Never an Ever After

Sleep

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BACK AT ONE-BRIAN MCKNIGHT

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

RONAN

I have searched for her in the school.

She’s nowhere to be found. I don’t know what’s gotten into me when I forced to kiss her. But the way she said no and the way her looks says how disgust she is at the idea makes me want to savage her.

Maybe it’s the alcohol and the madness I felt just by near her.

At that moment, I know I can’t take any longer. I can’t take another day not claiming her.

But the way her tears roll down her cheeks, makes me want to taste that sweet oblivion of hers. The way her body shakes and trembled at my hold, the way her body is perfectly fit in my hands. Is f*****g the end of me. Her soft lips that I feel like I have kissed an angel or a goddess. So close to heaven.

But I made her more scared of me, but it’s fine. She will know it eventually.

You see, I will do whatever it takes just to claim her whether she likes it or not.

She couldn't do anything even if she thought James Butler was for her or any other man.

I know, the moment I saw her dancing at her room eight years ago. She's made meant to be f*****g mine. That’s why I don’t feel any remorse of what I did to her last night, in fact it made me want her and need her even more. How can you expect me to kiss anyone now when I felt the best lips of all last night? I don’t feel guilty at all even if I know she cried herself to sleep last night, because she’s mine after all. She just doesn’t know it, or maybe she does and she’s just too stubborn to admit. The way she looks at me as I was kissing Bianca, the way her throat bobs when I held Bianca in front of her last night. Her eyes are holding fire and hell the same as mine.

When I asked Demi where Ellora was, she immediately told me that she was sick so she couldn't go to school. I didn't wait for the end of class time and I immediately went with her. There’s no one with her, same as usual. And I saw my beautiful Ellora sleeping peacefully in her fluffy white bed in the darkness of her room. The only light that illuminates her very sexy fragile figure is the light outside coming from her window. There’s thunder outside but my Ellora is unbothered, so I just let her rest and sleep. I sat on her couch for seven long hours when she decides to wake up. When she sat down on her bed, I see her body that’s evident in her white thin night gown and my c**k is painfully hard once again, and I wanted to kiss her right away. But not now, she’s sick. When she finally noticed me, her body urn rigid and I notice the way she holds her nightgown tightly. She’s afraid of me still. I can’t blame her though.

But when I touched her and felt how burning hot she is, I forgot everything in the background and all I see how pale she is and how dry her lips are.

This is the first time I felt nervous.

Not for me, but for her.

You see, this is the reason why I love her in the first place.

She’s the only one who can give me emotions that I thought were long gone.

Everything else fades, my focus is set for me to save her and make her feel better.

My heart almost explodes and plummets when I lay her softly in the emergency room bed as I am screaming to everyone to f*****g help her. She reaches for me, she held her hands for me trying to reach me, at first, I thought I was just imagining things. But when her hands is on mine holding me tightly like I am her lifeline, I know I love this girl with all my heart and I will give and sacrifice everything for her safety and protection. I want to love her and protect her even more.

The doctor says she had a pneumonia and had to spend the night in the hospital for monitoring. I texted the reverend to tell him that his daughter is at the hospital.

Sometime that night, he came running. And saw me instantly.

“Ronan.” He says.

I stood up and greets him.

“What happened to her?”

"She rings our doorbell. Finding help. Mom and Dad are not at home so I just brought her here to the hospital. She has Pneumonia. And she has to stay the night for monitoring." I explained as he looks at her sleeping daughter.

The reverend tapped my shoulder, I know he’s grateful “Thank you so much.”

I just nods. “I’m going home.” I told him, I don’t want him to be suspicious about me, and make Ellora stay away from me again.

He nods “Thank you again.”

I looked at her one last time before I left.

When I came home, I feel tired, sleepy and exhausted. I called out Anita to help me set the oxygen apparatus for me to sleep.

She smiled at me “It’s been a while since you use this.”

“Yeah, sleep creeps me in tonight.”

She placed the oxygen mask on my face and slowly sleep drift in me.

I can fight sleep, because in this way I feel weak and vulnerable and there’s something wrong with me as a person. But tonight, I let myself sleep along with my Ellora who is in the hospital and in pain.