the bad girl

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Mia POV

‘mia’ a hoarse voice says

There is logan looking at me

His eyes look tired and he looks me worried and confuse

‘logan’ I say

‘mia… are you alright?’ he wonders

‘y-yes, why shouldn’t I be?’ I ask defensively

He shakes his head and walk away confused

I can assure he wanted to ask me something but he didn’t. he’s acting strange, but I don’t make mind on it and begin walking to my mom’s room

I knock on her door

‘come in’ I hear her voice through the door

She is on the balcony, looking outside and giving the back to me

‘mom, we need to talk’ I say

She looks at me and nod

She looks worried

I don’t know what to say, I don’t know for where start, but I don’t need to

‘I’ll say you everything, I’ll answer all your doubts’ she says

‘tell me everything, from the start’ I say

She keeps thinking

‘my dad, tell me the truth about him’ I inquire

She sighs and see to the floor

‘your dad, your dad is a great man’ she take a time to think and comfort herself, a pinch of sadness appears on her voice and face ‘your dad is a wolf’ she finally says ‘and not a simple wolf, he’s an alpha, and a pure lycan, he’s the most powerful alpha, indeed he’s the alpha of the all alphas… he’s my soul mate, we loved each other too much and you’re the fruit of that love’

‘and what happened with him? Why he isn’t here… with us? And henric? What about him?’ I wonder

She sighs

‘when we discovered that I was pregnant everything changed, we had to take a decision’ she says and I know why, cause that damn premonition ‘we needed to protect you, we were willing to do anything to keep you safe, even if that implicate to separate us’ tears start falling on her cheeks ‘we decided to separate us, and let everybody would thought we rejected each other, the unique person who knew about you and everything what happened was Henric, my right hand man, he was beside me since then, supporting me. We made people think he was your father due to I couldn’t hide my pregnancy anymore’

 ‘where is he?’ I interrupt her

‘he’s taking care of my business, due to since some years ago the rumor of a hybrid walking between us has showed up and I didn’t want to leave you alone, I need to be here to take care of you, that’s why we have been living among humans, It was a way to keep you out from all this and in this way keep you a little more safe’ she continues

‘what about my dad?’ I wonder

‘he went to his pack and made his life there’ she says with broke voice

‘he even cared about you.... about me?’ I ask hurt by the thought of my father building a family without us

And then unshed tears fall down my cheek

‘he loves you mia, he has always loved you. What we did, broke both of us but we had to, it was for your safety, we couldn’t allow anybody to even suspect about you. But even if he’s been away from us, he has always protected us’

a knot forms in my throat

‘why did you not tell me about this before’ I cry ‘ I'd have got prepare to this... and this wouldn't have taken me by surprise, like it did’

‘it isn’t easy to me talk about this…. I didn’t know how to tell you about this’ she says with sadness ‘I didn’t want to put you in danger either’

I keep quiet, I don’t find the right words to say

‘mia now that you know everything, now that your wolf appeared you need to be careful, if this reach someone else ears… you can be in danger, there are people who would do anything to kill you, and won’t stop until get it’

I nod

I know I shouldn't be mad at her, I know should be so difficult to her go through this, she only wanted to protect me,  but I can't help but feeling cheated

This too much information to my mind

I need to process all this

I begin walking out but my mom’s voice stop me

‘mia’ I look her ‘your father and me love you, never forget it’

I run outside and go into the trees

I stop when I reach the clearing where that boy brought me early

I sit beside the border of the lake and I can’t hold it anymore, I cry as I never have cried in my life

All what I know, have been a lie

Everything faded inside me

I feel as if my life is a complete lie

My dad isn’t my dad, my nature isn’t what I used to know, my purpose isn’t what I believed all my life and my life have been a lie all this time

I don’t know what to do now, how I’m supposed to act?

grayson, god…  has happened many things this last days that I haven’t thought in grayson, I haven’t even written him

It can sound interested and selfish, but I need him in this moment

I’d like to be between his arms, smell that delicious scent of him, feel the warmth of his body

I bend my head down and rest it on my knees

Then a strong arm sneaks around me

I raise my head in alert

But I relax when I see who the arm owns

He looks me softly

I hold my arms around him and press my face against his chest

He holds me tighter

And in the safeness and warmth of his body I allow me fade on him

I cry, I cry until I fall sleep

‘I’ll always protect you and will be by your side’ he sighs

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