The Key To My Heart

Chapter 7 Ash

Ash

I stood there watching him walk away from me, a little voice inside me said 'follow him, explain to him'.

But I knew it was too late, I lost the love of my life for the second time.

I started to walk the opposite way, towards my parent's house, they were on vacation, so they didn't know about my situation, they did however know about Dylan, just that I dumped him for Maddie.

My mother wasn't very happy when I announce that I was getting married to Maddie and not Dylan.

‘’Hey, Ash, wait up.’’  I turn to see who was calling my name, for a minute I hoped it was Dylan but no it was Conner.

‘’What do you want Con?’’ I question him.

See like me Conner was gay, he just never came out, he moved here from somewhere else on our last year of high school, he was a quiet guy and very handsome.

I and he became friends, good friends that he knows my secrets just like I know his.

See to everyone that knows him, he's just the loser who barely graduated and started working at his uncle's bar. But what no one knows is that Conner could get in any College he wants, hell he could own his own College if he wanted to, his parents died when some thief broke into their house, leaving Conner to inherit everything they had. But Conner doesn't tell anyone, so that he can find love.

‘’What is it Conner?’’ I sigh as I once again ask him, after he didn't answer me the first time.

‘’I’m in love.’’ He responded.

I stop in my tracks to look at him, did he really say he was in love? With whom?

‘’With who?’’  I voice my question out loud.

‘’Dylan's boyfriend, Eddie.’’ He replies dreamily, I chuckle of course. Oh, the irony was all I could think.

‘’They’re not just boyfriends bud, they're engage.’’ I grimaced as I said it out loud to him; he looked at me than away biting his lower lip.

‘’He was hitting on me, when you and Dylan left to talk.’’ He grumbles.

‘’Really?’’ I was confused, why would the man flirt with someone else that wasn’t Dylan, is it possible the man cheats on Dylan?

He nodded and we both just started walking in silence.

‘’It's already 8:30 are you going to the reunion?’’ Conner breaks the silence after a while.

‘’Yeah, I guess, want to be my date?’’ I ask him and he blushed. I rolled my eyes.

‘’Relax not like that, I just don’t want to go alone.’’ I explain and he relaxes a bit.

‘’Why don’t you tell him the truth, it seems like he still feels something for you.’’ Conner said while still walking.

‘’Yeah and that something is HATE.’’ I stated.

‘’No, he loves you.’’ Conner points out, I just ignore him, I refused to think that.

9PM Reunion.

Me and Conner walk in and went straight to the bar. I didn't want to see anyone, and I damn well didn't want them to ask me about Maddie.

‘’God I almost forgot why I hated high school.’’ Conner mumbles, as he looks around.

I laugh looking around not seeing anyone that would pique my interest.

An hour later and I was still sitting with Conner drinking.

Then I felt my hairs on the back of my neck stand up, I felt a presence, so I slowly turned around and saw the happy couple, holding hands.

The fiancée and Dylan, all happy and dressed all in white with a matching hat, I got to be honest he looks like a pimp. Dylan was dressed all in black and he looked gorgeous.

Then I saw Maddie making her way to Dylan and the boyfriend, you could tell the discomfort she made Dylan feel just by looking at his face.

They were arguing, and Dylan stare at her, than look around he found me and just stare at me for a bit, until Maddie slap him right on his beautiful face, I don't even remember getting off my seat but in seconds I was by Dylan's side inspecting his face.

Once I was done checking his face, I turn to glare at Maddie.

‘’What the f**k is the matter with you?’’ I sneered at her, she flinched at my tone.

‘’It's his fault you don't love me.’’ She shouts glaring at Dylan, who just stares at me and Maddie.

‘’No, I don't f*****g love you because I'm gay, and you f*****g tricked me.’’ I said.

‘’What?’’ Dylan asks with surprised while looking at me.

I wanted so much to tell him, I love him and always did and always will. But I couldn't, not when he's engaged to someone else, I will not get in between his happiness.

‘’Nothing, just nothing ignores Maddie she's just bitter because I’m divorcing her.’’ I finally said and Maddie stomp her feet and walked away.

I stare at her; confuse wondering how the hell she could change so much.

‘’Ash, um what's going on? You're still gay?’’ Ask a confused Dylan.

I contemplated telling him the truth; I mean it won't hurt telling him the truth, right? He's in love with that guy so it won't matter, if he knows the truth.

‘’Back in high school, Maddie told me she was diagnosed with Breast Cancer, and she didn't have health insurance, so she asks me for help. Knowing if she married me my dad can pay for her hospital bills, but she told me not to tell anyone.’’ I paused for a bit and saw Dylan's face settling as everything dawn on him.

I continue explaining. I clear my throat and spoke again.

‘’She told me that I needed to break up with you, he won't even feel it, he doesn't love you he just feels pity for you. And as my best friend I thought well why she would lie.’’ I chuckle humorlessly.

‘’Little did I know, she’d been lying to me all this time''. I rubbed my face with both my hands to scare the tears that were threatened to come out.

‘’She doesn't have Cancer, she never had, she just thought with time, that I would forget you and grow to love her instead.’’ I said and risk looking into his eyes.

‘’Wow, she's-‘’ Dylan couldn't even finish his sentence.

I stare at him for a while and decided to stop making him uncomfortable.

‘’I did love you Dylan, never stopped but my need to protect my best friend made me lose you, and now you’re happy, and I will not be the one to get in between you and your happiness. I’m going to turn around and walk out of here, but first.’’  As I said the last words I leaned in, slowly giving him time to step back if he wants to but he just look in to my eyes, and stay put as I slowly made it to his soft plushy lips, touching his lips with mine was a dream I always had, and to say that the real thing was better than the dream itself was an understament.

It was heaven, it was everything you ever want and more is like you're whole life was meaningless up until this kiss, and it made the kiss a million times better when Dylan grab the back of my neck and pull me into him, the way he kissed me was like he was hungry and only I can make him full, like he too has been wanting to do this. As I heard him moan into my mouth I stop and realize that I was kissing an engage Dylan.

I slowly pull away from him, he looked confuse for a minute until he notices where we were. He blushed so hard that made me chuckle.

‘’Alright love, I’m going, have a good life with Eddie the pimp, oh FYI Eddie was hitting on Conner earlier today.’’ I warned him and walked away leaving him standing there in a haze. My plan was to quit my boring job and move to New York to start a new life.