DANGEROUS LOVE

MORE PLEAS, NO SYMPATHY

The next day I woke up with a terrible headache and as I stepped out of the shower I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror. I looked terrible but there was nothing I could do with puffy eyes. I guess I would have to blame the headache. I finished my morning routine and headed down to the kitchen to get breakfast. Usually, the radio would be on and my mom would be listening to the morning show but this morning it was just silent, you would swear no one was around. When I walk into the kitchen I find my mom and aunt seated in the dining area.

Me: Good morning( I smile)

My mom shoots a deadly glare at me and suddenly I remember, I was bust crying over a stupid boy that I forgot to warn my mother of Granny's return.

Me: I am sorry I dozed off before telling you about her arrival.

My mom: It's okay, what's done is done besides someone else didn't tell me anything. (She looks at my aunt Daisy with an unimpressed face)

Daisy: What ?! I was just as surprised as you were besides I thought Lily told you she was coming. I mean you and her talk almost every day, she must have said something

Mom: No she didn't say anything, anyway, it's fine what's done is done

Me: ok well I will just grab a pear and banana then go

Mom: you should eat breakfast besides you didn't tell me why your eyes are like that.

Me: mom I can't eat I am late and it's nothing I just have a headache. I have got to go by, I love you...and good luck

Mom: see you later

Daisy: bye 

ROSE

I don't know how I am going to handle mother. How am I going to explain why I moved back? For all, I know she could chase me back there. Oh well, I guess I will have to be brave and stand my ground I am not moving to that hell hole ever again. 

Beatrice( Granny): Rose! 

Me: I am coming, mother

Daisy: Good luck (she says with pity in her eyes)

Me: thanks

I make my way to the garden where I find her seated drinking her green tea while reading the newspaper. She folds and puts down the newspaper and removes her reading glasses and looks at me. I think I might get a panic attack from her stare.

Beatrice: Well are you going to sit down? I don't have all day you know

I pull the chair that's opposite to hers and sit down waiting for her to say something.

Beatrice: I leave town for three months, just three months and I come home to this. What is this? What are you doing here? And don't you dare say you were here for a sleepover. Explain right this instant!!

At this moment I feel like I am going to faint but I am just going to be brave and hope she just takes it all well and we can move past this issue.

Me: Mother, I have decided to move back home. I don't want to live with  Jeffrey anymore and I don't want my daughter to live there either. Jeffrey is an abusive man mother and you know it. (I break down  and cry) Every day that I spend in that house is full of pain.

Beatrice: Well whether you like it or not you are still married to the man and if my memory serves me properly you begged me and your uncle to let you marry a man old enough to be your father.

Me: mother I know what I said and did but that was back then and this is now. When we got married I didn't know he was a beast. Mother, I just want to stay here till I figure things out. ( at this point tears are just falling out non stop and my voice is cracking)

Beatrice: Rose you know the norms and values of this family. You know that we value marriage and tradition and what you are trying to do goes against everything we value. I have been married before I know marriage is hard but you have to fight for your marriage. 

Me: mother I have tried for five whole years, five years mother bearing the a***e, the taunts, and the cheating but I can't anymore I don't have that strength anymore. Just try to understand

Beatrice: Rose, you are going to go back to that yard and fix your marriage. So what if he beats you? Its punishment that means you do something to anger him and cheating? If you don't satisfy your husband he is going to look somewhere else. 

Rose: I have talked to uncle Maurice and I told him I want a divorce. He said it's alright if move back here. I don't want to go back. Don't make me go back, please

Beatrice: ohh I see so everyone knew about this and no one bothered to tell me. And what does your uncle know about marriage problems? I won't allow this. What is everyone going to say about our family? This is a disgrace.

She storms off to the house and I take a moment to take in what she said. How can she be this harsh? Why can't she understand? I wish my biological mother was still alive. I know she would have understood me. I wipe off my tears and go straight to my room to prepare for work.

QUEEN

Today has been slow the lessons were a bit interesting but they were mostly introductions to the subjects. However, that hasn't taken my mind off things. It hurts but not much as the day before. I have decided to ignore my friends today. Tony and I have been friends for three years now, he is technically my best friend so he will just read my face and force me to tell him what happened. I don't really what to retell the whole thing I just want to block  Tyler from my mind and hopefully forget everything about him very soon. Anyway, I wonder how everything went at home. I just hope Granny doesn't force us to move back there. I mean living in luxury is great but I don't like seeing my mom crying every day. I don't really trust Jeffrey. No one knows this but one night two years, when my mom was at work he tried to r**e me, and ever since then I have had to lock my bedroom door every night and keep a knife under my pillow for protection. I just want to stay at home where both my mom and I are safe.