As we wait for Gwen to return, my mind runs wild with excitement and nerves. I wonder where she will find a person for me to feed from, what the blood will taste like, and how I will feel after turning. Will I be able to stomach the blood? Will I be overcome with guilt for my victim? Or will my desire to turn override any doubts or concerns that I may have?
While I run around in circles internally, Troy and Maria seem as calm as ever. Maria actually seems quite pleased with my decision, and Troy isn’t questioning it, or trying to postpone it like I thought he would. Then again, neither of us would have imagined that my turning would be this easy and uncomplicated. I’m sure he is also relieved that he doesn’t have to do it himself, live with any negative consequences.
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