Never an Ever After

The first kiss

SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER:

UNCHAINED MELODY-THE RIGHTEOUS BROTHERS

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

RONAN

Brad’s party is packed.

This is what I want, this is what makes me occupied every time I can’t sleep at night.

Saint Mary’s. Party. And Ellora.

It is not the apparatus in my room that makes me live these days, it’s basically the three things I have said.

I know I have a lot of alcohol in my system right now as I am kissing Bianca, thinking that she is her.

The smell mingled inside Brad's mansion. Sweat and Alcohol. And others are substances that no one should know yet. Everyone is high in euphoria during the party, soon it will be a big orgy party that is Brad's house again. Here's what I liked about the parties Brad organized, he's famous here in Nashville for the epic orgy parties he prepares. I love to see everyone having s*x. If Bianca wasn’t with me, I am sure to find some dark hair girl again at the party.

But if I include Ellora here, Nope. Not happening. I will take her here and I am sure every man inside this mansion has no one else to look at but Ellora. And I can't afford to have another man touch or see the body of what is mine. Not in a million lifetimes. She's made for me, and no one else.

And her body is a secret that I am the only one should keep.

Kissing Bianca is made easier when you are drunk as f**k.

But if I don't drink, it's very hard to make out with her, especially if she can't stop her mouth from talking. She is not like Camilla. That I can do everything I want, because Camilla knows about Ellora. But I can't say that to Bianca because I know she won't stop tormenting Ellora from school again, I know that when the picture of Ellora spread at Saint Mary's, she was the one who ordered Ellora to be bullied. Although she was not the one who spread Ellora's pictures, she was the one who made Ellora's existence at NU difficult and complicated.

Bianca Adams’ family is powerful in Pennsylvania too. She’s the only daughter of the mayor of Nashville. That is why everyone around us making us to be the golden couple of Nashville.

If she’s not dark haired and pale white skin like Ellora, I wouldn’t even bat my eyes on her direction. I guess, I’m just lucky to have someone look like her, but so far away when up close. Just needed her body to released everything.

Unchained melody from the righteous brothers played on the background, as I backed Bianca on the wall, kissing her hungrily.

Cloud tapped my shoulder and whispered “She’s here.”

I don’t even have to ask who he’s referring to, my head snaps in her direction instantly. Sometimes I also surprise at myself, I am able to find her anywhere else she is.

She’s wearing a yellow above knee halter dress with some on it, a yellow heel that made her legs slenderer and paler. Her hair is down just like always, and she have this innocent and curious look on her f*****g beautiful face, that makes her sexier. The way she dressed is so out of the place, while everyone is wearing dark clothes just like our soul, she remains on her yellow dress that fits her so f*****g perfect.

For a moment, I froze along with my hard d**k aching for her touch.

“Babe?” Bianca grabbed my attention by pulling me on my neck but my focus is set on her, only to her. Bianca’s still oblivious of Ellora’s presence at the party, that is when I see some guys starting to turn their attention to Ellora too.

Fuck.

What the f**k is she doing here?

I tightened my grip on Bianca’s waist “Ouch, what is with you?” she gazed on what I set my eyes too and I can feel she’s fuming. “What is she doing here dressing like that?”

I didn’t answer her as I looked around, I noticed many eyes are now scanning Ellora, checking her out. Fury and rage builds inside me and I don’t know if Bianca noticed that too. “What’s your deal with her? You like her or something?” she snapped and I looked at her.

“None of your business.”

As soon as those words came out, Ellora finds my gaze at her and she flinched. I smirked as she set her eyes on mine and my hands-on Bianca’s waist, is she jealous? I kissed Bianca while looking at her, I savaged Bianca while looking at her and I see that she swallowed hard as she didn’t leave her eyes on us. I smirk in between kisses, as she held her chest and breathes heavily. I saw Demi whispered something in her that rip her attention from us and she nods, she walks away with Demi. I have to watched her, before anyone dared approach her.

She’s not that very hard to find, especially if she’s wearing a bright dress in the place full of darkness.

ELLORA

I feel so out of place at the party.

All of them as a circle of their own, I only have Demi. But I need this, maybe some alcohol too. I needed to breath once in a while. I have never been to any party before, this is the first I participate at some. But Demi and I usually drinks from time to time in their house pool whenever I am having a night out in theirs. I know, I can handle alcohol perfectly fine.

As soon as I entered, I immediately smelled different kinds of odors. Just like I smelled at Saint Mary’s. Sweat, Booze, Cigarettes and many things, but something is missing. The smell of blood that there is in Saint Mary's that is not here. Yes, this is what I need. A normal party for a normal night.

I immediately rolled my eyes, finding someone I want to see; James. But I saw something else. Ronan with his large hands on Bianca Adams waist, eating her whole face in the middle of the party. Then I noticed how his gazed in me. I didn’t see him at school today, but he’s here busy making out in a party. He's looking at me with eyes heat on his eyes. Is he back being mad at me? He smirks darkly and continued to kiss Bianca Adams.

I froze as I watched him making out while looking straight at me, and I don’t know why. This is the first time I’ve seen him with some girl with him, I know that he and Bianca is dating, but I don’t see them much playing PDA out in the open. The way his hands caressed Bianca Adams’ waist and back, it’s something I didn’t know. Suddenly, it felt hot and I have to swallowed hard, and a sudden pushed inside my chest. Maybe it’s because of the amount of people inside that the air is limited.

Demi nudged me “Want to go in the back?”

I nod and smiled “Yeah.” I looked at them one last time before I head out with Bianca.

When we got outside there were still people but fewer than inside there were so many people really, we stood at the make-up bar by Brad's pool and Demi and I started drinking. Soon after, Demi's other block mates went to school to accompany the two of us, and they were good to me. I was no longer aware of the time as well as the amount I was drinking, but I was confident in what I was drinking because Demi herself was giving it to me. Lucky to have a best friend like her who is willing to babysit me in the middle of the party. Sooner or later, I feel like everything is becoming light, I am becoming numb. And I am actually having a very good time.

Some random guy stride towards Demi and whispered something to her. And she looks excited and elated when she looks at me. “Dance with us?”

I shake my head “No, you go ahead. I’ll be here.”

She kissed my cheeks before she disappeared along with the dancing crowds. All I can hear is the music blaring and I know I am smiling.

I looked around to see James, and I wished I didn’t.

He’s busy kissing and groping Hannah Williams in the lounge. Not even looking at me. a sudden pain hits me, I turn around and I am stunned because Ronan is in my face, so close that our lips are almost touching. I froze, because one more wrong move, I could kiss the Devil in front of me. I can feel his hot breath on my face. And I looked at his mouth, his already smirking. It's hot once again. And I moved my face away from him and looked anywhere but him, I sip my alcohol and Ronan grabbed it instantly and bring it to his nose "Who give this to you?" He growls.

“Demi.”

He gave me back my cup and I sip; my chest is hammering so loud. I don’t know just by his presence I am in nervous mode.

I am sitting on a lounge chair in the made-up bar, Ronan sat down beside me and moved my chair closer to him. I can feel his legs so close to mine. I squeak.

“What are you doing in this party, Snow white?”

“Partying.” I smiled playfully, blame this confidence in the alcohol.

He smirks, and pushed aside the strand of hair on my face and I flinched “Still scared.”

“I’m not.” I hold his gaze.

“Does the reverend know you are here?” he crossed his hands on his chest.

I shake my head “Nope. He doesn’t need to.”

“What if I pay him a visit and tell him that his little angel of a daughter is in the party where orgies happened.” He smirks.

I swallowed, did I hear that right?

“Orgies?”

He nods “Yep. Don’t tell me Demi didn’t tell you that. Or she doesn’t know either.”

I know Demi doesn’t know about the orgy too.

“Please don’t tell Papa.” I almost want to hide my face in embarrassment.

“My silence has a price, Snow white.”

“Tell me what you want.” I said desperately.

“Kiss me.”

“What?!” I don’t think I heard him right, is he that drunk for him to ask me to kiss him when he can kiss everyone in here but me.

“You heard me.” he just looked at, he looks like a lion ready to pounce.

What’s with him tonight?

I chuckle awkwardly “Stop playing with me, Ronan. Just tell Papa I come here.”

I got up to go to the restroom and left Ronan and his games all to himself. When I got close to the restroom and thank god, no one was there. Someone suddenly pulled me into the restroom and backed me up the wall it hits so hard. I filched. A hand suddenly wrapped around my neck, it’s Ronan.

“What are you doing?”

He tilts his head and smirking at me. the restroom is dark and we are the only one inside. I heard the door clicks.

“Ronan, what are you doing?” my chest beat so loud, now I am afraid. I am scared to leave alone with him.

“Is kissing me that bad?” his voice hoarse. "that you would rather have your father punish you than kiss me."

I swallowed hard “You’re drunk, Ronan.” I tried to push him but he pressed me on the wall even more. “Arghh.”

“Kiss me.” he ordered.

I shake my head and closed my eyes “Pl—please, Ronan.”

And suddenly in just one snap, his lips are on mine. Kissing me hard, kissing me hungrily, kissing me like he never been kissed before. I tried to pushed him out of the way but he bit my lips, I am sure it bleeds because I taste it.

His hands are on mine, circling around my body not letting me go out of his grip.

I couldn’t do anything, he’s much bigger and stronger than me so I just cried, I whimpered in between his sloppy kisses. His kiss moves down on my neck as his hands caressed my boobs painfully, I sob. I can’t even look at him anymore. I don’t know how long he kissed and touched me. The moment he stopped, he cupped my face, looking at me but I couldn't look at him. All I gave him is my sobs, my whimper and my tears.

“Look at me.”

I shake my head sobbing quietly and bow my head in defeat. He didn’t push or move any longer, but the way he ravaged me makes me feel that I am a dirty and worthless woman.

He holds my face with his both hands and licked my tears on my cheeks “Sweet.” That’s all he said when he gave me space and threw the car key at me. "Go home, right now."

Then I heard the door closed.

I left myself alone in a while inside the darkness of the room, I cried as much as I can and pour it all out. I don't know if what he did to me was just drunkenness, but that's not a reason for him to do that to me.

He just saved me the other day, not knowing he’s going to be the one I should run away from.

He just took the first kiss that he didn't deserve, he took something that didn't belong to him in the first place.