Alpha's Queen

Alpha's Queen - Chapter Twenty Six

 i kept on crying hugging the big wolf while he kept whinning like he was crying for me.

After a long time crying and sobbing i noticed it was already completely dark outside and i had to leave and still had work to do before going to rest, so i got away from the wolf and he looked at me with sad eyes, and i said “hey, dont look at me like that, i know i must be a complete mess right now but you also got your fur all wet” i smile at him and pet his head as i get up “well then, time for me to go little wolf… let’s see, the best parto f my day was…today was different, i have two nice parts of my day and two worst parts, so…the best parto f my day was spending time with you and getting to know Viktor likes me back and the worst parts of my day is leaving you now and having decided i can’t be with who i like…”

After i got home i went to my room and took the small stuffed wolf and carried it with me to my room’s balcony, i sat on the floor with the wolf and my legs close to my chest and cried all night like i hadn’t done in a long time.

‘i have to get away from eveyrone’ i thought as i unlock my phone and go through the photos we had taken since we met, there were photos of me with Ashley, me with Viktor and photos of all of us together, as i was looking through them i received a message from Ashley “hey girl, how are you? Wanna hang out tomorrow and spend some girls time with me, just the two of us?”  i read that message a million times before i even thought of answering, my thoughts going wild ‘i don’t want to get away from them, but i have to! I need to! I will only hurt them later on and it will be worse if i do that! They don’t even know the real me! They don’t even know i am a killer! They dont know who i am! I have been lying to them!’ after a long time i decided to answer “sorry but have to work” in less than two minutes i had an answer but i didnt even read it.

I dont know how long has it been since i arrived home, didn’t really matter, i didn’t move, i saw the sun come up and i kept staring at the woods, the first ray of sunshine hitting and lighting up the trees and waking the nature up after a long night of sleep, i kept sitting on my balcony without even going inside to warm up or eat, i was tired, my eyes were red and puffy, i was shaking of cold and my stomach was growling without any intention of shutting up.

After some time, i heard a male voice call out to me “Susy?” i didn’t answer, after short seconds i heard it again “Susy, what the hell? You said you would sign those papers if i left them here! You did nothing! Susy?!” i kept staring at nothing and didn’t answer again, until John came to my room and saw the balcony door open, when he got close he saw me there, he started walking to me saying “what the hell, why didnt you do-” he came to me “what’s wrong? What happened? Are you okay? Why are you in that state?” i didn’t answe and he knew i wouldn’t so he just held my hand silently and said “let’s go, i will help you get ready, i will prepare your breakfast and after i am going to let you sleep it off” i held on to his hand and went with him to my bathroom, he got my bath water ready for me and said before he went out “i will be downstairs preparing you something to eat, call if you need anything” i heard the door close after a few seconds and got inside the bathtub, the water was exactly as i liked it, the right temperature and he had even put some oils in it to help me relax, which i totally would have but just not today, i cut my bath short and got dressed, after i looked at my phone that was at my desk now and went to it, turn it off and went downstairs ‘my social life is now over! It’s to protect them’ i kept saying in my head as i tried to convince myself i was doing the right thing.