Another Not So Love Story

Confusion

It is October now and has been a few weeks since I blacked out at Mr.Harold's; my therapist. I think the stress of life is finally catching up to me after the past few years. I wish I knew how to deal with it like an adult. However, I guess it will take a bit more time to get that far. This is quite the process you know. God why am I talking to myself again? I should be doing math. Why does class have to be so boring nowadays? Why can’t they make it more interesting?

“Delilah. Hello?” Mrs. McCarthy asks “Are you awake?”

“Hmm?” I lift my head up and look right at her. She does not look very satisfied with my clueless demeanor.

“If you are not going to pay attention in this class, get out. This is the 12th time this week and it is only Wednesday.” her voice raised a bit at that last part. I just look up at her and shrug. “Go to the office.” I grab my bag and head out to the hall.

“What’s her problem anyway?” I mumble to myself “I was just resting my eyes. It isn’t like I was blacking out again like the other times.” I walk to the commons and I bump someone; I look up and I see him. My love. He looks worried. His dark brown eyes swallow me whole and my once racing heart starts to beat more calmly. If I didn’t know any better I would say there was a whole universe in those deep tree bark brown eyes. The way they sparkle is just mesmerizing.

“Did it happen again?” he asks with that deep, calming voice he always uses when he is worried. He places his hands on my hips.

“No.. just kicked out because I was resting my eyes again. Nothing serious.” I see him smirk and give a little chuckle. I know he finds it amusing. Why wouldn’t he? The teachers here always do this! At least all but one. Mr.Dominick. He is my art teacher and I guess also my friend? He is only 26 and already an art teacher. How he got this job I have no idea. However, I am thankful that he is here. Gives me someone to talk to.

“Honey bug? You okay? You’re staring off into space again” Austin shakes me a bit to get my attention and I take a step back and just look at him.

“Wha.. what happened just now?” I ask puzzled. I look around and I notice I’m on the floor now. How’d I get here?

“You started to hyperventilate again..and you stopped breathing.. I thought I lost you..” he hugs me tight in his strong arms and I start to tear up, afraid of what just happened. What.. what is happening to me..

“You won’t ever lose me Austin..”he grips tighter and I hold him closer “I love you.. Don’t you ever forget that..” he looks down at me and nods.

“Let’s get you to the nurse for now..” he gets up and then picks me up like I weighed nothing.

Soon we arrive at the nurse’s office and he lays me down on the bed there. The nurse comes over to examine me like some creature out of a sci-fi movie. “What happened this time?” she doesn’t sound surprised and then he tells her what just happened. “Alright Delilah, you get some rest and I’ll get a hold of your doctor to see what he wants to do with you.”

“Sweet dreams baby girl” Austin kisses my forehead and the last thing I see is his eyes staring into me. Feeling the love pour into me though his eyes and I drift to sleep.