All This Trouble for Love

School for me was always a place I wanted to stay hidden, so summer was my escape from reality. The first week of summer after my junior year of high school, I was super thrilled. That was until I found out my parents were getting divorced. I fell into a major depressive state. I continued going back and forth from my mothers house Ann to my Father Williams house. One night, my best friend since birth Ally called me. “I need you to come pick me up.” She said. I told her to send me her location. Ally was known as the hottest girl in school and every guy wanted in her pants. She told me she just wanted to be treated like a normal girl. Secretly I think she enjoyed all the attention. I mean who wouldn’t? That’s something I never got. Me on the other hand I was known as the bigger best friend. This always bothered me walking through the halls of school with Ally as all eyes turned on her and I just got overlooked. I guess I got my wish of staying hidden at school. I was at my fathers house and he didn’t give a s**t what I did or where I was going, so I just left. It was about eight o’clock when I got to her house. I hadn’t seen Ally all summer because I was in a funk and didn’t want anyone around me. Mom made me go on medication and it made me loose a lot of weight. I was told to quit taking the medication, but I wanted to loose some more because I wanted to be looked at like Ally instead of laughed at. Honestly, I was tired of being in my shell. I had to do something about it. I didn’t knock going inside Ally’s house I just welcomed myself as I always have. When I reached her room, she turned around in a black dress that was stunning. Her mouth dropped and her eyes went big. “Sabrina, what happened to you?” Ally asked. “What do you mean” as I started to panic thinking something was on my face. “You look hot, if only we could hmm. Let me think for a minute” she said as she rummaged through her closet and sat me down in front of her vanity. Ally handed me a dress that I definitely could not fit into. My eyes darted up to her “for one I can’t fit this, and for two why are you giving me a full makeover?” As she started plucking my eyebrows. “We’re going out tonight babe.” Ally said with a full smile on her face. I almost yelled no and was already thinking of an excuse before she said “Don’t even try to get out of this.” I began thinking to myself that maybe this was my way of coming out of my shell and getting the attention I was always so envious of. “I wasn’t going to, I was just going to say that this is not going to fit me.” She made me try it on and to my surprise it zipped all the way up leaving me some wiggle room. I stared at myself in the mirror trying to convince myself I was hot, while the short, light blue dress was beautiful, I still felt like the bigger best friend to the hottest girl in school. I walked out of the bathroom and again her mouth dropped and she squealed saying “We are going to have a blast at this party.” Sitting back down in from of the vanity, Ally continued to give me a makeover putting simple makeup on and curling my hair that draped down my back. Ally was already ready so she grabbed her bag with god know what’s in it and we headed out the door telling her parents bye. Her parents hugged me bye and told me they loved me. They are like a second set of parents to me. I only hope they stay married. If they don’t I think I would be just bones. I slowly started to gain confidence, until we pulled into someone’s house. It was huge and whoever it was had to be very wealthy. I turned to Ally as she was gathering her stuff in the car. I was very curious of what she had to being to a party but I didn’t ask. Instead I didn’t even move. I don’t even think I was breathing. “What is wrong with you?” Ally asked. A million questions coursed through my head, where are we, does she know whose house this is, do I look ugly in this stupid dress. I was interrupted by Ally pushing her elbow into me with questioning eyes. “I am just curious of whose house this is” I lied I had more questions. But this was number one. Ally had a worried look on her face and said “Don’t get mad at me” as she paused and my breathing became absent again. “ This is Scotts house” she blurted out. Ally just looked at me while I tried to gather myself. There was no gathering myself though. I could not walk into Scott’s house after the humiliation he caused me last year in school. Scott was also 18, he played football and already had scouts looking at him as a junior. He is very tall and muscular with hazel blue eyes and brown hair that he always gels to look spiked up in the front. Don’t even let me forget about his jawline. It is so s**y. I couldn’t go in though. The humiliation still hurts. I have had a crush on Scott since I can’t even remember. I somehow gained enough courage to ask him if he wanted to hang out last year during school. The look he gave me was enough to make me want to crawl into a hole and never come out. He said some pretty hurtful things about my weight and how I was a nobody and proceeded to tell all his buddies. I was just laughed at by them. Scott always had a thing for Ally, which I couldn’t blame him, but she never gave him the time of day. I thought to myself, Ally still looking at me to scared to say anything. “ Let’s go I said.” She was very surprised. Her eyes shot up with a huge smile. “Really, your okay with this” Ally asked in shock but with excitement in her tone. “This is my chance to come out of my shell, and actually enjoy school” I said. We began walking to the door and the music was blaring. I could see a ton of people through the windows. I began being nervous again until the door swung open and Scott yelled “Allyyyy” she gave him a side eye and walked passed him. Scott proceeded to say “Who is your friend Ally?”