My Sister's Gamma

Chapter Eight- Making a Decision

Jane Jenkins (POV)

I woke up feeling more tired and with a headache. It must be due to all the crying I have been doing. It was light outside the window, so it must be the next day. I have to admit, with all the hurt Lucas has put me through, I am grateful he had not slept with that or any other she-wolf. I would have felt the pain. Now, with being marked by him the pain could be doubled. So, I am grateful. Maybe he is trying. Who knows, maybe I will be able to forget the image of him with the others slowly.

I sighed as I got up and went into my bathroom to do my business. I went into my closet dressed in skinny black jeans and a lavender top. After brushing my hair and putting it in a messy bun, I went downstairs to find my mom cooking breakfast and dad sitting at the table talking with mom as he read the paper.

Mom noticed me walking in and smiled, “Morning baby. How are you feeling?”

“I am doing OK considering.” I walked over and poured myself a cup of coffee, then put in my favorite flavor creamer and took a sip. “Mmm. I needed this.”

Mom looked at me, “Didn’t you sleep well?”

“I slept but woke up with a little headache. Probably due to all the crying I did yesterday,” I admitted.

“That could be. You have gone through a lot these days.” My dad spoke up.

I walked over to the table and kissed his head, “Morning, Daddy.” I sat down and took another sip of my coffee just as Mom placed two plates of food down in front of me and my dad.

“Thank you, dear,” my dad said to my mom with a loving look on his face.

I love seeing the love they have for each other, and I crave that for myself. I know the bond is supposed to amplify feelings for the mate and I see that with my parents, since they both turned and marked each other. But is it enough to keep a certain someone from straying?

I have heard that wolves mate for life, and they are devoted to only their mates, but there are rare incidents where one does cheat on the other, and through the bond the pain kills that mate’s wolf and even comes close to dying themselves. It is taught in schools here and those few true stories are told to be examples of why we don’t cheat once you are bonded.

With that how do I know I can trust Lucas completely with his past transgressions? I know I couldn’t go through more pain. Yet I felt through the bond how he was feeling guilty, sorry, and yes, even regretful. Is that enough to give him a chance?

“Mom, Dad?” I began, “What should I do? I mean about Lucas. After all, he has not slept with anyone since my birthday when I caught him. I know that for a fact due to not feeling any pain. Not even a twinge from a kiss.” I sighed, “I am just confused.”

“Well, the fact you are not feeling any pain at all is a good thing. Maybe he is really sorry about what he has done. After all, it was not his intention to hurt his mate.” My Dad began.

“And the fact he is seen moping around and struggling with doing his job properly…that is according to Lari. I would say he is feeling remorseful at what he has done to you,” my mom added.

“So, should I give him a chance?” I asked, needing advice from my parents.

“That is entirely up to you, Janey. We cannot decide for you,” my dad said, using the nickname he gave me when I was a small child.

I nodded, finally making up my mind.

It was afternoon when I decided that I needed to talk to Lucas. I went to the packhouse and up to his room, when at his door I began to shake as I held up my fist to knock.

“Are you looking for Gamma Lucas?” I heard a voice behind me. I turned around to see Cindy, a young omega looking at me with a broom in her hand.

“Yes, I am,” I answered her.

“He is no longer in that room.” She said, walking toward me and reaching for the doorknob.

“Wait…what do you mean? Where is he?” I asked before she could open the door to Lucas’s room.

“He moved to a larger room one floor up. Second door to the right of the stairs.” She said as she opened the door to the room. I glanced inside, seeing the bed where it all happened.

I turned away and thanked her as I headed to the stairs. Once there, I followed her instructions and found the door. I knocked, then I heard shuffling sounds and then the door opened to see a shirtless Lucas with a small towel as he was drying his hair.

Upon seeing me, he froze, “Jane,” he spoke with surprise in his voice.

“May I come in?” I asked, and my question seemed to unfreeze him as he opened the door wider to allow me in.

I walked in and looked around the room. It was larger than his old room and much nicer. It had a fireplace in a sitting area and a large bed. I saw two doors with one open, and I could tell it was the bathroom, so the other must be the closet.

“Nice room. Since when did you move to this room?” I asked him.

He smirked at me, “Since I found my mate. I didn’t want bad reminders and I knew she wouldn’t either.”

I stood there looking at him as he looked at me. Then my eyes wandered down to his chest and abs and OMG, he was built. I looked back up to his face and saw a smirk as he knew I was checking him out. I couldn’t help but blush.

“I wanted to see you. I know we need to talk.” I began as he walked toward the sitting area where there was a sofa and a couple of chairs facing the fireplace.

“Come and sit.” He offered as I walked and sat in one of the comfy chairs.

He came and sat across from me.

“I wanted to say, thank you.” I stared as he looked at me confused.

“Thank me? I am the one who hurt you.”

I nodded, “And you could have continued to hurt me, but you stopped. I know you did because I have not felt any more pain. And because of that…” I took a breath, “Thank you. And…” I held out the word and “I want to give us a try.”

I looked up to see him beaming from ear to ear. “You do?”

“Yes, I do. But…” I sighed, “On one condition. If you ever mess up this is the only chance you get from me.”

“I promise you, sweetheart. I am done with whatever it was that caused me to do all those bad things. I want and only desire you, my sweet Jane.”

I could feel through the bond his sincerity and I smiled. “I sure hope so.”

The next thing I knew, he was on the floor on his knees in front of me taking my hands in his. I felt tingles shooting through my whole body down to my core. “I swear this to you, my Jane. I vow to never ever cause you any pain intentionally. I have loved you since the first time I saw you, and I was so stupid having s*x with Diane. But to be honest, it was you in my mind I was making love to. It was still wrong, I know, but I swear it was you in my fantasies.” He kissed both my hands and then my eyes as he kissed away the tears that fell from my eyes. Then my nose and as I closed my eyes I felt his lips land on mine.