Stop chasing

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, business, events and incidents are the products of the author's imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.This novel's story and characters are fictitious. -_- ------------------------------------------ Self love is not selfish and felling out love was beyond your control 'maybe you'll realize that I did that things because it was something I can't control' 'maybe you'll realize that I did that things because it was something I can't control' 'maybe you'll realize that I did that things because it was something I can't control' His last statement suddenly crossed my mind repeatedly... as in "Annika Bright!" My mom hissed "what?" I whispered carefully because we are here in the church. the mass is still on going anyways "You're spacing out again,what happened to you?" She asked curiously like she doesn't know why I'm being like this. "Nothing mom, I'm just hungry" I stated like I really am. " Come on, we are here in the church. Stop thinking about him." She said like I wasn't fragile to hear those words...coming from her huh? I just shut my mouth because I know she wouldn't pleased to hear the next words that I will say. know your limit brayt of course I know my limit but I just can't help to miss him I love you, I really do but you deserve better and it wasn't you assh*le I just make myself busy hearing what priest saying infront of everyone. As I looked to different direction I saw someone who is very familiar to me, Kissable lips, pointed nose, Almond eyes, almost perfect jaw that results to a beautiful face... He suddenly tilt his head to my direction and omg like what the hell brayt?!! He saw me? shocks!!! My heart beating fastly like I run non stop a while ago As I felt his stare to me too, I make myself busy listening to the words of God. Gosh. I wanna go home, I feel like I did some unholy to felt this way. He's perfectly handsome. Guilty! Nevermind! I'll just mind my own business ------- The mass was done smoothly and my mother wants to go home immediately because my dad text saying we need to go home because he has some emergency to say. As we walked out to door, I didn't realize that I'm next to him...to the familiar face I described a while go. I keep my mouth zip because I can hear my heartbeat, It wasn't helping that I'm really inch away to him, He smelled nice! what the hell brayt? I'm in the process of analyzing my words to him-- "Let's make it fast brayt, Your father is waiting" My mom said cutting me to space out. I began knocking to my senses Maybe next time... if it is still for me. "Be careful mom. It'll be fine" I said to make atleast ease the heavy atmosphere that she's feeling right now. Destiny has it own ways to make you suffer and happy I would love to embrace the latter but I guess, I wasn't lucky enough huh?