Chapter 37
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Not your ordinary Man x Man story.
Sizzling hot! Controversial! Tear jecker! Love-Filled!
ALL Emotions in One Gay Love Story
Chapter 37: Riptide: Start of Something New
"Yes. Everything." Tugon ni Andrei kay Stefan. "You made me realize who I am. You made me accept who I am. I'll allways be thankful for that. Iba yung Stefan effect eh."
He giggled when he heard the "Stefan Effect". "Magkwento ka na. Handa na akong makinig. Habang nagla- lunchdate tayo rito sa may kweba."
Paghinto ng yata sa bungad ng kweba, they saw the majestic view of Aklan and Romblon's sea. It was very romantic.
"Wait lang pala bago ka magsimulang magkwento at bago tayo kumain pwedeng pagmasdan muna natin ang view. Ang ganda kasi talaga. Napakapayapa." Stefan said while looking at the blue sea.
"Mas payapa ang puso ko kapag ikaw ang view. Such a beautiful view." Andrei said while looking at him. Yung tingin na halos tunawin na siya. Kaya naman ang kilig niya mas malalim pa sa dagat.
"Kain na tayo." Saka siya nagsimulang sumubo ng mga pagkaing nakahapag.
Dagli nitong hinawakan ang kanyang mga labi. "Dahan- dahan sa pagsubo. May dumi ka na oh."
Yung kilig na naman ni Stefan hindi lang mas malalim sa dagat. May tsunami na. Para siyang nanaginip. Parang eksena sa KDrama, sa romantic comedy na pelikula o kaya sa BL series.
"Totoo ba 'to Andrei? Why are you doing this? Gagamitin mo na ba ako para gawing reason sa paghihiwalay ninyo ng asawa mo?" he curiously asked him. Not to insult or anything. he's just really curious. Unti- unti na kasing bumabalik ang lahat sa kanya. Feelings. Emotions. Memories. Ayaw naman niyang siya na naman ang may makaramdam, umasa pero sa huli ay hopia at nganga.
"Okay. I'll tell you na everything." He took a deep breath while he was looking straight to his eyes. "I was actually falling in love with na before. Sobrang close na natin. Sobra na yung friendship natin. I was so happy back then. Pero may sakit ako Stefan. I have unusual tendecies or fantasies towards men. Effect siya ng paggawa ng malaswa sa harap ko ng uncle ko noong bata palang ako. Since childhood pinigilan ko yun Stefan. Sinabi ko sa sarili ko that I'm not gay. I never had s*x with men. Though I fantasized men. Kaya nga when I'm having s*x with women. With Donna. Sobrang wild ko. Sobrang kakaiba ng mga trip ko." The he stopped. He seems to be emotional. Nagngingilid ang luha sa mga mata nito.
"Sorry to hear that Andrei. Hindi ko alam." Bigla niyang hinawakan ang mga kamay nito.
"No. No. No. You don't need to say sorry. Wala kang kasalanan. Ikaw nga yung tumulong sa akin eh. Noong gabing may nangyari sa atin. Alam kong may kakaiba na akong nararamdaman sayo noon. Pero pinush ko na may mangyari sa atin dahil baka part lang ng s****l fantasies ko lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Baka it's all in my head. Pero hindi eh. Dumaan yung mga araw walang nagbago sa nararamdaman ko. Slowly, I confirmed na may feelings nga ako para sayo. Pero nandun pa rin yung side ni Andrei na nagsasabing lalaki ako. Straight ako. That's the reason kung bakit ako umiwas sayo. That's the reason kung bakit hindi na ako nagparamdam. And I'm really sorry for that." Ito naman ang humawak sa kanyang mga kamay. Madiin. Sinsero. "I'm sorry kung naging duwag ako. I'm sorry kung pinaasa kita. I'm sorry kung sinaktan kita. It was all my issues Stefan." Until tears fell from his eyes.
"Tama na Andrei." Napaluha na rin tuloy siya. "Now I know. Now I understand you. Ito lang naman yung hinihintay ko eh. Yung makapagpaliwanag ka. Yung masabi mo yung nais mong sabihin. Kahit hindi mo naman ako mahalin. Pero mas nasaktan ako doon sa feeling na mawawala yung friendship natin. But now that I know everything, pinapatawad na kita."
Dagli itong yumakap sa kanya. Halos mabunggo na nito ang mga pagkain sa kanilang pagitan. "Thank you Stefan. Hindi na mawawala yung friendship natin. Magle- level up pa. Kasi mahal kita more than just a friend. Boyfriend na kita. Boyfriend mo na ako."
Kahit na pang signal number five na ang kilig ni Stefan ay umalis pa rin siya sa pagkakayapos nito. "Teka lang huh? Boyfriend agad? Nagkapatawaran at nakapagpaliwanagan lang mag- boyfriend na agad?" Syempre kailangan muna niyang magpabebe.
"Bakit? Ayaw mo ba?" Tanong nito. "Hindi mo ba ako gusto?"
"Hindi naman sa ganon. Pero wala man lang bang ligawan na magaganap? Isa pa may asawa ka pa at magkakaanak na kayo hindi ba? Paano na yung daddy mo? Yung family mo? Marami pa tayong dapat i- consider. Marami pa tayong dapat ayusin."
"Yung kay Rhian for sure maayos namin agad yun. Mauunawaan niya ang lahat. Napakabait niya. Hindi naman talaga namin mahal ang isa't- isa eh. Napilitan lang kami. Yung anak namin part of the plan yun di ba? Si mom at ang kapatid ko for sure mauunawaan nila ako. Sana. Si dad? Matagal na naming problema ang isa't - isa. May bago pa ba? Wag mo na sana silang isipin." He paused. "Pero kung gusto mong ligawan na muna kita ayun sige payag ako doon."
Pinagmasdan niya lang ito. Napangiti siya.
"Bakit hindi ka sumagot?" Tanong nito.
"Ang tapang mo kaya Andrei. You are the strongest person I know. Sinuway mo ang dad mo for your dreams. Tapos ngayon handa mong ipaglaban yung nararamdaman mo para sa akin. Natagalan man bago mo yun na- realize which is now very clear to me. Ang mahalaga dumating tayo sa point na ito. Dumating ka sa point na ito na you are very much ready. Kaya tinatanggap ko na ang panliligaw mo."
Niyakap na naman siya nito ng ubod ng higpit. "Yes! Thank you Stefan! You'll never regret this."
"Just one favor Andrei." Bulong niya rito.
"Yes sure. Ano yun?"
"No more secrets. Magkasama nating haharapin lahat. Tayo yung magiging lakas ng isa't- isa." Tugon niya.
"Parang boyfriend level na yun ah. Sinasagot mo na ba ako agad?"
Saka niya ito tinulak. "Wow ah!"
"Hahaha! Joke lang naman." Saka ito muling nagseryoso. "No more secrets."
Saka sila bumalik sa pagkain at hindi na natapos ang kanilang kwentuhan.
"Let's go to our next island destination. May surpresa akong pinahanda para sayo." Anyaya nito.
"Yung totoo prepared?"
"Kinausap ko kasi si kapitan kanina. Sakto may alam siyang mga paandar dito. Kumpare niya nga ang kapitan nitong yate natin eh." Saka ito dumungaw sa baba. "Kap! Let's go!"
Nagsimula na ngang umandar ang yate. At may patugtog na naman. Then they danced embracing each other like two lovers in love at the top of the yacht.
I was scared of dentists and the dark
I was scared of pretty girls and starting conversations
Oh, all my friends are turning green
You're the magician's assistant in their dream
Ah-ooh-ooh-ooh, ah-ahh-ah-ah
And they come unstuck
Lady, running down to the riptide
Taken away to the dark side
I wanna be your left hand man
I love you when you're singing that song
And I got a lump in my throat
'Cause you're gonna sing the words wrong
There's this movie that I think you'll like
This guy decides to quit his job and heads to New York City
This cowboy's running from himself
And she's been living on the highest shelf
Ah-ooh-ooh-ooh, ah-ahh-oh
And they come unstuck
Lady, running down to the riptide
Taken away to the dark side
I wanna be your left hand man
I love you when you're singing that song
And I got a lump in my throat
'Cause you're gonna sing the words wrong
I just wanna, I just wanna know
If you're gonna, if you're gonna stay
I just gotta, I just gotta know
I can't have it, I can't have it any other way
I swear she's destined for the screen
Closest thing to Michelle Pfeiffer that you've ever seen, oh
Lady, running down to the riptide
Taken away to the dark side
I wanna be your left hand man
I love you when you're singing that song
And I got a lump in my throat
'Cause you're gonna sing the words wrong
Oh lady, running down to the riptide
Taken away to the dark side
I wanna be your left hand man
I love you when you're singing that song
And I got a lump in my throat
'Cause you're gonna sing the words wrong
Oh lady, running down to the riptide
Taken away to the dark side
I wanna be your left hand man
I love you when you're singing that song
And I got a lump in my throat
'Cause you're gonna sing the words wrong
Yeah, I got a lump in my throat
'Cause you're gonna sing the words wrong
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