Fixing the broken bad boy

Chapter fifteen - Movies and feelings

Alexia's POV:

I don't know what to do with him anymore. Xavi can't keep getting drunk, but as I see, this won't be his last time. I don't even know why he is doing it. Well, I can ask. I know that he won't tell me anything. Maybe I have to leave him alone. I wasted too much time on him. Also, I don't think that he cares. No matter if someone will do something for him. He is not one of the people who will appreciate that. Otherwise, he should've listened to me a long time ago. The problem is that I care about him. I can't leave him like that. It's visible that he doesn't want me around, but all I want is to help him. It's not like he will let me. I can always ask my parents for help, but I don't want to explain everything. That means I have to tell them about the party, and now it's not the time for that. I need to stop thinking about him so much. He is just a stranger. No matter how much I keep saying this, I will never believe it. Xavi was a stranger when we met. Now I can't say the same. We are not friends or dating, but it's visible that we are getting close. Well, kind of. I have to stay away from him because he doesn't care about anything. The problem is that I don't want to. I don't know what happened to me, but I want to keep him close. I hope that one day he will listen to me. It's visible that he doesn't want to help himself. Maybe I can talk with him. Let's hope that this time, he will listen to me. I won't hurt him, and he knows it.

I woke up and went to get ready for school. To be honest, I'm not in the mood for that. Now I can't face Xavi without thinking about him in the state when he got drunk. I never imagined that this day would come. Let's hope that he won't do it again. Next time I might not be there. He needs to understand that what he does is not healthy for him. What else does he want? I won't be his babysitter. It's not like he will like it. I was thinking about making him talk with my parents, but I don't think he will do it. Well, this is not my business. Maybe it's better if I leave him alone.

When I was ready, I went for breakfast. Dad was already at the table. I can talk with him about this, but he will start asking questions. I can avoid them, but this won't help. I know parents are worried about their kids, but I am fine. Nothing bad happened. Even if I tell him this, I know that he will worry. After all, he is a dad, and I am a girl. I mean, his little girl.

- Hey, dad.

- Hey. How are you?

- I'm fine.

- That's what I want to hear.

- Can I ask you something?

- Sure.

- How can you help someone who doesn't want help?

- Why are you asking?

- No reason.

- Let's say that I believe you. First, you should make this person understand that you won't hurt them.

- How can I do that?

- If you two go out often, make this person feel appreciated. Show him some support.

- It's easier said than done.

- Does this person trust you?

- Not really.

- Then you have to make him do it.

- I can't.

- Why?

- Because I don't know how to do it. I have tried to show this person I'm not that bad, but he doesn't let people get close to him.

- Thank you for the information.

- What information?

- Now I know that it's a boy. - he said, chuckling

- Dad! It's not funny. I'm serious.

- All you have to do is talk with him. Everything will come after that.

- You didn't help me at all, but I can try to talk with him.

- Do whatever you want. Now eat, or you will be late.

After breakfast, I walked to school. Xavi was in front of his locker. He was too busy with his phone to notice that I was there. We don't have any relations, so I shouldn't be complaining. Then why do I feel ignored? I walked to my locker, and soon Taylor came. As I see, she is in a good mood.

- Hi. How are you?

- I have been better.

- Why? Did something happen?

- No. What's that good mood?

- My brother will go to his dorm, and I am free for a movie night.

- Great. You can come with me after school. We can do our homework, and later whatever you want.

- I like the plan.

- Good.

- Won't you do something?

- For what?

- For him. I saw how you looked at him.

- I won't do anything. He is not worth it.

I took my things and walked to class. To my surprise, Xavi was already there. How did he come before me? When I walked out, he was still in the hall. Anyways, this is not important. I was about to sit next to one girl when he grabbed my hand and made me sit with him. If he didn't do that in school, it would be better.

- Are you ok?

- Yes, why?

- You don't look much in the mood.

- So?

- Will you tell me what the problem is?

- Just like you did.

- Don't start again.

- You want to help me. When I try to do it, you push me away. I don't understand.

- I'm trying to be nice to you. Do you know how hard it is for me?

- I didn't make you do it.

- And I didn't expect you to understand.

Until the end of the class, we didn't talk. Something doesn't let Xavi get close to people. I wish that I knew what it was. That way, it was going to be easier.

The rest of the school day we spent in silence. I didn't know what to tell him. As I saw, he wasn't interested in me. The whole day he was checking out girls. Honestly, if that's what he wants to do, ok then. I won't take care of him. Taylor and I walked home. Of course, she asked about him, but I didn't tell her anything. After two hours, we finished our school work. Let's say today it wasn't that much.

- What do you want us to do now?

- I want to know everything. Don't worry. I won't tell anyone. It will only be between us. - Taylor said

- What do you want to know?

- From where you and Xavi know each other. It's visible that it's not from school.

- How long can you keep a secret?

- As long as you ask me to do it.

- Ok, then. Xavi and I met at one party during the summer vacation. My cousin made me go. According to her, it was going to be fun. Well, it wasn't for me. He offered me a drink. Well, I denied it because it contained alcohol. Later, he somehow put alcohol in my cup. It tasted sweet, and I didn't realize what I was drinking. Of course, I got drunk. Later, I had no idea what had happened. That was until the next day. I woke up with a bad headache. It turned out that I had drunk half a cup of alcohol. For a person who doesn't drink, that's a lot. I started remembering what I had done last night. It turned out that he put the alcohol in my cup so I could get drunk and he could use me. His plan worked. I made out with him without even realizing it. I will regret this forever.

- Now I understand. I mean, what the surprised faces were on the first day of school.

- This is not the end. Do you remember your party?

- Yes. What about it?

- I got drunk again, and he got his round two.

- What? How? Did he do it?

- According to him, when he arrived, I was already drunk.

- Can you trust him?

- Not completely. For this one, I did.

- What will you do now? I mean, do you like him?

- I don't know. We have never had a normal conversation.

- Maybe it's time for you to have one.

- It's not that easy. Xavi doesn't let people get close to him.

- Why?

- I don't know. This boy has problems. The thing is that he doesn't want to share them with me.

- Does he trust you?

- I don't think so.

- To understand that both of you don't trust each other.

- Something like that.

- Then how do you expect things between you two to work?

- I never said that I wanted that.

- I will never be able to understand you.

Taylor and I talked for a while. Until dinnertime, we watched movies in the living room. I was distracted as usual. Why do I always have to think about him? This boy is no one. Well, not for me. No matter what happens, there will always be part of me that will care about him. Xavi did something to me, but I don't know what. If I hadn't been to this party, we wouldn't meet. Maybe that was better. Now things are complicated.

- The food is delicious, miss Dean.

- Thank you, sweetie. I'm glad that you like it.

- Alexia, are you ok?

- Hello. Earth to my friend.

- What?

- We have been calling you.

- Sorry, I was thinking about something.

- It was kind of visible. - Taylor said

- Is everything ok? - dad asked

- Yes, you don't have to worry.

- Is it about what we talked about in the morning?

- Dad, I don't want to talk about this.

- Ok, I won't ask.

- Thank you.

- Do you want us to go out after dinner? - Taylor asked

- Thanks, but I'm not much in the mood for that.

- Then what do you want us to do?

- Nothing. - I said and got up

I walked into my room and laid on the bed. Why does this stupid boy always have to be in my mind? I want to forget him. He doesn't exist. If only I could believe this, but I can't. For some reason, Xavi doesn't want to go out of my head. The fact that he is sleeping in this house is not helping. I care too much about him. Soon there was a knock on the door. It was Taylor.

- Hey, are you ok? What happened?

- Nothing. I'm fine.

- Is it about Xavi?

- Maybe.

- Alexia, I think that you two need to talk.

- I don't know what to tell him.

- I might be wrong, but I think you are falling for him.

- What? That is impossible. There is no way that I will fall for someone like him. After all, I don't want to get in trouble. The same thing is for being used.

- Are you sure? I think that you need someone like him.

- Why? So he can ruin my life.

- No, so you can take care of him. It's not like you are not doing this already.

- I don't want to fall for him.

- It's not your choice. Alexia, we can't choose for who to fall. Sometimes this person attracts us. It could be with many things. Maybe his smile, actions, manners, or whatever it is.

- He is not the one for me.

- But I think that he is what you need. He needs you even if he will never admit it.

- Well, I don't need him.

- Don't be so sure.

The rest of the night I spent talking with Taylor. That is my first time getting so close to someone. I have to say that I liked it. She is a great friend. I don't know if what she said is true, but as I see it, things between Xavi and me will get even more complicated. There is something in him that makes me stay. I don't want to get in trouble or let him use me, but at the same time, I don't want to go. The problem is that he can't understand it. He will never accept help from me or whoever it is. Maybe I have to try harder. I have no idea how this will go, but I won't give up. I hope that in the end everything will be good and our relations won't get worse.