Lily
I waited until I heard Alices feet on the stairs before turning over, staring blankly at the ceiling.
I seemed to do that a lot recently. Stare into space. And I just didn’t know why. I should be happy , ecstatic even. I had a man who loved me. More than I ever dreamt he would and a beautiful healthy baby boy. I had everything I had ever wanted and yet I felt nothing but a deep bone weary sadness.
I had trained as a nurse , I knew what this was.
Depression.
I even knew what I should be doing. I should be seeing a doctor but was I doing it?
Was I hell , it was easier to wallow in my own self pity. To push everyone I loved away.
I just wanted to be left alone.
And yet I wanted them to comfort me.
I was a mess.
Rolling onto my side I heaved myself up. I wasn’t even twenty five
