My Lovely Lockdown

A dream...... I wish it was only a dream. I wouldn’t even call it a dream, it’s a living nightmare. I wish I could go back in time and stop all of this from happening. The madness, the destruction, the deaths.... the several countless deaths…...... I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’ve lost everyone and everything I care about. There’s nothing...NOTHING left in this world for me Blood...Violence.......The void that is left in my heart......The dream to go back to normal.......Something is always missing.... It feels like I’m trying to find a light in the pitch black.... That’s just how impossible this is. How naïve I was to think we would be fine, that nothing would happen. Are these just trials thrown in my face, was this supposed to make me stronger? There are only a few things I know for sure. I loved and I lost. I tried and I failed. I lived and they died. I just miss the good times and I wish I could go back to how things were. Can’t I just wake up from this nightmare? They got everyone else, I can’t let them get me! I won’t let them get me...... Who can I trust? Who can I care for when there is no one who cares......? I am.... Forever lost.