Fixing the broken bad boy

Chapter three - Regret

Alexia's POV:

I went to my first party. I spent a lot of time there. One thing is sure. I drink something. Maybe it wasn't alcohol. I won't lie that it was fun. At some point, I lost what time it was. I searched for Macy, but who knows where she was? If my parents had been here, they would've killed me. I try to be a good girl, but sometimes I want to be ordinary. To fit in. Being a teenager is hard. I hope that I didn't get carried away. I have asked my parents if they have ever been to a party. Let's say that things back then were different. I know that I had fun last night. I talked with people. To be honest, I don't remember much, which is weird. I am sure that I haven't drunk alcohol. I don't like it. Something has happened, but I have no idea what. Maybe I can ask Macy. If she had been around me, but I don't think so. The moment we walked into the party, she left. My other problem is that I had no idea when I came home. Someone offered me a drink, but I refused it. I remember it. That thing had alcohol in it. Then I drank something sweet. It was probably juice. After that, everything is like a blank space in my head. I hope that I haven't done anything stupid. I don't believe it. Something tells me that I did something horrible. The whole day I tried to remember what had happened at the party. Let's hope that I won't regret it. I feel weird, but soon I'll be fine. Maybe I need a couple of days to get myself together. I need a rest.

I woke up in a weird mood. It had been two days since the party. My mind is a total blank. How is it possible that I don't remember anything? I'm sure that I didn't drink alcohol. I need to talk with Macy. To be honest, she is the only person that I know. I don't know anyone else. My mistake is that I didn't ask for names. Someone should know something. I'm stressing too much. At the end of the summer vacation, I will be home. Whatever has happened will stay here.

I changed myself and went to Macy's room. She was already up. I think that she didn't notice me. Well, her phone is more important. I sat next to her. Are these pictures from the party? No, I don't think so. I can't stop thinking about it. The fact that I did something terrible makes me feel awful. I know drinking is not a crime, but I can't help it. I took Macy's phone, and she looked at me. I need her help. I want to know what I did.

- Can you give me my phone back? - she asked

- I need your help.

- For what?

- Do you know what I did at the party?

- I told you that I had no idea. Stop stressing about it.

- I can't. I know that I did something horrible.

- Well, I can call two or three girls and ask them if they have seen something.

- Really?

- I can't guarantee you anything.

- It's better than nothing. Thank you.

- No problem.

Sadly, none of the girls had seen me. Great. Macy and I walked out for breakfast. She suggested a nice place with excellent food. I don't know anything in this town, and I will trust her. We walked in and sat at the table. I looked up and saw the boy from the store.

- Hey, he is here again. - I said

- Who?

- The boys from the store.

- What?

- When you went to buy that dress, I looked around and saw that he was there. The boy from the store.

- Do you know his name?

- No, we have never talked.

That's a lie. Now I remember. The boy offered me a drink at the party, but I refused. Then I drank the sweet one. That must be alcohol. How didn't I notice it? I drank the whole cup. Sh*t! I walked with him to a room. My worst nightmare came true. I think that I made out with him. How can I be so stupid? Well, I was drunk. He probably put alcohol in my cup. To get me drunk and then to get something else. Why didn't I pull away? It's not like I remember how he tastes. One thing is sure. I am mad at him. Technically, it's not his fault.

- I will be back.

- Where are you going?

I ignored Macy's question and walked to his table. It took him a moment to realize that someone was in front of him. He checked me out and smirked at me.

- Do you want round two?

- I want to know what you put in my cup at the party.

- I have no idea what you are talking about right now.

- Don't play the innocent boy. I know what has happened. If you think that I won't remember, you are wrong.

- It's not a big deal.

- Yes, it is. You made me drunk and then used the opportunity.

- All I will say is that you are not the first one. Neither will be the last.

- How can you sleep every night?

- Like a king.

- You are disgusting.

- Maybe, but you didn't think like that at the party.

- Because I was drunk. Thanks to you, I will regret this for the rest of my life.

- Don't be a drama queen.

- I'm not. I worked so hard to be who I am today, and you came to ruin this for one night.

- I don't see a problem.

- I hate you.

- Yeah, I love myself too.

- Why did you do that?

- Don't play the hurt girl. I won't fall for that.

- I'm not playing. That hurt me. Mostly you.

- If you think that I will apologize, you are wrong.

- To be honest, I don't expect anything from you.

- Then why are you here?

- Because I thought that you would take responsibility for your actions. Maybe I was wrong.

- Yes, you were. I do whatever I want.

- I made a mistake by coming here.

- Yes, you did.

I didn't say anything and walked back to my table. Macy looked at me, but I didn't tell her anything. I know that she has heard the whole conversation. Right now, all I want to do is go home and lay on the bed. I guess that my cousin read my mind. She paid for the food, and we walked home. I went into my room, and she followed me. I want to erase this day from my mind.

- Hey, it's not that bad. At least you didn't do the whole thing.

- Macy, this doesn't make me feel better.

- I don't know what else to tell you.

- Nothing. I don't want to hear anything about this horrible night.

- Aren't you too harsh on yourself?

- It's my fault.

- You didn't do anything wrong. Alexia, you can't always play by the rules. We are teenagers, and they do things like that.

- Not me. I wanted my first kiss to be with someone who I liked.

- Wait, wasn't your first kiss in kindergarten?

- I won't count this. Moreover, the boy kissed my cheek. It wasn't a real kiss.

- Ok, you know better.

- Tell me what to do.

- Why me? I never kissed anyone. Let's not talk about making out. If you liked it, I don't see a problem.

- But I do. The worst thing is that I don't even remember it. Only the fact that it happened.

- Maybe you should talk with him again. He can tell you what has happened.

- No way. I'm sure that he will lie to me.

- If you let your charm on him.

- Like I have one. Think straight. I need to forget this night and him.

- Hold on! What did you think about him? - she asked, smirking

- Nothing. Stop smiling like crazy.

- Did my cousin fall for a boy?

- No. If I do it, the boy won't be from this town. Don't forget that I have to go home.

- I know. Can't you stay here?

- I'm sorry, but I want to go home, especially after that night.

- Fine. Can we at least have fun before the summer vacation ends?

- I can try.

- We can go to the beach again.

- To see your boy.

- I don't know if he will be there. He said that he loves going to the beach. That's all that I know about him. Well, except for his name.

- Good for you. I know that mine is an assw***e.

- Why are you so sure? Maybe he is a good guy.

- What good guy will make one girl drunk and then play with her?

- Let's eat now. We can talk later.

I looked at the time on my phone. It was already 12:30 pm. I didn't realize that we had been talking for so long. I won't lie that my cousin is a good friend. I know that I can tell her about anything. I wish I could stay here longer, but I should go home one day. Until then, I will enjoy my time with her.

- What do you want us to do in the afternoon?

- Didn't you say that there was a skating park around here?

- Do you want to skate? - she asked me, surprised

- No, but we can watch the people who do it. I need a distraction

- What if he is there?

- Stop it!

Both of us walked to the skating park. You have to be kidding me. He was there, talking with a girl. For some reason, I am mad, but not at him. I am at myself for letting this happen. The boy looked at me and winked. I ignored it and turned my attention to the skating boys and girls. I have to say that they are good.

- Will you stop thinking about him? As you can see, he moved on.

- It's not about him. I feel horrible.

- I can see that your face is full of regret.

- How can I look at myself in the mirror?

- Alexia, it happened only once. I know that you won't do it again.

- What if someone else does the same thing? That's why I don't go to parties.

- You are one big drama queen.

- I know that you won't understand.

- If you want, you can talk with mom. She can give you advice.

- Thanks, but she might tell my mom. I don't want them to know about this.

- If this will make you better, I drank alcohol as well.

- What?

- Yes, but it was a little bit.

- Mine was half a cup.

- WHAT? Girl, what have you done?

- I don't know. It was sweet, and I thought that it was juice.

- There is sweet alcohol, you know?

- Now I do.

- All I will tell you is to move on. You can't go back in time and fix it.

- I feel like he is laughing at my face.

- As I have said, you are stressing too much.

- What would you do in my place?

- Move on.

- No more parties until the end of the summer vacation. You can go, but I won't come with you.

- Fine. I will stay with you. Someone needs to keep an eye on you.

- Thank you.

The rest of the day, Macy and I spent outside. We bought hot dogs for dinner. It was not the best dinner, but I wasn't hungry. I can't stop thinking about this stupid party. I got drunk and carried away. The good thing is that it was only a make-out. It's not like I don't regret it, but it could be worse. I guess that, after all, the boy had some sense. I have the feeling that I'll see him again. Well, when I go home, I will focus on school. He doesn't know where I live, so he can't bother me. Also, as I see, he is changing girls like tissues. Maybe that is better. I don't want to be one of his play toys. All I will do is try to enjoy the rest of my summer vacation.