Chapter 1
I am currently living in my father’s house, but it has never felt like mine.
After my parents died, my aunty and uncle moved in, saying it was temporary, saying it was for family, saying things that sounded kind at first. But time passed, and the house stopped feeling like a place I could breathe in. It became a place where I had to be careful. Careful how I spoke. Careful how I moved. Careful not to remind anyone that this house once belonged to my father.
The only person in that house who still made sense to me was my uncle.
He was the only one who spoke to me without irritation in his voice. The only one who asked about my work or my day without turning it into an interrogation. Sometimes, when he sat in the living room late at night with his laptop and his half-empty cup of coffee, I felt almost normal. Like I still belonged somewhere.
But my uncle was hardly ever home.
He traveled a lot—business trips, meetings, deals that took him far away for weeks at a time. Every time his suitcase appeared by the door, my chest tightened. Because once he left, the balance in the house shifted.
And it always shifted against me.
My aunty had a way of making me feel like a guest in my own home. She never said it outright, but it was in the way she spoke. The way she reminded me of expenses. The way she acted like the roof over my head was a favor she could take back at any moment.
My cousins, Daphne and Maya, made it worse.
They were younger than me—three years younger—but somehow they always had more power in that house than I did. They treated me like an intruder, like someone who overstayed her welcome. Every mistake became my fault. Every problem somehow led back to me.
If something went missing, it was Tracy.
If something broke, it was Tracy.
If my aunty was in a bad mood, it was because of Tracy.
I learned early not to defend myself. Defending myself only made things louder. Quieter was safer. Quieter kept the peace, even if it cost me pieces of myself.
College had been my escape.
When my parents died, college was the only thing that stopped me from drowning in questions. Questions no one wanted to answer. Questions that followed me into my sleep and woke up with me in the morning. I threw myself into my studies because it was the only thing I could control.
Now college was over.
And I knew one thing for sure—I could not stay in that house doing nothing.
I refused to wake up every morning just to be used, blamed, and reminded that I was an inconvenience. I refused to sit around while my cousins acted like the house belonged to them and my aunty treated me like I owed her my life.
So I got a job.
I worked at a magazine company. It wasn’t glamorous. It wasn’t easy. Some days I felt invisible there too, but at least my effort meant something. At least when I stayed late, it counted. When I worked hard, I got results.
I made sure I worked my ass off every single day.
I volunteered for extra work. I stayed behind when others left. I learned fast, listened carefully, and never complained. Not because I loved the job—but because the job was my way out.
I needed a promotion.
Not for pride. Not for validation. I needed money. Enough money to leave that house. Enough money to start a life that belonged to me alone.
Every paycheck felt like a step closer to freedom.
Still, no matter how busy I kept myself, there were things in my life that refused to stay quiet.
Like Steve.
My boyfriend.
If someone asked me what bothered me most about Steve, I wouldn’t know where to start. He was kind, yes. Generous, definitely. But he was never there.
He never had time for me.
There was always work. Always something urgent. Always an excuse that sounded reasonable enough to shut me up. And when I finally complained—when I let the frustration slip—he made it up to me the same way every time.
Gifts.
Expensive ones.
Dinners at fancy restaurants that he’d later miss. Apologies delivered with flowers and promises that never quite came true. He avoided serious conversations like they were traps. And whenever the topic shifted to his family, he shut down completely.
He never talked about his parents.
Not casually. Not seriously. Not at all.
At first, I didn’t push. Everyone had things they didn’t like to talk about. But as time went on, it started to bother me. The silence felt deliberate. Like he was hiding something, or protecting something, or maybe protecting me from something.
I didn’t know.
What I did know was that I needed reassurance.
I needed to know I wasn’t building my life around another mystery.
So one evening, after another missed dinner and another apology, I finally pressured him. I told him I wanted to meet his parents. I told him I needed to know who I was really with. That I needed to be sure I was on the right path with him.
He didn’t answer immediately.
He just looked at me for a long moment, his face unreadable.
And for the first time since I’d known him, I felt something shift. Something cold and unfamiliar.
I didn’t know then that this small request—this simple need—was about to pull me deeper into a past I barely remembered. A past tied to a night I couldn’t recall clearly. A man I once saved. And a ring that should never have left my possession.
But standing there, waiting for Steve’s answer, all I knew was this—
Nothing in my life was as simple as it
seemed.
And nothing ever stayed buried forever.