Lost & Found

My mate

Alice's POV:

His face was so close I could see every tiny detail. His lips hypnotised me. I needed a little taste. One more time, then I would be ready...to let him go. Just one little innocent kiss. But he didn't move closer, he stayed there with confidence in his eyes, knowing exactly how I felt.

"I told you. You can't resist, can you?" he said lovering his face to my neck. Slowly he started kissing me right where I should be marked one day. That was the spot that made me hazed as never.

"This is torture." I breathed out. He laughed a little and sucked my neck. I knew there would be a hickey after this but I couldn't care less. I grabbed his hair and pulled him farther so I could look him in the eyes.

"This has to stop." every word I said hurt me.

"Stop me then." he whispered right at my face daring me and licked his lips a little. Probably still tasting my salty skin. And that was it.

I crushed my lips at his. I could feel his smirk, so happy with himself. His hands started to travel on my body squeezing my ass. I practically jumped into his arms. It was like standing between two walls. Wall behind my back and his strong body in front of me.

Now it was my time to torture him. I attacked his mouth with my tongue, messing with him, torturing him. Then let his lips be and paid attention to his neck, right at the exact spot. Letting him know how it feels. Enjoying his fast breathe, pulling his hair in the meantime. I was loosing myself in that kiss. I woke up from it when I felt his erection at my belly. It was like cold shower reminding me that this can't happen.

I pushed him away from me, almost falling to the ground myself.

"STOP!" I screamed not angry but confused, completely messed up.

It took him a second to wake up from his trance himself. Then he angrily punched the closet door almost breaking them.

"F*ck! You will drive me crazy!" I wasn't sure what was going on in his head but I could say nothing nice.

"I'm sorry, Kyle. I just...I can't. I told you."

"WHY? You are supposed to be mine! Every she-wolf is beyond happy when she finds her mate. What the hell is wrong with you?"

I felt like a failure. Again. And couldn't say anything more then this: "I'm sorry."

He could see my fear and that made him stop.

"Look, Alice. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have react like this but you are really not helping. You are constantly pushing me away what makes me want you even more. My wolf is out of control, angry at everyone, especially me because I didn't claim you."

I knew this was the time I should've rejected him, but I wasn't strong enough for it. I wasn't even sure if it would work out properly since we were so young.

"I will let you be close to me, if you promise there will be no kissing." that could buy me some time.

He smiled sadly: "Okay. I will wait until you kiss me first."

"That won't happen." I replied with the same sad smile.

"It happened today."

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After leaving Kyle's room, I headed for a walk. I needed some air. Outside of our school was a little park, but there was too many kids laying around, playing games or just chatting. So headed to the woods. Lost between trees I felt better. Didn't have to interact with anyone and could think about my situation.

Dalia was like my sister. When we were little girls, we promised to each other, we would never be apart. We talked about our lives, how we would find best friends as our mates, how we would live next to each other and rise little pups.

Then we got older. I don't know why, but Dalia stopped dreaming about her mate. She told me I was her mate so how could there be space for someone else. How could someone take my place next to her. I felt childish to dream about my mate in front of her. So I didn't talk about it and tried to be there for her. Especially when she had trouble at home. She really didn't like the circus around Alpha's family. Her older siblings were living and breathing for their pack. She had two older brothers, Alec and Boyd. They were twins, both of them preparing to be future leaders of our pack. Then there was Corina, her older sister, future Healer of our pack.

I guess Dalia felt left out. Like there wasn't any space left for her. Just to marry Alpha from another pack to make a new alliance for the sake of our pack.

"I will run away if they'll try to do this to me. I'm not a piece of meat."

We were heading to some party, drinking wine we took from basement of the pack house.

"They won't make you unless it's your mate." I tried to calm her down.

"I don't care about that stupid mating thing. They won't parade me around trying to benefit from me. My father never really cared about me. Why should I care about him?" she handed me now half empty bottle.

I took a sip. "Don't you care about your mate?"

She stayed quiet for a while. "What if there's no mate waiting for me?"

"Why would you say that?" it happened sometimes, but it wasn't very often.

"I don't know. That's just how I feel. And after all, you are my soulmate, Al. Right?"

she smiled at me.

"Right."

I was pulled back from my memory by my phone ringing.