I HAVE NEVER BEEN ENOUGH

""Why is love so hard to fight? Why do we need to get hurt when we can just not get hurt anymore?" This is what I always ask myself every time I get hurt because I loved someone who I thought would love me back the same way I love him. ""Why are there people who don't know how to feel when you're hurting?" Is it because I stay silent whenever I'm hurt? Is it because I always blame myself whenever the person I love hurts me? and I will tell myself "it's your fault you couldn't give him the love he's looking for" I am this woman but why do I always have to adjust? Why do I have to be the first to make the move, we just have to get along? Why is it always me? I am a woman, I should be loved and treated as a princess, Why did I do this instead of him?oh maybe he doesn't have emotional intelligence." "I always think about it, I always say to myself, am I worth loving or am I just a passing fancy? So I don't deserve to be loved like other women?" All the resentment and hurt I've experienced while searching for love.It hurts me so much when I know he can truly love his next girlfriend, but when it comes to me being unfair, I can't experience true love anymore.