DANGEROUS LOVE

My head is heavy, my eyes were swollen...well what I did I expect after all that crying last night was bound to happen. I pick up my little phone...somehow I still expect to have some kind of message or call something anything just a sign that he still thinks of me but there is nothing. "Queen" my mother calls out for me to come for breakfast. Quickly I take a glance at the mirror and fix my face, I don't want her to ask me questions I can't answer. I rush out to the kitchen where I find her drinking coffee. Coffee is our remedy here at home you feel down, anxious, or drained you drink coffee for an instant fix. I take my already filled cup and sit down next to her. Mom: so you ready for your first day at school? Me: I guess so... (not really looking forward to being stuck with a bunch of people I don't know for two years) Mom: I am heading off to work I might come back late...And your great grandma is coming back later on, I think she will be back by the time you come from school. Me: Ohh okay I will see you later then Mom: bye...Love you Me: Love you too She leaves and I finish my cup of coffee...After taking my school bag I go to my aunt's room and let her know that I am leaving. HILLCREST HIGH SCHOOL Great just great...the taxi drops me about 200m away from the school gate and there are so many new faces. I don't really like crowds. Can't say  I am socially anxious but I prefer quiet places. Before I begin to look like an i***t alone I spot my "friends"...I say that cause they are really my former classmates.  I  move towards them while hugging myself. It's really cold. Me: Hey guys Tony: you Queen what's popping girl? where have you been? Yolanda: Tony give the girl a breather man what's with the questions Me: no it's alright...Well, it's been a while and I've been home... Yolanda: typical Queen Tony: You lying...that boyfriend of yours has been keeping you busy right I look down trying to suppress the sudden wave of sadness that hits me Me: nope (I fake a smile) I haven't talked to him in a while actually Yola: why? trouble in paradise?  Tony looks at me and instantly notices the change in my mood. Tony: Anyway let's go, time for school We walk while Tony blabbers on about his last trip. I am not really paying attention...I am deep in my thoughts, I just hope this school will keep me busy so as I can forget Rick cause seems like he has moved on and forgotten me