My Sister's Gamma

Chapter Seven- Tears of Hurt

Jane Jenkins (POV)

Feeling his arms around me feels like home. I can feel his emotions now after he marked me, and that he is sorry for what he put me through. Just as I was beginning to relax in his arms, the image of him inside that woman and his face of pleasure as they grunted and moaned together entered my mind and I pushed him away. He looked confused and frowned at me.

“Did I do something wrong?” he asked me.

“I can’t. It’s too soon. All I see in my head is that image of you in pleasure inside another,” My voice choked up at the end.

“I am so sorry, babe. Truly I am.”

“I know you are. I feel it in the bond since you marked me. Just give me some time.” Tears began to fall as I added, “Please.”

He opened his mouth to say something, then decided it was better not to say a word. He nodded his head as he stood and walked out the door. My heart goes out to him as I feel his saddened pain through the bond and knowing I was the cause of it. But that image of that day and the other days I saw him with that woman and even saw them kissing a time or two really hurts me. I curled into a ball on the bed and cried my eyes out. I couldn’t stop the flow of tears. I just wept like my heart was breaking.

A few minutes later, I heard the door open and a voice I needed to hear ran over toward me and pulled me in a hug. “My poor, baby.”

Being held in my mother’s arms felt comforting as she said sweet things in my ears and rubbed my hair and back. I clung to her and sobbed all my frustrations out of me. First I found my mate in bed with another, then the bond trying to pull us together and the loneliness of being away from my mate. Then came to find the cancer is back, and my mate marked me while I slept in order to heal me. I don’t know how much more I can take. What have I done to deserve all this? Was I a bad person in a past life or something?

I must have cried myself to sleep because when I woke my mother was on a chair next to the bed holding my hand. She looked up when she noticed I was awake.

“Baby, how are you feeling?” She asked me.

“How long was I asleep?” I asked her in return.

“A couple of hours.”

“Oh…” I sighed, “I am feeling better than I did earlier.” I finally answered her question.

“Good, I am glad.” She smiled at me.

“I want to go home,” I said, surprising her.

“I will ask the doctor. But I am sure she might run a few more tests to see if the venom running through your veins is working or not.” I know she is right, but it still doesn’t stop the feeling of needing to be home.

I crave the comfort of home. My mom went out to find the doctor when my sister and my dad entered the room. I smiled at my family as they came over and hugged me. I feel so loved and safe around them. I know they won’t hurt me, unlike my mate. I just don’t know why he had done all that he did. He claimed to have suspected that we could be mates, so why is a big question I needed to know. I mean was he acting out because he had to wait two years? Was it some kind of midlife crisis kind of thing? I mean, I know he wasn’t a virgin when we met, but I thought he would have been more respectful than that.

I had opportunities, but I decided to wait for my mate. Sure, I tried dating a few times, but it felt wrong especially when I kissed a couple of guys I went out with. So, we just stayed as friends, and they were okay with that. Why couldn’t Lucas have waited for me? It still hurts deeply. In the beginning, we were friends, but then it seemed after that night my dad spoke to him just scared him off. We both even confessed to liking each other that night. I just don’t understand.

Lari and my dad must have noticed me deep in my thoughts as Lari reached up and brushed a tear away, bringing me back to the present.

“I am sure everything will work out,” she said with a sad smile.

I nodded my head as the door opened, and the doctor, followed by my mother, walked into the room.

“I hear you want to go home?” The doctor said as I just nodded at her. “Let me take a few vials of blood for testing and I will then release you to go home. But I will want to see you in a couple of days for more testing and possible treatments unless the Gamma’s venom is working.”

“Alright. I just want to go home.” I said with a sad smile.

“Oh, of course, you do,” she said as she drew blood from my arm.

When she was finished, she gave me the okay to leave with the promise of getting rest to not get stressed. The resting part will be easy…not being stressed will be the hard part. But I promised her nonetheless.

Once back home, I went straight to my room, took a quick shower, put on my sleeping shorts and tee shirt, and climbed into bed. I curled up in a ball and covered my head and closed my eyes to try and sleep. Only images of Lucas kept flooding my mind, causing the tears to fall as I cried myself to sleep.