Dreaming Of You! [MJ]

Chapter 1~Pity Party! "How did it make you feel when you found someone you trusted was stealing from you? And how did you find out they were stealing from you?" asks Selena by her shrink Dr. Swank. She pushes her dark rimmed glasses back up upon the top of her very narrow nose. Her messy brown hair hung around her tubby face as she listened to Selena. "My dad came to me. He noticed we were getting letters and angered calls from fans who had gotten nothing back from my fan club when they joined. You see when they joined, they too are supposed to get something back. Like an autograph or a photo depending on the amount they give to us to help us travel out" Selena explains to her. "we noticed some of the money was missing with no explanations to how it happened. Yolanda kept promising me that she was going to tell me where the money went off to" ♥☆♥ It was so hard learning to trust in someone again once they broke that trust. Once someone you loved with all your heart does you wrong like what happened to me it, damages your very soul. And you can't go back to the person you used to be. Selena had been having nightmares for weeks since she was released from the hospital. Selena had no rest. Suzette her sister and her boyfriend Chris insisted that a shrink would help her. That Selena could trust again and talk to a stranger about what happened. So here she was. And it has not helped yet. Selena was trying to heal. Selena is trying. "Selena what happened next?" she pries as she jots notes down in her notebook. Selena frees a sliver hoop earring from being tangled in her black hair. Selena places a hand on her knee feeling a mix of jumbled nerves. And was not really eager to get into why someone whom she loved had stabbed her in the back. But here we go. Time to dig that knife out of her back. "I told dad that I would confront Yolanda about the missing funds myself. Because every time he went to talk to her, they fought all the time. My dad did not like Yolanda. He warned me not to trust her. But I did. I trusted the wrong people. I just want to believe the best in people. It is my fault" Selena laughs bitterly as she remembers it all. Like it was yesterday! "Selena one thing you have to take into consideration is this, it is never the victims fault. It is their fault for what they chose to do. You never made Yolanda steal that money. You never made Yolanda shoot you and leave you there to die. She chose to do that" warns her shrink. "She messed with my head, I try to get her out of there. And trust others again. But I do not know how" Selena stammers. She was lost. She glances at the clock that rested hanging on the mustard yellow wall there. Tick tock. Tick tock.... Her hour was nearly up. ♥☆♥ "Selena repeat after me, I am not the victim they are. They chose to do me wrong" she demands. "I am not the victim. They are" Selena sighs as she glance at the clock. "You are doing great. Do you feel these sessions are helping you?" she wonders. "do you want to keep doing them?" she asks me. She nods as she glances back at her. "I think they do" she says. "I need to keep trying" "That is wonderful I am glad. I will give you the new script here you go. Make sure to take one at night as you have been for sleep. And to take them with a cracker or a snack. Or it will make you queasy if you don't" she rambles on as she writes more drugs for her to help her sleep. Though even drugs could not help her sleep. After Selena woke in the hospital bed from nearly dying it really woke me up. Selena woke to family standing around my bedside. Looking at her woefully with happy tears in their eyes. Waking up to a new part in my life. And she felt she could never get back to her old life. Never again. The timer beeps. Her time was up. "Same time? Same place?" jokes the shrink. Selena nods. "Sure" Selena agrees. She makes me an apt then gives me a card. Selena heads out of her office. Then Chris was sitting there in the waiting room waiting for me. He smiles then gets up out of his chair. He comes to her and plants a kiss on my cheek. ♥☆♥ "How did things go?" he asks her. "They gave me more drugs yay" Selena chuckles. "Do they help you sleep or are you just taking tick tacks?" he laughs. He shakes his head. "They help me sleep for about an hour" Selena sighs. "at least some" "You need more rest than an hour. You are trying to make a comeback tour happen plus you are making new music and your store" he argues. "you need rest" "I know this, Chris. I will. Sometime" Selena says. Selena hated to talk about sleep. Sleep was just not happening for her right now. She kept having nightmares about when Yolanda shot her. The nightmares were not letting her rest. "Come on let's get you home. How about a pizza on the way home?" he offers. "I brought my hot sauce" he tells me with a wink. "You charmer. Alright" Selena laughs. He always knew how to make her smile. He leads me out of there. And opens the car door once they get to his maroon mustang. She hops in. Selena sighs as she leans on the door. She rolls down the window. The day was bright and sunny there in Texas. Selena leans back in my seat and get my seatbelt on me. They pull out of there. They head to our favorite pizza place there in town. Selena knew Chris meant well and worried about her. He had every reason to worry about her. Suzette and AB, her brother they all worried and wanted her kept safe was all. Dad was really getting to be a bother. Calling her all the time. Checking in on her. Then Selena was dealing with Yolanda's trial that was going to be coming up really soon to. Selena was not looking forward to that. Selena had a good lawyer. Everyone was sure she was going to go to jail. But what if she did not? What if she came to my door? What if she tried to shoot her again? What if this time she did manage to kill her?! Chris places his hand into Selena's. He makes her forget her issues with a squeeze of his hand. She smiles up at him. They had been through so much together. They were planning on getting married before Yolanda shot me. Then Selena had to get better and get out of that hospital. So, the wedding planning was on hold for now. They had been happily living together for a few years now. Selena's dad hated it when Selena got together with Chris. But later he knew Selena was in love. And Chris loved her. He accepted it. And let her be with him. Chris and Selena nearly eloped to get married because her father was not okay at first with her dating my band member. He forgot what it was like to be young and in love. Now here they were today. Happy and in love. "Pizza time!" Chris jokes with a grin. Selena nods then smile back at him. They soon get to the little pizza place in town where they once had our first date. Chris orders two large pizzas for us. With fries on the side. Then they get their food and sit in a booth. Selena went back and got us two diet cokes. "Thank you" Selena says as she go to dig into her pepperoni pizza. "Here you forgot this" he warns her. He whips out his hot sauce. She see's those dimples in his cheeks. He smiles at her then sprinkles the hot sauce over our pizzas. "Now that is a pizza" he tells me. We dig in. Selena is now giggling. Selena was having a good time with Chris. She always did. They talk and polish off the pizza. Chatting about happy things in life. Then suddenly she notices it. A bruise on her arm. From when she was dragging, her limping body to the desk at the motel. Getting to the front desk because my best friend left her to die there in her own pool of blood. Selena feels tears flood my sight in her eyes. ♥☆♥ "I need help" Selena tried to speak once Selena nearly crawl to the front desk, "Excuse me? Is someone there?" the lady at the desk answers. "Help me" Selena whimpers as the pain shoots in her body. Blood was everywhere. "Oh my god, what happened to you?" she exclaims in alarm once she spots me down on the floor. She rushes to her side. At last. Help. "You have been shot!" she yelps. "I know the woman is still here that shot me" Selena tells her. Selena gasp as she feels her body losing air. "Yolanda Salvador shot me" Selena warns her. "she is armed and dangerous." Then it was all getting fuzzy. "Stay with me. I am getting help" says the woman. She rushes to the desk. "911? I have a woman who has been shot. She needs medical help right away her name is Selena, I know her from anywhere. Yes, the singer Selena." ♥☆♥ "Selena? Selena?" Selena blink and look at Chris. "Hey, you were a million miles away. Where were you just now?" he asks me. "you blanked out" he explains to me. "Sorry lost in thought" Selena lies as Selena forces a smile. "can we stop and walk somewhere. I need to clear my head" she tells him. "Sure, we can head to the board walk" he offers. "Great" Selena says. "Are you sure you are okay?" he worries as he places a hand on top of hers to comfort Selena. She nods. "Sure, will be" Selena lies. Selena hoped one day she would be okay. Right now, she sure was anything but okay. She was not sure if she ever could be again. But she was willing to try. •~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~~•~•~•