Cheating Death

Confusion

Ava

I woke up startled. My lips felt tingly and I could taste Azrail. But that can't be it was just a dream. My heart is beating ninety miles a minute and there are butterflies in my stomach. I get this really weird feeling of de ja vu but that can't be right.

I sit in bed for a few more minutes before I look at the clock and see that it's 4 am. I groaned and put the pillow over my face wanting to scream into it but I feared that would wake my mom and then what would I say? Tell her about my dream with a boy that I'm supposed to stay away from starting to turn steamy and I still feel like I can taste and feel him? Yeah no thanks.

Groaning I get up and go down stairs to make a pot of coffee. Mom left a note on the fridge that says there is left overs in there if I'm hungry. I opened the fridge door and removed the spaghetti bowl. While waiting for it to warm up in the microwave I check my phone to see I have fifteen missed calls and thirty text messages from Lily.

I rolled my eyes and dig in. I don't want to reply and get her asking more questions but I've got to tell her something. I hurry and send a quick text hoping she will be asleep.

ME: Hey sorry I was tired and fell asleep. No worries

I leave it at that and start scrolling through social media. Someone broke the golden rule of the secret get together that we had and posted pictures. My heart rate picks up and I drop the fork clattering onto the table when I see the picture of Azrail and I kissing. My eyes go so wide and I start internally screaming at myself for being weak in that moment. My phone dings and startles me. I already know it's Lily without looking at it.

LILY: What the hell happened last night!!!!

ME: What do you mean? We went to the party together.

LILY: You know EXACTLY what I mean and you better start fessing up sister.

Shit! She must have seen the photos that were posted. What do I do? I can't tell her about my strange dream and I sure don't want to tell her about why we were kissing and what was being said between us. I need to come up with an excuse fast.

LILY: I'm waiting or does Azrail have your tongue

ME: It was nothing. Just a small thank you for him saving me from the creep on the foot ball team.

LILY: What creep?

Good she is distracted and won't ask anymore questions about Azrail.

LILY: I know you are trying to change the subject but still tell me about the creep and then we will talk more about that kiss

I silently groan to myself and hit my forehead softly on the table. Why is Lily like this? Better question is why did I feel so compelled to kiss him? I won't be able to face anyone at school Monday. This is going to be so embarrassing. I hate social media for this reason. Some things should stay private.

LILY: Playing hard to get I see. I'll be over in 30 minutes and you better let me in bitch

I get up and put my dishes in the sink knowing I'm defeated and won't be able to get out of this. Instead I go take a shower and put on some tv while I wait for her to get here. My mom comes down stairs and grabs a cup of coffee and some toast. She goes to head out the door and stops when she sees me on the couch curled up under a blanket.

"Is something wrong sweetie?"

"No mom I just couldn't sleep but I promise everything is alright?"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes mom I'm positive. Have a good day at work and don't worry about me. I'm a big girl now and I can take care of myself."

"That may be so but you still live under my roof so it's my rules and I'm allowed to worry about you. You are my daughter and that is my job to stress about what you are doing and what is bothering you."

"Thanks mom. I really appreciate it and I promise I will tell you if something is ever wrong ok?"

She nodded her head to me and walked to the door putting on her coat and grabbing her to go cup of coffee. She opened the door as I sunk back into my comfy blanket but she stopped for a moment so I looked at her.

Turning to me she said, "Oh, and by the way, we will discuss that kiss with that boy when I get home from work this evening."

She slammed the door closed and I froze in my spot. Holy s**t I was in trouble.