Fixing the broken bad boy

Chapter fourteen - She helped me

Xavi's POV:

Yesterday I had another fight with dad. I went home to get more money, and this time, he was there. Of course, there was a woman with him. He told me to stop taking money from him. It's not like I will do it. In response, I told him something. If he had started taking proper care of me, I would have stopped. I know that he won't do it. His needs are more important than his son. I made a good decision by moving out. At least I don't have to watch him f*****g women all the time. I'm glad that I stopped going after girls. Not completely. Lately, I don't feel the need to do it. It's probably because of Alexia. She is with me all the time. Well, she is trying. Sometimes I want to be alone. She cares about me, and I appreciate it, but it was better without her. Now things are complicated. I don't want her to think that we can have anything. I won't give her anything or not what she wants. After all, I am a player. All I do is satisfy myself. If the girls get hurt, they should deal with this by themselves. I have to say that things with Alexia are different. We are not dating, but I will feel bad if I see her with someone else. Honestly, I hate everyone happy in a relationship. Well, because of my parents. I prefer to be alone instead of thinking about the girl who left me. I don't have time for that. Even if I had, I wouldn't waste it. As I have said, no one cares for me, and I won't care for anyone. Well, maybe except Alexia. I'll see what I will do with her. I have to push her away, but part of me wants her close. I hope that I can make the right decision.

I slowly opened my eyes. There was a bright light. I looked up to see that it was a lamp. Where am I? I took my phone and saw that it was Saturday. I am missing something. Last night I went for a drink, but I have no idea how much I drank. What happened next is like a blank spot. I don't remember anything. One thing is sure. I got drunk. The headache is speaking. I need to stop doing this, but I won't. That is my only way to forget about all the problems that I have.

I turned around and saw Alexia sleeping in an armchair. What is she doing here? I won't lie that I feel bad for her. She managed to fit her whole body in this tight armchair. Maybe she brought me here. Soon there was a knock on the door, and a nurse came in. She smiled at me, and I returned it. I bet that she knows why I am here.

- Good morning. How is the headache? - she asked

- Bad.

- That's why you have pills here. I guess that you didn't see them.

- No, I didn't. Can I know what I am doing here?

- You better ask the sleeping beauty. She brought you here.

- What? For real?

- Yes. I don't know how she managed to do this with her tiny body. This girl is way stronger than you think.

- I guess so. When can I go home?

- The doctor will come to check on you. If he says that you are ok, you can go home.

- Ok, thank you.

- I have to leave you. Drink your pills.

- I will. Thank you.

- No problem. - she said and left

I drank my pills and looked at Alexia. Even when I am in this state, she will help me. Sometimes I can't understand her. If it had been someone else, I wouldn't be here. I own her a lot. After ten minutes of thinking, I decided to wake her up. The thing is that I need some answers, and only she can give them to me.

- Alexia. Hey, wake up.

- Five more minutes, mom.

- I'm not your mom. Wake up. We need to talk.

- Xavi. - she said and opened her eyes

- Good morning.

- You are awake. - Alexia said and got up from the armchair

- Yes. I woke up like ten minutes ago.

She didn't say anything and gave me a tight hug. I felt a couple of tears in the back of my shirt. I am so confused right now. I don't even know what to do. Soon she pulled away and looked at me.

- I'm sorry about that. How do you feel? - she asked

- Um, I'm fine. Can I know what happened last night?

- To be honest, I don't know. I saw how you fell in one park. Well, when I came close, I realized that it was you.

- The nurse told me that you brought me here.

- I did. I knew you might not like it, but I couldn't leave you on the ground. Before you think about it, I will do this for everyone.

- Thank you.

- You're welcome.

Alexia and I talked for a while. Later, the doctor came and told me that I was well. That means that I can go home. I won't lie that I was happy to hear that. Both with Alexia walked to the house. The walk was quiet. What surprised me was that she held my hand the whole time. Don't tell me that she was scared. I have been drunk, not shot. There are way worse things than that. I walked in and laid on the bed. She did the same and snuggled. That feels awkward, especially when I want to stay away from her. I have the feeling if I tell her that, she might get mad at me.

- Xavi, are you ok?

- Yes, I'm fine.

- Then why are you looking at me like that?

- Like what?

- Like you don't want me to be here.

- No, I don't.

- If you want me to go away, just say it. I won't complain.

- You don't have to do it.

- Are you sure?

- Yes, I am. - I said and hugged her

- Let's say that I believe you.

- Don't you?

- I know you don't like it when people are close to you. I promise that I won't do anything horrible to you.

- Hey, it's not because of you. I have other problems.

- Will you share them with me?

- Now it's not the time.

- I don't think that it will come.

- Give me some time.

- You don't trust me, do you?

- It's not that. Can we drop it? I don't want to talk about it.

- Sure.

- Thank you. What do you want us to do today?

- Well, I have to go home. My parents will wonder where I have been the whole night.

- You can blame me.

- Thanks, but this time, it's not your fault.

- Yes, it is.

- No, it's not. I could've left you and walked away. The choice was mine.

- Fine. Good luck, then.

- Don't worry. Mom and dad won't get mad at me.

- You are lucky.

- Why?

- Your parents love you.

- I'm sure that yours too.

- No, they don't. Dad doesn't even know where I am. To be honest, I got drunk thanks to him.

- What happened?

- I fought with him.

- I'm sorry.

- It's ok. We always do this. That is not something new.

We stayed in bed for a while. Later we walked out. I have no idea where we are going, but I don't care. Alexia wanted a drink, so we stopped at one coffee shop. I won't deny a cup of coffee. I'm not the biggest fan of this drink, but it can make me feel better. Also, we need to eat something. It's almost lunchtime. I can skip the meal, but I can't let her starve. I think that there was a small restaurant down the street. I paid for the drinks and walked back to our table.

- Here you go.

- Thank you.

- Do you want us to eat something?

- Thanks, but I'm not hungry.

- You didn't eat breakfast.

- Not only I.

- True.

Alexia was holding her cup and looking through the window. It's visible that her head is somewhere else. I sat next to her and pulled her for a hug. For some reason, I feel very supportive. The thing is that I feel bad for her. She rested her head on my chest but didn't look at me. I wish that I could help her.

- Is there something that I can do for you?

- What?

- You look upset.

- I'm fine.

- You can lie to whoever you want, but not me.

- I feel bad for you.

- Why?

- Because you don't think about yourself. All the things that you are doing are bad.

- So? I don't see how this reflects you.

- Why don't you want to take care of yourself?

- There is no point in that. I have nothing to lose.

- No, you have.

- What is it?

- Me. You can lose me.

- You were never mine, so this can't happen.

- You are horrible.

- Thanks for the compliment.

Alexia didn't say anything and turned her head to the window. At least she didn't get up. I kissed the top of her head, but she didn't look at me. Well, I saw a smile on her face. I know what she wants, but I can't give it to her. I can't keep a girl close. Well, because I don't want to. The chances of me getting dumped are high. I don't want to end up like my parents. The worst thing is that they don't even care about the consequences. Dad doesn't show it. I don't know about mom. Sometimes I wish I had a different life and parents who love me. I mean, like Alexia's ones. I have seen them only once, but they were good people. Maybe I have to change myself if I want to see results. That won't happen. People need to accept me the way I am.

- Hey, are you ok?

- What?

- You zoned out.

- I'm sorry. I was thinking about something.

- What is that something?

- My life.

- If you let me help you, it can be better.

- Alexia, stop it. I have told you a million times that I don't want help.

- But you need it.

- So? Let's go to eat. I'm getting hungry.

- No, you're not.

- I have no problem leaving you alone here, but I know you won't like it.

- Fine, I'll come.

- If you want, you can go home.

- Maybe I have to. The cold tone is not for me.

- What do you mean?

- Think about it.

- I don't understand.

- If you keep acting like an assw***e, you will end up alone.

- Maybe I want this.

- Ok, then. Have fun.

She was about to leave, but I grabbed her hand and made her face me. I don't want her to go. With her, everything feels better. I feel better. Finally, I can be myself.

- I'm sorry. Please, don't go.

- Why? You don't want me here.

- That's not true.

- Really? Because I don't believe you.

- I can change myself if you want to.

- What? Do it for yourself, not for me.

- Don't go. Please.

- Hey, don't be sad. I won't go anywhere.

- Do you promise?

- I do. Let's go for food now.

- Thank you.

- You're welcome.

Like that, I spent the rest of the day with Alexia. I am starting to realize something. I don't like her, because I want us to be close. The thing is that she reminds me of my mom. She used to take care of me. Now Alexia is doing her job. She is doing it a lot more than my mother. I don't know what I did to deserve her. Well, I'm happy that she is here. I own her a lot. Maybe I have to try to be friends with her. I probably will be the worst friend ever, but since she is here, I will be fine. I like Alexia, and I want to keep her close. I hope that I can do it.