The Goddess Truth

{3} Purpose

My dad looked at me with a horrified expression. “Brat, I didn’t realize we made you feel that way, we never meant to narrow your reach so that there was nothing else.” I couldn’t look at him, it hurt too much. ”What did you expect dad? You made me suppress myself, you limited my studies, you limited my hobbies, you limited my friends, you limited my food, the only thing you didn’t limit was warrior training thank Goddess! I didn’t grow into myself dad, I was molded! So honestly what did you and mom expect? I know you thought you were doing right by me, I’m not mad at you, I just don’t know where this leaves me.”

We both sat in silence for a long time, until he suddenly sat up and smiled at me. “I have an idea, but your mother is going to hate it!” He said. My dad stared at me for a minute. “There was a reason I didn’t limit your warrior training. You have a gift with it. You have a spark that lights when you are sparring and the way you move is flawless my brat. What would you say to following in my footsteps?” “Security?” I look at him with a horrified face trying not to laugh in his. “Dad no one will take me seriously. Not after all these years and plus at my age, I don’t have the experience to step into that world.”

My dad burst into laughter, “Goddess no Brat, I would never, besides you have to work your way up in my world regardless of your skill. I’m talking about before my security days.” Realization hits me and excitement hits every cell in my body! “Really? Could I? You’d let me? Seriously?”

I ask, about to burst. “On one condition he tells me. You have to be under Mac, no exceptions, he’s the only one I trust to have your back. Plus the only one that can fudge your name so no one knows your mine. You’ll have a s**t time of it if they know you’re mine. I’ll call him after I talk to your mother, leave her to me.” He mumbles that last part as we make our way back.

We get back and I’m pacing my room when I hear my mother’s high pitched yell, I didn’t figure she’d take it well. My mind is made up though, I can’t stay here and do nothing the rest of my life, I need to do something, I have to have some kind of meaning, especially now. I can’t think of him or anything else anymore. In my excitement about signing up with the Legion, I can honestly say I hadn’t thought about him and it doesn’t take long for him to fade again. At that very moment, mom bursts through my door. “ Well hello mother dear! What brings you by?” “Cut the s**t Lil, what in the hell are you thinking? The Legion? You couldn’t possibly think that you could cut it with all those barbarians! Your father was a one off coming out of that bunch!” She yell-talked at me. “What about uncle Mac? Hmmmm? He’s decent.. and besides, I hold my own, you’ve never even seen me spar, so how would you know. I’m not like you. I’m strong and fast and if I didn’t have to suppress, my aura is one of the strongest. Have you ever even seen my wolf mom? Or is it that all you have ever wanted was a Luna for a daughter? Because like I told dad, I’m tired of being limited in everything for what you and him want for me, I’ve been limited my entire life. Now, it’s my turn to take off the shackles you guys so delicately placed on ME.” I raised my voice on the last word hoping I got my point across to her. She was a lot more stubborn than my dad and sometimes it was harder to get her to understand things from a different perspective. “Put yourself in my place for a minute mom and just think about it and then try to feel it!” I walked out of my room leaving her standing there.

-Lori

I stood there for I don’t know how long. I never realized how we were making her feel. I just didn’t want her unprepared, I wanted her to accepted as a Luna, I didn’t want her to an outcast as a female Alpha, but I made her an outcast from herself. I just wanted the best for her. I feel my mate walk in behind me and I squeeze my eyes shut as the tears begin to fall. “ I didn’t realize it either Lo. When she yelled at me it took me by surprise too.” He said trying to comfort me. “How did we not see it, Big? How have we stuffed our baby in this box, basically suffocating her? We’re going to have to let her go aren’t we? Is there another option, please tell me there’s another option?”

He has his head down and slowly shakes it side to side, “ I don’t see another one Lo, I just don’t see her going any other direction, you know how she is when she has her mind made up. She’s been wanting to do something that won’t hold her back and with this she can do that. Have you ever let yourself see her, I mean really see her? Her wolf is something special. I don’t know what we did or why the Goddess chose our girl to be what she is, but she did.” He sounded awed.

“Big, what are we going to do about the Lucan heir? What if he comes looking for her? He never did accept her rejection, she shifted and ran before he could. I honestly don’t think he was going to, that’s why she was so upset when we got to them. What do we tell him?” I asked nervously. “We tell him the truth, that she’s gone to find her own way with the Legion. We don’t know where she’ll be stationed and there’s no way to find out.” “Goddess Big, our baby, will she be ok? Can you promise me she will be ok?” He looked at me, winked and grabbed my hand. I followed him to the arena not understanding when I heard the grunts and pained moans. When the mats came into view, I saw a few of the warriors sparring and there she was taking on 3 at once. She was amazing. He knew I needed to see this, I wish I would have seen her before, I would have never believed it. She was so fast and graceful with each movement. She was beautiful.

-Lilian

I’m not sure how my Dad did it, but my mom finally relented. It was like a switch flipped and my mom was all in. I need to spend some time with my little brother before I leave, he’ll go off to Alpha training

next year and he won’t admit it, but I know he’s nervous. I head to his room, but before I knock I over hear him talking, I assume on his cell. “Yeah man, I can’t believe it either. Lil is a dumbass, no way I’d give up a set up like that. Who cares if he had a w***e on the side, as long as she was set.” No f*****g way was that going to slide, I kicked the door off the hinges and let myself in. “ LIL, I..I..I didn’t mean it.. I swear! ” he cried. I grabbed him by the ear and dragged his little ass straight to mom and dad. Letting him hit every step on the way down to them.

“What in the hell Lil?” My dad asked. “Sean, would you like to explain or would you like me to?” He grunted, so I repeated his words to my dad and asked how he would like to handle it. My dad then grabbed my brother’s other ear and dragged him the rest of the way out of the house. So much for any sentimental sibling time, maybe we would get the chance, if he wanted before I left. I wasn’t so sure now. The time for me to leave was fast approaching and my excitement was building. I was ready for my next chapter to begin.

The next day, Sean came to me, wrapped his arms around me and hugged me. “I’m sorry Lil, I didn’t mean it, I swear, I was just joking around with Jace. I know I shouldn’t have let him agg me on, I don’t know, damn, I’m just sorry.” He kept squeezing me. “It’s ok, but I can’t breathe, man.” And we both started laughing. We spent the rest of the day with each other and it was great. It was a much needed day for both of us, with some much needed catch up time.

Later that night HE popped into my mind suddenly, I hadn’t thought of him much over the last few days, by pure will alone. I pushed myself to train and think of nothing else but preparing myself for what I was about to do. Right now in the silence of my room all I could think about was his face and the fear and hurt as I said those final words and the acceptance when I explained why before I shifted and ran. It was then I jolted with a realization that I had forgotten, “He never accepted! Oh Goddess Lyla, He never accepted! What if, what if we feel it when he.. when he.. I can’t even say it.. What are we going to do?” I said aloud to my wolf. Lyla could only whimper. I got up and ran to my mom and dad, looking for an answer. One neither of them could give me, I was so screwed!