Save Me

"Darkness became my ethereal home. No light could pass beneath my zone. Hope vanished a long time ago. But if someone will take me out of becoming lone, I'll immediately grabbed his hands and never let go." _______________________________________ "Pulling her was not that easy. She was a wonderful mess in an eerie place. Darkness was become her comfort zone. I found her, torn and awry. Should I let myself succumb in her forlorn? Or I will save her from the depth of oblivion?" *** How can you name someone who's alive yet something within her was long dead. It's like waiting to be buried six deep below the ground with corpse and mud beside. I'm just wondering. How can someone be so happy having dire problems behind? How can they managed to laugh with each other without minding the circumstances they were facing? Is it really me being pessimistic or I just used to cuddle into the darkness I always find as my safe haven? I used to hide in the shadows of memories. I heaved a sigh. I shoved my foot below, making the swing moved faster. Not minding the cold wind of Blakewill City brushing my pale skin. I looked above just to see the stars scintillating in the vast dark sky. I smiled. I wished just like stars, I keep shining even though I'm long dead within but that would be impossible in my state. My light was vanished a long time ago. I shivered in coldness. I stand up. Maybe coffee can relieved my cold night. I need something that can make me wake up. Kung coffee lang din sana ang kailangan para magising sa katotohan. Maybe I'll drink a million of it. Kung sana ganon lang kadali. I walked at the silent street. Mesmerizing the silence of the midnight surroundings. I know there's a*****e near the park. It was open 24/7. I remember the store near our house in Bluewood . I was once their midnight customer but things changed and I never go there anymore. Maybe the first step to move on is to relive all the forgotten memories I used to buried in the corner of my heart. My mind. But not in that same store. I push the door open and stepped inside. "Good evening Ma'am." I heard the man in the counter said. I just ignore it at tuloy tuloy na naglakad papunta sa coffee maker not giving a glance to that man. When I get there, naghulog ako ng barya at naghintay saglit. I heard the clung of the bell on the door indicating that someone open it. Nung nakuha ko na ang coffee ko ay nag ikot-ikot muna ko upang maghanap ng pwedeng ipang sama sa kape. I carefully looked at every food in the stall. Then it caught my eyes. Ube cake. That's our favorite back then. Kukunin ko na sana to when someone grabbed it first. Napatulala ako saglit. I shrugged. Kukuha nalang sana ko ng panibago pero napatigil ako nung makitang wala na pala. I frowned a bit. When I turned my head to the one who grabbed the last one, my lips curved into flat. I heaved a sigh, and just walked straight looking at his eyes. I saw him stilled with confusion. Nung malapit nako sakanya ay nilagpasan ko siya. I saw him open his lips but he stopped nung nakita niyang Hindi siya ang lalapitan ko. Maybe he thinks that I'm going to be mad or talk to him. Well I'm not in the mood to argue just for a piece of food. And I don't talk to strangers. I just pick anything. Bread and chips. Then I go to the counter to pay. I sat beside the glass wall. My favorite spot. In here, I can see all the customer in the store but yea it's midnight so I'm the only one here except to the salesman and the man who got my cake. Tsk. Kung alam ko lang na isa nalang yun sana pala kinuha ko na agad. Hmp! I heaved a sigh. I'm just savoring my coffee, enjoying my night day when this ube cake stealer asked me dumb question. "Is this seat taken?" I was about to take a sip while enjoying the view from here, hindi naman sa napakanda ng tinitingnan ko but hey he disturbed me just to ask that. Tsk. I didn't say anything. I just look at him blankly. I though he's just going to find another seat when he didn't get a response but he still seat in front of me. He placed his hands above the table, eyes fixed at mine. My brows furrowed. I'm about to composed a word when he suddenly talked. "Well, I'm asking myself," he said smirking. Napatingin ako sakanya. Mouth still open.Forehead creased.Tsk. Jerk. "Done staring at me?" He asked, still with a smirk plastered in his faced. I looked away without even a hint of shame. Tsk. I heard him sigh." Whats with the black outfit?" He chuckled. Diko alam kung ako naba yung kinakausap niya or his just crazy ubecake stealer who talked to unidentified invisible species na siya lang nakakakita. So I didn't bother to reply. "San ba libing ng madaling araw?" I heard him murmured. Sighed. "Are you deaf?" he asked." Bat Hindi ka nagsasalita?" He even do hand sign na Hindi ko naman maintindihan. Okay then let's act like a deaf. Mas kinunot ko pa ang noo ko at napansin naman niya yun. Napakamot nalang siya ng ulo. Cute. Sighed. Aalis na sana ko, mahirap na baka nakadrugs pala tong kaharap ko. And one thing is for sure, he means trouble. Mabilis niya kong hinarang. "Hey..." Hawak-hawak niya yung ubecake at tinuturo yun tapos tuturo sakin. It's like his giving it to me. Sweet. Gusto kong matawa sa itsura niya. Parang tanga. Pero pinigilan ko parin. I don't deserve to laugh or be happy. I suddenly felt sad dahil sa naisip. Because of what happened last month I can't even smile without feeling the guilt building up. I totally changed. Everything. I distanced myself to everyone. Not just distance, umalis din ako sa nakasanayan kong lugar. I erased them in my life. I left everyone behind. I was a coward, I know. Pero hindi naman ako tatakas. I just need to breathe or maybe I don't want them to see me slowly killing within. Breaking within. Unti-unting nawawalan ng kulay. "You okay?" he said snapping me out of my daze."Hindi ko pa to nabubuksan kaya wag kang mag-alala," he smiled like no other. Beat. Hindi na ata niya kayang i-act kaya sinasabi nalang niya. phew. I'm so done with him. Masyado ng mabigat yung nararamdaman ko. And his smiles was captivating. But no,I'm thankful to his kindness but... "I don't talk to strangers." I just said before walking out of the store. I was out of my mind while going to the door kaya nung bubuksan ko na dapat, someone outside pushed it first and it hit my head. Di pa ko nakakarecover when I felt something cold touch my head. Nanlaki ang mata ko. It was a tip of a gun. Shit.