I open my mouth to speak but close it.
‘The contract remember, you drafted it.’
‘Oh that.’ I say feeling stupid
‘I cooked, I will be in the kitchen when you are ready.’
‘Okay.’
I watch as he walks out, he looks like he has taken a bath and I don’t know how long he has been awake. Lucky for me the bedroom is self-contained, I soak myself in a bit of cold water first in the tub – I feel sore. When I start feeling cold I drain the cold water and allow the hot water to fill up whilst I just sit in there
I have so many thoughts running through my mind, I thought I could just have s*x with him and not feel anything. I thought I was going to go in about my life with no attachment whatsoever not realizing how cheap I would feel afterwards. I feel so used, whoever said s*x was just that must
