Torn Up between Love & Hatred

Drama at College

Its 8:25 when we reached Stanton Junior College. Near the college i stepped out of the car  and started walking. My brother waved me goodbye which i ignored. I was late because i had to walk some distance though i wasn't  walking rather running to get on time but unfortunately i was late.

 We had 6 classes everyday in which 3 of my classes were with Ashton.  i apologized to my teacher which didn't work she gave me punishment by giving me extra work. I gave a death glare to Ashton which meant  "u r dead". He chuckled making me more angry. Everyone was laughing which i ignored. I went to the farthest chair available so that no one could see me. As i passed Ashton's  chair i kicked him so hard that he gasped in pain i didn't wait , taking my sat. 

Everyone was staring at Ashton wondering what happened at this i chuckled slightly. Class passed and then i went to my lockers for exchanging my books the locker room was empty. I sighed in peace and headed to my locker suddenly someone yanked my hand and banged  me against the lockers a face came in to my view and i sighed spotting Ashton. I felt anger arousing in me and i released my hand from his grip yelling "what the fu** is wrong with u Ashton are u out of your mind". he snapped back " Sadie u kicked me so hard that my skin has gone blue green. How dare u do that to me, remember i am your elder brother" he said ." Ashton because of u i was late today and u r going to do my fu**ing extra homework or else  i will say mom" I smirked did i touch a nerve . I saw his muscle tense he said " Now u r going to blackmail me wowwwww!!!" suddenly girls started filling the locker room though we stopped fighting everyone saw our angry faces and Ashton realized he was in girl's locker room.

 Everyone started mumuring as to why we were fighting which i hated. Ashton apologized to the girls sweetly and girls were head over heels. i ignored and went out as the bell rang. In a fraction of seconds Ashton's visit became a gossip. Everyone was staring at me. Then i heard someone was calling me in a bitchy tone so i didn't turn.

 She came to me running and roughly turned me around ,there i saw Aisha the b***h she hated me because i didn't buy her bitchy attitude. I knew she liked Ashton and they were messing around, she started" You b***h how dare u get close to Ashton and talk to him to grab his attention u quarreled with him. Stay away from him He's mine only mine, by the way what were u talking to him about" 

I rolled my eyes at her dialogue "Its none of your business and i didn't go to him he came to me i don't give a s**t about u or him" i growled and walked away.

 This was the first time in two years something like this happened Ashton never reacts like this but because in the morning too i pissed him off and even now so maybe his anger shot up and he reacted out. 

It was lunch time so i went to cafeteria  realizing i didn't bring my lunch and i was penniless i didn't like keeping money which was not mine .

 I sighed in anger because i didn't even had my breakfast and everything was messing up I had enough for the day i took a glance at Ashton he too didn't bring his lunch but he had friends sharing their food with him.

 Probably he had money but i couldn't ask him just then i saw someone feeding him kiwi which he was allergic to i got worried because Ashton seems to  forgot that he was allergic to kiwis I ran up to him and threw the kiwi in his hand and sighed, he got up and yelled "Are u mad  Sadie why did u do that" i yelled back "Ash u r mad How can u forget that u r allergic to kiwis".

 After hearing my concern he froze even me because everyone was seeing us in amusement. One of Ashton's friend chuckled and said "Ash??? when did you become so close to Ashton because even we are not allowed to say that to him and how do you know that he is allergic to kiwis".

 Everyone was staring us like we were from mars and then Ashton replied returning to his senses "guys few days back i had a reaction because i accidentally ate kiwis there i bumped into Sadie that's how she got to know .He turned to me and said" thankyou so much Sadie for remembering and cautioning me at the right moment"

 i huffed and returned back to my seat then i attended all the classes silently and returned back  home starving the ride was quite because i have had enough drama at college. We reached home and i sighed in irritation because it was time for helll!!!.

We reached home and mom was there. My mom's name is Amna Davis she is very sweet ,kind, selfless we were her only priority. But to be honest she's very complicated though she acts like nothing can break her she's very sensitive she can't even hear loud voices.  She's very strong willed nothing can break her except cruel or selfish words.

 Entering our villa i greet mom who's sitting in the garden enjoying the weather. she smiled sweetly " How was your day baby" I cringe at the word baby and sighing i said "It was good mom way better than i imagined[sarcastically]". I strolled down the living room  where i met my three sister's who are way elder than me.

 They were discussing about trends ,clothing and accessories.

My eldest Sister Rosie has completed her studies is married and has two children, My second eldest sister Helena has also completed her studies is married and has one baby girl. My third sister Noorie has recently completed her studies.

 They have only one motto relating me and that is make me the most girlish girl and i am the opposite that's why they hate me.

 After seeing me Helena said "hey Sadie we are talking about the upcoming wedding and deciding what to wear come and join us" I smiled with gritted teeth  "Thanks Helena will not be able to make it up to the wedding I have exams". Hearing this they groaned  in sync and i bolted towards  my room. 

  There's no freedom in my life I can't go anywhere alone, Not supposed to do anything on my own, i am totally dependent on my brother's or mom. I am fed up of this dependent life according to my brother i can't do a job because girls are not supposed to work and it will ruin there status. I can't wear clothes of my choice in the house. even if i do they have so cruel words against me that i can't  bear it.

  I started doing my homework to distract myself and  completed  it around 7:00

 Ash barged in my room and sang "dinner time" i rolled my eyes and said " Ash u have to knock before entering" Now it was his turn to roll eyes .

 i took a shower  and headed downstairs seeing Ashton I reminded him with a smirk "Ash u r supposed to help me in my homework remember". He gasps out loud making everyone wonder what are we talking about but i was satisfied that he understood my cross hint. 

He replied back " ok after dinner lets do it" I smiled "good!"

Everyone was shocked because he never does his homework and will be helping me do mine  they started  chuckling.

 We ate  dinner not a word from my mouth. My family has got used to my behaviour pretty quickly. After dinner i helped  mom do the dishes and gave  my books to Ash and returned to my room.

 i did some workout to release some stress because i was very angry as mom said no to me when i asked if i can go to a party and instantly agreed when Ash asked not even asked he said.

 Yeahhh my family is biased when it comes to girls and boys. I just sleep thinking that i hate my family. And simultaneously love.urgh!!!!!. I am always left hanging between love and hatred.