Falling for Him

Secrets

The thought of having a dose of reality was a little wavering, but nevertheless, I’m going through with it. I run my eyes over myself in the mirror as I’m about to leave for work. I decided on wearing my favorite blue dress in an attempt to brighten my mood. The dress stops just above my knees and is sleeveless; the v-shaped neck line doesn’t show too much cleavage and is overall flattering for the most part.

The game plan to make it through the day is to pretend like nothing happened and avoid any intrusive questions or at least that’s what I will try to achieve today.

“Everything’s fine Elise” I say trying to convince myself more than anything with a forced smile bouncing back in my reflection. I haven’t heard Russell since he left last night and I am still left to pounder his actions. I shake my head in an effort to stop myself from going down the rabbit hole thinking of the possibilities as to why. I give myself one last smile and leave for work.

Surprisingly enough, today was going easier than I expected. No one seemed to suspect anything had gone wrong. I faked a smile for the most part but the vague excuse of taking a few days to handle some business was readily accepted and quickly forgotten, thankfully. I catch up on my work for the last couple days and doesn’t seem like I had missed much. I can’t help but sigh in relief. At one point I find myself sitting in the office and it dawns on me that I haven’t seen or heard from Allison. It was very likely that I would see her at some point, she works here after all. But I am not prepared to see her, I don’t know what I would say to her. I decide maybe it’s best to not worry about it and to avoid her at all costs.

The day is over and I pack up to leave when I hear my phone chime. Russell has sent me a text.

Can you come to the office? I raise an eyebrow as I read the message.

Sure. Give me 5 mins. I replied, wondering what this could possibly be about.

I make my way to his office and upon entering, I don’t see the receptionist there. I walk over to the door and knock but there’s no answer. I turn the knob and walk inside but I don’t see him inside either. The door closes behind me and I turn around quickly to face it. There he was. To my surprise he happens to be wearing a navy suit today and I smile to myself at the coincidence. It fits him perfectly, with his black oxford shoes and his hands in their usual burial place in his pockets. He locks the door behind him and walks over to me.

“I thought you would come see me today” he sighs with a hint of disappointment lingering.

“And why would you think that?” I say playfully. He steps closer to me, his hands emerge from his pockets to take my bag and drop it on the floor and then wrap around me, holding me against him. I look up to meet his eyes to see them already glued to me.

“I’ve missed you” his voice rumbles making my hairs tingle as he exhales. His cologne invades my nose and I welcome his scent. His grip tightens around me and my breath quickens as he leans down to kiss me.

“What are you doing?” I whisper against his lips. He searches my eyes before releasing me and walking over to his desk. He runs his hands through his hair as he takes the seat behind the desk.

“One minute you’re hot and then the next you’re cold” I say in an attempt to open the floor for him to explain but he says nothing.

“You don’t seem to want me so let’s just call this what it is” frustration now rising in my tone.

“That’s not true” his voice firm, finally breaking his silence.

“I want you.. very much” the gaze in which he directs toward me with his words catches me a little off guard, making me lose my thoughts for a moment.

“Then why did you leave last night?” I speak softly not wanting to seem like it really mattered.

“Because.. I had some things to take care of” he says, squinting his eyes slightly but not ever breaking his gaze.

“What things?” I utter, crossing my arms across my chest. His abrupt silence lets me know there’s something he’s not telling me but what is it.

“Come here.. please” his eyes soften and I feel compelled to go to him. I hesitate for a moment. He releases a deep breath and extends a hand out toward me.

“Please..” his voice deep and low. I direct my eyes to his hand and they trail slowly back to his face. He waits patiently in silence for my response. My arms fall to my sides from being folded across my chest. It’s like I feel him calling out to me. I take slow, diffident steps toward him. As I come to him, I take his hand and he leads me to rest on the desk in front of him. He peers up at me, his eyes searching mine as he debates his next move.

“What are you hiding?” I whisper down to him. He continues to search my eyes before answering. Releasing a deep breath, he rests his hand on my thigh. The warmth of his touch radiates from that spot and I try my hardest not to squirm as it gives rise to goosebumps.

“If you knew the real me.. I’m afraid I would never see you again” his voice low as he speaks his words with his eyes glued to mine, trying to read my reaction.

“I promise I won’t judge..”. We exchange gazes and moments flutter by as silence begins to rise. Finally, he breaks his silence.

“This isn’t the place for this conversation..” I immediately sigh in defeat, directing my gaze to the floor.

“.. but how about we talk over dinner.. tonight” my eyes shoot back to his face and I try not to show too much excitement for this seemingly small victory. A smile etches across my face and he reciprocates. His fingers twitch slightly, making me aware that they’re still on my thigh. I watch his eyes dart to his hand and then they slowly trail my body, until they reach my eyes once again. I realize my breath has now become shallow. His eyes are now dark with lust and the look he gives me while licking his lips makes heat pool in my belly instantly. His hand begins to move and I inhale sharply. He watches my every move as his touches become increasingly torturous, moving slowly up my dress. I bite down on my lip as he runs his thumb against my wetness to contain my moan. An intoxicating feeling of pleasure comes over me. Russell lifts my legs so that I sit on the desk in front of him and places my legs on either side of his body, leaving them open for him to indulge in this intoxicating pleasure with me. His eyes then dart to me as I anticipate his touch. He stands up between my legs and inhales deeply before sliding my dress up to my waist as I lift myself slightly off the table to assist. His hand grips my thigh tightly while the other slides across my panties to gain a better view and access to me. I feel his breath against my face and I feel him exude dominance over me. Russell brings his hand to brush against my face whilst maintaining his gaze. He brushes his finger against my lips and I quickly pull it into my mouth. Before he can withdraw, I rest my hand on his and begin to coax his finger gently in and out of my mouth, making sure to delicately run my tongue along its length to moisten it. A rumbling sound comes from his chest and he quickly withdraws his finger and slides it into me, making me moan simultaneously. I pull on his jacket for him to come closer and he leans into me, colliding his lips against mine as he moves his finger gently back and forth. My skin feels like it’s on fire and his finger alone just won’t do.

“What do you want Elise?” Russell breathes against my lips as if reading my mind. His movements now going slower as if baiting a response out of me. I fist more of his jacket in my hands, pulling him against me and his body leans against mine entirely. I can’t take it anymore, it’s agonizing.

“I want.. I want you..” I release in barely a whisper against his lips.

“All of you..” I continue. A guttural sound is heard from his throat. The movements of his finger quickens as his other hand trails along my body and comes to rest on the back of my neck before fisting into my hair and pulling me into a kiss. His lips dance against mine, my lungs begin to burn from lack of air but I don’t want to break our kiss. He suddenly moves away from me, emotions swirling in his eyes but still difficult to read. He removes his finger and brings it up to his lips, he makes sure my eyes are on him before he pushes it into his mouth. The action makes my breath hitch in my throat and I hear him groan in pleasure at the taste of me, closing his eyes for a brief moment. In the blink of an eye, his body is against mine again as he peers into my eyes.

“You taste.. heavenly” I lean in to kiss him but he wraps his hand around my waist, pulling me off the desk back unto my feet. He spins me around that my back is now against his chest. My dress begins to fall back into place but he captures it and pulls it back up to my waist. He grabs unto my panties, and slowly kneels as he pulls them down to my ankles. His hand brushes against my legs as they snake their way back up. He places a gentle kiss on my butt cheek as he makes his way back standing against me. He releases a deep breath that I feel against my neck. He places one hand on my hip and the other on my shoulder as he gently pushes me to lean over the desk and spreads my legs. I hear his belt buckle become undone as I await him. He runs the tip of his member along my slit which makes me jump a little due to its tenderness. He places himself by my entrance and I hold my breath awaiting him. He begins to apply pressure making me go up on my toes when there’s a knock at the door.

“F**k..” he whispers while gripping my ass, but he doesn’t move. There’s another knock and a muffled voice can be heard coming from the other side. I stand up and turn to face him. Frustration boils in his expression.

“Maybe they’ll leave” I whisper innocently, but there’s another persistent knock at the door.

“Get dressed..” he says abruptly.

“I will see you tonight” he promises while placing a kiss on my forehead as he begins to dress himself. When we are both ready, I go and grab my bag from off the floor and nod for him to to open the door. I bolt through the opening with my head down not attempting to see who was even at the door. I make it to the elevator and thankfully it’s empty. I fidget with my dress and smile to myself about what just happened. I make it to the lobby and head to toward to doors when I hear a voice behind me call out my name, an all too familiar voice.