Golden Cage

Part Fifteen

Azazel....Azazel... 

I kept repeating his name over and over again, like my own magical spell and every time i say his name, my body heats up and my...my private parts get wet. The calmness that i feel whenever he is around still amaze me, because i still fear him, or do I?

I signed and got up and made myself tea. He didnt have tea in the bar before yesterday. I smiled warmly.

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-"Would you like some tea or coffee ?" I asked after i finished cleaning everything and putting it away.

-"Coffee, I don't like tea.", a gasp left my mouth and I bet i had the most hurtful and offended expression on my face. He started laughing, "Let me guess, you are a tea fan?"

-"A fan? I dont think there is a word in the whole entire universe to describe my love for tea"

-"Coffee ?"

-"I hate it", now it was his turn to get offended.

-"I should literally whip you for that", but instead of whipping me, he hugged me and took my lips. 

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And today when I finished doing my stuff in the bathroom, he told me that he ordered yesterday dozens of tea types and he put half of them in the kitchen and the other half here, in the bar with a kettle. 

I returned to the chair, looking at the balcony from inside, since he told me not to leave the room, but he said if i behaved then when he comes back we can sit there. I felt like i was on cloud nine from happiness, never in my entire life have i ever received so many complements about my food. I wanted to wake up this morning and go cook him breakfast, but i didnt know if i was allowed out of bedroom, 'note to myself, ask him about it'.

Yesterday conversation keeps repeating and playing over and over in my head. Was the priest in my church wrong ? Were the teachers all wrong? Apparently we aren't alone, but why hide from us, from humans ? are we this fragile that we wont handle such a thing?

How would i have handled this news, if i were in different scenario ? I would have ran away screaming my lungs out. I giggled remembering the first time he showed me his true self, it was a month or more after he took me i guess, not sure. I freaked out so much, that remembering the details now, my smile dropped and regret filled me. I am puzzled how i managed to missed the sadness in his eyes. 

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 I was sitting in the corner near the bed, playing with my hair, braiding it and unbraiding it, when the door opened and master came in holding a tray of food. 

A wide smile appeared on my face. "Master Hi" and ran to him, he managed to put down the tray before I jumped into his arms.

-"Miss me?" 

-"A lot", I looked at the tray and saw some asian characters written on it, "What is it?"

-"Sushi, ever tried them?"

-"No, but i always wanted too"

We sat on the bed with the tray between us. We opened up the food and removed the covers. Everything looked so delicious and colorful and mouthwatering. Master took a pair of chopsticks and gave them to me. I held them not knowing how to use them, I felt myself blushing. apparently he noticed that but didn't say a thing, instead he slowly took his and nonchalantly showed me how. 

It is much harder than it looks in the movies. After a couple of miserable tries, i finally managed to hold one piece without dropping it. 

A moan escaped me. 

He chuckled.

-"Like it?"

I didnt want to stop chewing so i just eagerly nodded. We ate in silence, which i loved. 

I always felt awkward when there was silence between me and the other person, because i would feel like there is pressure on me to say something or to do something, which would cause my anxiety to increase tenfold. Perks of being an introvert. 

But with him, even the silence was comforting. 

After we finished, I took everything and put it back in the bags. 

I sat back down and fiddled with my fingers. 

Tension filled up the space between us.

-"I have something to show you"

-"Master?"

-"You know that I am not a human"

I weakly nodded.

He stood up and walked to the center of the room. He took of his shirt and threw it to the bed. 

-"Know one thing kitten, i will never hurt you" and with that atmosphere around him shifted, dark wave like light surrounded him and then he appeared. 

I was shocked. He took a step towards me. I started screaming and ran to the far side with what the chain allowed me.

-"Stop. Dont run" the voice that came from the creature was deep and very harsh. I kept screaming and trying to get away and that angered him apparently, because he came near me, did something to the chain and then took hold of both of my shoulders. I tried to push him away but no luck. 

He dragged me to the cage. I screamed and sobbed, fear overtook every other reasonable and non-reasonable emotion. In one swift movement, he opened the cage, threw me inside and closed it.

I hit the ground and that somehow woke me up from my state. I kept my eyes down.

-"LOOK AT ME" the beast roared. 

Inch by inch, i slowly dragged my eyes towards him. 

A beast stood outside the cage. The man was big but the beast was huge. He was doable in size. 

His skin turned dark red, almost black. His arms and chest were no longer covered in hair, he was smooth. His hands, the knuckles had bumps on them, just like knuckles brass. His nails were black.

My eyes followed the path upwards till i reached his face. What was human face, with human structure and normal looking bones, were now promoted and more defined, more outwards.

His mouth which was open and hissing sounds were coming out from there, had two fangs, two long white fangs, the teeth were white, which made a contrast with the dark skin. 

His eyes which were grey with a bit of golden red shimmer, stayed the same. The only thing that remained from the human form. The hair on his head was gone. 

Behind him, two sets of huge black wings were making small movement. 

The wings mesmerized me the most. Not like a birds wings, more like a dragon ones. Big and long, almost reaching the floor, with sharp knife like edges. 

My gaze returned to his eyes.

Something passed between us. 

Something that i guess scared us both, because he opened the cage door and left the room promptly.

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Remembering all of this now, I regret not calling after him, not telling him to come back, because sharing with anyone your true self and get rejection or worse, getting fear in return, hurts more than one would like to admit.