My Lucky Stars

Chapter 12

Ryan

Flashback

I help Mia hold two sleeping munchkins as she unlocks the door. I walk slowly since I don't want to wake these two kids up. Mia tucks them in her bed after I put them down. I can see how deep her love is, for these two, her eyes showing that they are her world.

I wonder if she has any other family members, I've never seen her with anyone except Ayla and Ayden since I came to know her.

"Do you need a drink?"

Mia's voice startles me as she walks towards the kitchen and pours juice into two cups. I walk to the small table and she gives the juice to me, taking a seat across me.

"Thank you Ryan.. For.. Today."

I see Mia hesitantly speak while looking at her cup of juice. I slowly reach and hold her right hand, which makes her eyes widen and tremble.

"It's my pleasure, I love spending time with both of them and of course you."

Mia blinks fast and I can see she blushes, smiling softly without letting her hand go. She releases her hand from mine and puts her hand down on the table.

"Why Us? Why..me?"

Her eyes sharp, looking into my own. I don't cut the contact as I answer her.

"Why not you?"

Mia looks away, cutting the connection. She covers her eyes using her hands as a shield.

"I have nothing, while you have everything. You can get anyone you want, you just need to give some effort. While I don't have time for that. My world revolves around the twins, I don't think I can give my attention elsewhere."

"I don't have you and the twins, yet. So technically, I don't have everything."

Mia looks at me surprised by my statement.

"I don't want anyone Mia, I want you."

This time her eyes widen, and I can see her eyes start watering, but she looks away quick enough to keep it inside.

"Mia, I once had someone that I loved so much, it hurt when I lost her. I was devastated, the day she was taken away from me. I tried every possible way to find her, but I couldn't find her anywhere until I got the news that she died in a car crash. I died, along with her since then. I've never felt love until I met you and the twins. I know it's ridiculous since we've only met a few times, and also not too long ago, but deep down it felt like I've known you guys for a really long time, honestly."

I take both of her hands and clasp it with mine as I look her in the eyes.

"I won't force you, but please do think about it and give me a chance to be in your life, the twin's lives. I will love them like my own children and of course with all my life. I want a chance to be with you and get to know you too, Mia."

Mia hesitates and she tears her gaze away from me along with her hands. I stand up from the chair, walking to her sink, and wash the cup.

"I'll give you time, I know it's not easy since you've been alone raising them for god knows how long. But call me once you've made up your mind, I'll come running to you. Until then, I won't come and see you, and if you still don't call me after two weeks... I'll consider I got rejected and be gone from your life."

I hear Mia gasp as she turns around to look at me and confirm my words. I smile softly at her and nod. Mia's eyes again watering, I take a few steps and engulf her in my arms.

"I'll wait for you, Mia."

I turn around and walk out of her house without looking at her. I'm afraid if I see her face or expression I will force the answer straight away, giving her no time to think.

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I sigh as I look at the giant window in my office, showing the skyscraper buildings of New York City.

"58."

I lazily look at my secretary, Nathan as he scribbles something in his notebook. James, my driver has been sitting calmly waiting for me, if I want to go back home.

"What are you counting?"

"Your sighs, Sir."

I roll my eyes at his statement and I turn to look at James.

"You can leave first James, It's way past working hour. Same goes to you, Nathan."

Both of them shake their heads, refusing to listen to me.

"I told my wife that I'll be home late today, and she understands since you've been good to us, Sir."

"Did you get rejected, Sir?"

My heart aches from Nathan's straight forward question.

I don't even know. Mia has been quiet since that day, and it's been a week. I miss her and I miss the twins terribly. I know I gave her two weeks, but I suffered enough for a week, I don't even know if I'll be able to survive another week from them.

I sigh again and I see the clouds have turned dark and in an hour night time will come to replace daytime.

"Why don't you go and see her from far?"

My eyes widen and I snap my head to Nathan as I digest his idea.

"Will it be a good idea?"

Both of them nodded.

"What if I have a sudden urge to go to them when I see them? What if.."

"We both will be there with you, besides, you'll be in the car across the street to see them from far away. I will ask James to lock the doors, preventing you from doing things you might regret later."

I gulp down air as my brain tries to make sense and agree with my heart's desire. I nod slowly and in an instance, both of them jump up and Nathan pulls me up and we head to the car.

Almost 10 minutes later, we are all in the car to Mia's book café, My Lucky Stars. My heart pounds as I feel I'm getting nearer to them.

"I'll see them from far and be content with it until Mia comes to me."

As soon as James parks the car across the street, I turn to look inside the café and instantly I see the twins running around in the café happily.

I smile widely seeing how Ayla laughs while Ayden is running around to catch her, I can hear their laugh as if they are right in front of me.

God, I miss them so much!

My breath hitches when I see Mia's figure walking out of the corner from the last bookshelf as she smiles at her babies. My heart thumps seeing her from here and I know how deep I feel for her when my heart races like this.

This feels like how I was with Wi...

My thoughts stop when I see another figure coming along from the last shelf, a man that I've never seen before was talking with Mia.

I don't know when I unlocked the car and walked towards the café to confirm whatever my eyes saw. 

I stop in my tracks when I see that guy hugs Mia tightly and all of my resolves crumbles when I see Mia hug him back. Both of them are smiling and once again, my heart breaks.

"Sir, it's raining. You should head back inside the car."

I turn to look at Nathan and James, who's covering me with the umbrella from the rain. Both of them avert their eyes, not looking at me in the eyes, probably to not show their pity to me, who got his heart broken again.

I walk back, but towards the other way as both of them run to cover me. I put a hand up to stop them.

"I need to be alone. You guys head back home."

"But sir.."

"It's an order."

I don't see if they nod or refuse to obey my instruction, I just continue walking without knowing where to go. I just need to be alone to soothe my heart.