to my hips and then to my breasts. He grabs behind me and takes my bra off while staring straight into my eyes. “That’s better.” He says as he leans down towards my breast and before I know it his mouth is around my n****e sucking lightly. His other hand is on my other n****e squeezing slightly. I am moan if slightly when suddenly he bites down on my n****e causing me to let out a loud moan. He slowly moves down towards my p***y kissing his way down. When he gets to my panties he takes both sides and rips them into two pieces. I gasp, but before I can say anything his mouth is on me. Exploring my most sensitive and vulnerable areas. I try squeezing my legs together, but his hands stop me. “Close your legs and I will put you over my knee.” He says before he continues to devour my juices. I feel his hand going to the entrance as he is still licking me. He moves his fingers so effortlessly and skillfully that soon I am a moaning mess. “Please” I say not knowing what I am pleading for. He quickens his pace and soon I feel it. The need to come. “Let go little one.” He says against my sweet spot and that’s all I need as I come on his fingers. He continues until I am down from my high, but I don’t have time to recover much as I feel him at my entrance. It is not his fingers this time. He pushes in me slowly. “Relax little one.” He says as he slowly pushes all the way in. It is painful, but also there is pleasure. I can feel him above me moving his face closer to my ears. “Breathe little one.” He whispers so close to my ear that I gasp and realize I have been holding my breath. A moan escapes me as I feel him adjust inside me. “Please.” I say again giving him permission to move. He starts slowly as he kisses my neck with his hand on my breast and hip. He starts going faster and I close my eyes as I listen to his moans in my ear. He picks up the pace and moves from my ear. Suddenly he grabs my throat and squeezes. My eyes shoot up and I grab his wrist, but he doesn’t loosen it he just continues as he stares into my eyes. The pleasure between my legs and the small pain around my neck causes me to feel the same buildup as before. Before I know it I am begging for release and moaning his name. “What did I tell you to call me. I won’t let you come until you understand little one.” He says as he slows down making sure I don’t c*m. “Please let me come. Please..sir.” I beg him remembering to not call him by name. “That’s a good girl.” He says picking up the phase. “Then come for me little one.” He says as he pounds into me. I let myself go as I fall apart around him. It doesn’t take long before he stills inside me and moans as he also comes.

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•••the next morning •••

I wake up next to the handsome man who I had chosen to go home with last night. Looking at him sleeping he looks less intimidating than last night. He almost looks like a child now compared to yesterday. I know better considering what we did last night more than once. I sneak up to get my clothes when I find my panties ripped on the floor I smile to myself. I get dressed and walk out feeling a little sore from last night’s activities. This was nothing more than fun, but there is no way I am doing the awkward next day with him so I bolt out of there before he wakes up. I hail a cab and soon I am walking into my apartment.