Never an Ever After

The Decoy

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CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX

ELLORA

That night, Papa called me to tell me that he’s going home early, for me to have someone this night. After making him sure that I am fine, a sneeze came out from me that made Papa’s decision to go home early validated.

I don’t want to be a burden. To him and to anyone. I want everyone around me to treat me the same as they treat any other people. I don’t need special attention and treatment when all I wanted is to become more than normal, more than usual.

"Maybe we should go back to the hospital." Papa said while we were watching television in the living room and eating some popcorns. We used to do this with Papa, before. But when he started being Reverend all over Pennsylvania, our movie nights became infrequent. And it's okay, and at least Papa is having fun with his life and his life doesn't just revolve around me.

“Why?”

"I noticed that you're coughing, and from time to time you sneeze. Maybe your Pneumonia will trigger again, you've almost just recovered." Papa said worriedly.

“I’m okay, I just got a little wet from the rain when I came home from school. But I don't feel anything else. "

“Are you sure? The last thing I want is you being helpless.”

I nod “I’m sure, Papa. And believe me, the last thing I want is to knock on the Hawthorne’s door again.” Sticking to Ronan’s made-up story.

Papa chuckles "So, you can sing for Church this week?" Oh, I forgot about that feast this week.

“Should I? Can't someone else just sing for the church? "My voice isn't naturally good, but if you grow up in the church and in the choir, your voice will really be honed. Papa made sure I could sing when he needed me and the church. He is proud having me to sing for the thousands of people here in Pennsylvania. So, it’s been a tradition for me every year, when Saint Mary’s feast comes. I will sing. Whether I like it or not.

"It's okay, but I'll be happy if I see you on the center stage at the most important festival of our town this year." He said pouting.

I told you, I don’t have a choice or maybe I have. I just chose not to disappoint him anymore.

I sighed “Okay, I’ll sing, Papa.”

He smiled grew bigger and kissed the top of my head “That’s my little girl.” Only, I’m not little anymore.

RONAN

After my encounter with Ellora this afternoon in the woods, I am tireless. I am active and mad at the same time having to see her sitting on someone else’s car while her blouse and her skirt is wet. Okay, I admit it is my fault for leaving her in the middle of the rain. But I have no intention of leaving her totally on her own. After I dropped her off, I immediately waited for her at the end of the road, expecting that no other vehicle would pass through that area. Because I made sure that that path was close to the public, because it's Ellora's favorite path to walk or drive when going home.

So, who the hell is this man and he even dare to make Ellora sit on his f*****g car with him?

I don’t want to be cruel to Ellora, but these past few weeks since the school year started, she’s getting stubborn. Maybe a sign of being a rebel, or this is how he really is, it’s just that no one really dares to recognize her and see her the way I see her, I made sure of it. I also noticed in myself that little by little Ellora was reading my mind and my emotions. And I can't let that happen because she might hate me even more. Not that I cared what she thinks about me though.

She’s f*****g invades my mind and my emotion.

I won’t let her invades my secrets and my soul.

I already gave her enough of what I have left.

What’s left of me, is mine to keep.

I also don't know if I will be able to bear to watch her through her window and not even touch her. I know, I've done a lot of bad things with her. But for so many years I have been waiting for her, I am getting impatient and I no longer trust myself when she’s close and she’s around.

So, I decide to just go in the butler’s clubhouse near the river. And luckily his parents is out of town, so the house is for all of us to keep.

Bianca kept me company as she grinds herself on me.

And this is what I need.

A release. And she’s the willing target.

“Should we do this on one of the rooms here?” she asked playfully.

I bit her lip and I taste blood “I don’t care about some audience.”

“But I do care. “ she pouts.

I smirk “Didn’t peg you as a shy type.”

She slaps my chest playfully and once again I remember how Ellora did the same thing to me. but she and Ellora is two different persons. Ellora being the greatest and Bianca being the lowest.

I know I shouldn’t be saying or thinking about these things to someone. But Bianca Adams have a very shitty attitude. She has this tiny bubble on her head thinking that she's indestructible like I am. But the reality is, she's just a brat that her parents spoiled her into fancy things and money in order for them to keep the secret that she's the daughter of her father's mistress.

Yes, I told you. I keep tabs on every one around me. learning about their dirtiest and deepest secret in order for me to used it when needed.

“Go to James room, meet me there.”

Her smile grew bigger “Don’t keep me waiting for too long.” She run up the stairs.

I drank beer, because I was going to need the right amount of alcohol tonight. To keep my focus on the moment and think about her I am f*****g in James' bed.

James tapped my shoulder "I thought you didn't have a relationship with Bianca? Why have you two been together for a year now, Buddy." He chuckles as he hugs me, he's drunk.

"When have you been interested in my love life?" I snapped.

He whistles as he laughs “So, you admit that it’s f*****g love with Bianca?”

“A good f**k is far from love, Keep that in mind.” I was about to go upstairs when he talks again.

"I thought you are into Good girls. I didn't think you wanted to be with someone like Bianca. But it's fine, Man. You and Bianca are perfect together. Rich and Powerful. Stay on your lane."

I didn’t know what he meant from the said Good girl? Does he already know about what I feel towards Ellora?

This is another reason why I keep Bianca beside me at all cost.

She’s a decoy for my enemies. And for anyone who pretends to be my friend.

I don’t want them finding out about my possessiveness towards Ellora, and used her when they found out that she’s my only f*****g weakness.

That night, I f****d Bianca’s brains out. All my lust and frustration is mixed and pour it all on her and she gladly took it.

Oblivious on what she really f*****g is to me. But just a decoy and a f**k buddy.